@55depths
@bleedteam
@zephyrcove
@eunhae
prod/mixed/mastered by me.
additional vocals by @riptenshi

i want myself back.

lyrics:
how could i look in the mirror?
all i see is someone hiding something
couldn't be any clearer
that i lost my way a real long time ago
did you really think you'd get this far?
are you truly fine with who you are?
cut the bullshit
you've been living a great lie
killed by guilt from the inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

(eunhae)
wait a minute
it'll be fine in the end
and if it doesn't
then at least we can pretend
we're in control and
it's all going to plan
i say i'm fine
but not and i'll just do it again
it's gonna take a lot of time
to heal from everything that makes me cry
i keep on trying even though i really wanna hide
i wanna grow but i'm still spending every day inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me
on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me...

spotify

do it again w/ eunhae

https://open.spotify.com/album/5OLPJ6C75VJSpk2oDL4WUw?si=1c2fwJxFRxOixvrJpXRG0Q
lyrics:

evan marzz:
i sent a text i’m just hopin that u call back
this ain’t a flex baby tell me where ur heart at
think that i’m next but i’m not the one to call that
head on my desk and i think i need it all back

bitch ain’t giving no fucks 
tell me did i glow up
i’m a fuckin G u better watch bout how u step bruh
said to hit my line and now she acting like a hoe bruh
yea she tell me no duh 
i’m finna forget ya
i heard u impatient uh uh
waiting 
imma boss up make u think bout what u sayin 
u be on talkin shit but be chillin to my face man
u act like a bitch and i’ll put u in ur place man

this ain’t a joke make me mad like why u lyin
i feel alone ain’t nobody i can vibe with
i cop a wip windows down when im not ridin 
she take a sip and she askin if we tied in

yurms:
they said lil bitch like a drug it’s like a virus
up wakin get up offa my chest
tell me u want me u can feel it in ur eyelids
i cant ever get enough u need to try it

shot in my brain i can’t get it outta my head
blunt in my face i can’t get it outta my hand
up it ain’t stuck stand on shit until i dive in
blunt on my face had to get it above here 
we not on the same page i feel like u don’t care
everything i say hey i cant even go there
always say the same thing this ain’t goin nowhere
u act like u hate me i cant take u nowhere 

evan marzz:
bitch ain’t giving no fucks 
tell me did i glow up
i’m a fuckin g u better watch bout how u step bruh
said to hit my line and now she acting like a hoe bruh
yea she tell me no duh 
i’m finna forget ya

bitch ain’t giving no fucks 
tell me did i glow up
i’m a fuckin G u better watch bout how u step bruh
said to hit my line and now she acting like a hoe bruh
yea she tell me no duh 
i’m finna forget ya
i heard u impatient uh uh uh
waiting 
imma boss up make u think bout what u sayin 
u be on talkin shit but be chillin to my face man
u act like a bitch and i’ll put u in ur place man

glow up w/ yurms (p. xtasane)

✦happy new year :) i'll try my best to post a new song every 2-3 weeks from now on!! i hope u enjoy this song, it's gonna be on all plats in the next couple days i love u guys✦

lyrics
--------
and i faint
watch me bleed i don't wanna stay awake
comprehend i don't wanna stay the same
used me up then u wanted me to change
i'm so done i don't think i'll be ok

i don't think i'll be ok i told u i don't wanna die
u said that it's ok and then u told me close ur eyes
i'm lost in my head cause now i know it's do or die
stay drunk in my bed u told me u won't suicide

then i fled
i've been dead in my head there's a mess
i've been fighting all these demons yeah i bled
i don't think u would've ever even said
no you could've never said

fuck u did it again u done changed me
to much in my head i feel like breaking
on my own again i feel forsaken
guess i picked the prize and now i'm racing

what'd they say about me again
i know u don't like me anyways
never wanted me to stay
now i'm gone and you'll never see me
again
no don't worry i'm dead
u fed
me up with your lies then i fled

through the dark night i feel dead inside
gotta fly by, there's a storm outside
it don't matter how hard i try
it's gon be all gone, all gone on the count to five

Stay Awake

amv <3

Stay Awake (strivebeats + jkeiloops)

first track of the ep "erasure" by owtiss!! see you next week for full release of it and the returning series of unchained volumes <333

psa. whoever is botting the views and likes each time i posted this, stop doing that ty

@owtiss
@neohnq

if ur gonna lie at least make it believable :/
tryna piece my heart together before the cracks erode
say u love me then you dont i rly need to know
im okay its nothing i just wanna be alone

i cant see the day
that u remember me
i wna stay away
cuz u wont leave my brain :(
i just wanted to stay
now nothing feels the same
just put up with pain
the smile u took away

ur dead to me
everyday i think of what u said to me
i just wanted to forget while i fell asleep
and now everyday it feels like its the end of me
things i never used to think are looping endlessly..

owtiss - erode (neohn)

feat. @aftrrs

[intro]
let me know if youre tellin the truth
please dont forget me 
cause i could never forget you 
yeah its best that you left for yourself and im glad
that you got all your help 
and hes there for your hand

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 

[verse]
talk down
talk down to me 
dont tell me what you want from me
you dont give just take all of the pieces that i needed

know this wont work out
work out i need it 
takin down these drugs repeated
i dont give no fucks bout my own feelings
no i dont see them ima

act so oblivious and say im doin fine 
but its just
so fucking hard you planted seeds inside my mind
i cant waste no time im fuckin fried
no i dont want no one hit my line
u know that ive been
ive been so lonely 
ive been
ive been so lonely 

ive been
ive been so lonely 

[aftrr]
tell me if you're leaving tonight
do you know how i feel inside
change the topic, press the issue
it don't matter who's wrong or right
waiting on you to decide
wanna skip to the end of my life
who gon wipe your tears when you cry?

i'm tired of missing someone
can't believe i thought you were the one
but i can't lie, without you, it's no fun
like who am i, who have i become

overdue communications
fall through on complications
stand on two's, i don't gotta say shit
acting rude with no basis

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 
x2

refrain

SPOTIFY

refrain ft. aftrr! (plantcham)

yona x @grasior prod @xona

"yona"
spiral through
past the bend
cant see anything with the glare in my lens
to for close
ill make amends
so ill set you aside and take my chance to ascend

step onto the field
WATCH THE GROUND SPLIT IN HALF
twitching in my eye,
HAVENT SLEPT IN DAYS MAN
force myself out of bed,
EVEN WHEN I CANT
muster up the courage,
GHAUL OR STRENGTH

"grasior"
i would lie to cross away with you
how many losses for a blood moon
weeks spent in a lonely hue
wake up i hear your fate is soon

heard you whispers now i cant let go
keep on climbing oh your a coward no?
fall apart the only thing is hope
you keep on talking with nobody home

who do you think you are
talk behind their back like they never go far
seasons change in your head
when you keep talking about
how cold the air is how cold the air is

keep on talking hard like you'd never go far
i've been wondering if you know who you are
you keep on living life in your fantasy world
how true (x2)

ice breaker w/ grasior

𝕿𝖔 𝖒î𝖓 𝖋𝖗ê𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓, [𝕱𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆]

𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍

𝒊'𝒎 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒏.

𝒊 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

𝒊'𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒋𝒂𝒊𝒍

we snuck in the castle
they throwing a party
smell chlorophyll
they're destroying our garden

my soul was on fire
i took off my garments
tracing your body
it tore me apart and

don’t got no say in this matter
i'm talking
touching your skin
our phalanges they locking

both ran away from the kingdom
they stalking
holding me tight through this
village we walking

so damn bashful
i know sometimes i can be an asshole
but i promise i care
when you didn't know
and when you not sure
girl ima hold this shit down
til i'm twenty four

when the roof caved in
couldn't take it all
it’ll pass swear this motherfucker
heavy tho
can't keep putting my trust
in subliminals
i was boutta open my wrist
fucking pitiful

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

they put us on trial
they talking bout burning
girl it's been a while
this wound is concerning

consulting the king
he don’t want us returning
describing our fate
man this shit so disturbing

they off with my head
yea they tried its not working
i came back to life
i belong in the circus

the duke and the duchess
they mad i'm still breathing
love you i hate you
dont know what I'm feeling

so damn mysterious
girl, i know a lot of times i'm not serious
not a goddamn chance i'm oblivious
yea you know me
heart is frozen
but you warm me
baby hold me?
and now i'm so damn cold
what you told me?
bout that damn teddy bear?
told me hold it
when i start to feel scared
started holding
now my blood runneth over
God im hoping

i'm like damn
how bout you try acting like a man
haven’t heard from Thomas since 07
no i can’t
snuffed his lights out man it
hit me like a ram
head to toe in iron
couldn’t spare a single damn

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

fell down the stairs
girl you snuck in the dungeon
cobblestone steps know it's her
you so clumsy

never thought you’d
ever come back
now we hugging
swear i hear that yellow motherfucker
steady coming

ooo
not that candy lady
or that ice man
not that little penguin
he a nice lad

i mean that lemon muhfucka
inna black suit
get behind me
i won't let no one attack you

im a villain
for the way that i've done you
still pretending that you chilling
till it comes true

am i evil?
im thinking lethal?
i know the good from the bad
all these people

think im crazy
or a user
everyday someone new
call me "abuser"

𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙯𝙮?

𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

𝙖𝙢 𝙞 𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙡?

𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

and i YELL
"i really need you here"
wanna take my heart out my chest?
baby yea
bleeding on my desk
so grotesque
is it fair?
one meal
four walls
girl it feel like i'm in jail

23 hours in this room
i'm in jail
23 years bad mood
i'm in jail
i don't got a name imma number
i'm in jail
i can't catch a full night of slumber
i'm in jail

barely taking showers
man it feel like i'm in jail
i don't got no power
warden knocking on my cell
didn't brush my teeth
man i feel like im in hell
nobody like me
man it feel like im in jail

i can hear brutus
man it feel like im in jail
why the fuck i do it
someone get me outta here
low skin fade
steady pulling out my hair
i'm not getting paid
man it feel like im in jail

(girl tell me what it is what it is what it is)

𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐

STREAM

jail

your love

prod(@scrobaby + @prodnomu)

//
Im sick to my stummy I can't feel a thing
Scrolling on my phone and I cant even think
How you sposed to go its only been a week
hope ill never have to ever see you leave

And i jus wish that u would go home
I miss it everytime i look at all our photos
I cant do this no mo
Cuz i been patient but i hate it when its so slow

Christian on my coat i feel mysterious
All black fitted on my body i feel serious
Tell me y u mad cz bich im curious
I jus asked a question y u furious

im all alone again
I need some medicine
im all alone again
I need some medicine

I have a problem and i cant seem 2 do anything
I’d find a cure but i think ur my only medicine
Im narcissistic by myself and thats my only sin
i need to visit u so i can find some happiness
(2x)

thought i was doing fine
turns out i crossed your line
i felt so bad about myself n how i made u cry

i think i lost my mind
when i called u at night
i promise u that there would never be a second time

im all alone again
I need some medicine
im all alone again
I need some medicine

And i jus wish that u’d go home
I miss it everytime i look at all our photos
I cant do this no mo
Cuz i been patient but i hate it when its so slow

medicine

lyrics

baby, I’m not tryna go freak out
But you’re playing with my life right now
Can you tell me when the high comes down?
I don’t ever wanna leave this town

Oh no where at the party and I’m falling apart
You got the key to my life
you got the key to my heart
So now I wish to go back
We’re going back to the start
That night that we fucking met
The night of falling apart
That night you told me you love me
Its crazy you’re never there
We're in the back of the party
We’re doing drugs on the stairs
And I know now I mean nothing to you
Trust me, I’m aware
Like I can’t do this now

Hate you and hate this town
Thank God I’m up right now
Thank God I’m up right now
up right now
Oh no i don’t wanna play your games
Hating on me cause we’re not the same
With synthetic in the back all day

I don’t wanna play this
Bitch you know you’re dead to me
See me on your playlist
Everything you said to me

Oh no where at the party and I’m falling apart
You got the key to my life
you got the key to my heart
So now I wish to go back
We’re going back to the start
That night that we fucking met
The night of falling apart
That night you told me you love me
Its crazy you’re never there
We're in the back of the party
We’re doing drugs on the stairs
And I know now I mean nothing to you
Trust me, I’m aware
Like I can’t do this now

I don’t wanna play this
Bitch you know you’re dead to me
See me on your playlist
Everything you said to me

fijimar party

stream

party [jvsper]

✦ it's out now everywhere i hope u enjoy!! thank u for listening <3 listen to it on other sites here: https://share.amuse.io/PywdA2IRD7Yx ✦
@decayinganyways @bitekivibes

lyrics
--------
and i just cannot walk on
girl why u taking so long
i guess that u got enough
im really just nothing more
i told u you were so wrong
now i just dont give a f*ck
my heart it is getting crushed
by u, you're tearing it down 

time flies i die, cold nails dead flies
on my coffin tonight 
don’t write don’t act don’t say 
that we’ll find that you’ll just go stay 
you’ve been gone to long
but somehow you still got your claws 
inside my chest the cavity 
i’m bleeding out entirely 
can’t say it any differently 
it’s killing me

so long w/ decayinganyways & biteki (yasuo! x jibaorockin)

･ﾟ✧NOKERB✧･ﾟ

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