martyr

Bleeding Through My Ears

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Lifes been real hard, you know im a fraud
Act tough all the time, but inside I cry
Think im gonna hit the hay, maybe tonight I will see ya

Daydreams keep me sane, problems in my brain
You are all I want, I love you oh wait
Around me vision fades, alone again cause I just woke up

In the end it was all a dream
You're not real theres noone who loves me
You were always in my head, in an hour i'll forget ya

I've been real tired, always undesired
Never seen a girl, its all so absurd
Think im gonna hit the hay, maybe tonight I will see ya

In the end it was all a dream
You're not real theres noone who loves me
You were always in my head, in an hour i'll forget ya

You're Not Real

i hope u enjoy this album its kinda diffrent sound but i hope it brings u joy!

Eat More Chicken

instrumental by my boy @prodpishogue go follow

lyrics:

you said you love me
but i cant ever tell tho
she said she hates me
its hard for me to know tho
maybe im a fool and nobody really loves me
said she wont hurt me, she really really cut me

really really thought she wouldnt stab me
snuck a tag into my car and tracked me
looked in thru my windows when im napping
why shes always there when im lacking

she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
i want her out of my head

shell probably come track me down
shes probably here in my town
shell probably take me away
ill probably never be found
she really need to calm down
she need some lean or some loud
she such a queen, need a crown
i know ill never be found

you said you love me
but i cant ever tell tho
she said she hates me
its hard for me to know tho
maybe im a fool and nobody really loves me
said she wont hurt me, she really really cut me

maybe im the crazy one idk

Zoning Out Ruined My Life

i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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I'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
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Believe me 
when i say 
that things really
did change

I woke up and saw you
and you were acting
so strange
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Now that i have gone away
you can have all the space
that you prayed for
that i paid for
is this i get blamed for?

now that it's all gone
is that you really want
i just want to carry on 
and I want you to move on
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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i'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really did change
I woke up and saw you
you were acting so strange
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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Running Away

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

extremist

cry 4 help

i feel so full of hatred
its killing me
the violent tendencies
i need to please

i freeze in place
your blood is on my face
i want to get out of this place
but your corpse is in the way
will i ever be forgiven

its all coming back to me
your scream, its so haunting
and it all felt so good at the time
but now i wanna die
please end my fucking life

please excuse me
your corpse is in my way
please excuse me
your always in my way

please excuse me

Old demo I had but never published because I thought it was bad. 

Woke up at 4, didn’t leave my bed
Saw that you left me left on read
Tried to text back, I changed my mind
Guess I’ll just rot here, guess I'll die

Yeah, I'm trying to move past her
But it's so hard to forget her
Yeah, I swore I’d get it together
But I’m still stuck in last November

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I'm watching the paint peel from the wall
Crying as I wait for your call
Told myself I would start again
But here I am, waiting again

It’s fine, I’m used to it
Always feeling like shit
I'm burnt out in my mind
But I swear that I'm fine

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

Cut Me Instead

Run away

miss america

[Intro]
i remember when i was so ignorant and immature
i remember it so well because it was yesterday

[Chorus]
and then i found out how easy it was
to just lie to everyone just because
it was fun to play pretend that im one of them
but in reality i was just so numb

[Verse 1]
but as much fun it was it all had to end
someday they'll know about my boyfriend
but its all alright right now because of how i act
they treat me like one of them because of my rack

[Chorus]
and then i found out how easy it was
to just lie to everyone just because
it was fun to play pretend that im one of them
but in reality i was just so numb
i remember when i was so happy and cool
because i filled myself with lies from my fools

[Verse 2]
came home from school and opened up my app
incels weirdos all alike flood in and clapped
i felt like a queen living in such speed
but then they realized my discord about me said

[Chorus]
that i had a boyfriend and he was mine forever
and thats when i was queen of incels for a day

[Outro]
and then i found out how easy it was
to just lie to everyone just because
it was fun to play pretend that im one of them
but in reality i was just so numb

Incel Queen

trick r treat

I know I’m nothing that you wanted to see 
I know I’m not a single thing I’ve ever wanted to be 
I know there’s not a thing you’ve wanted from me 
I know that you’re sick so I guess that I’ll just leave 

I’ll go back home if I know you really want it
And I’ll hop on the game as soon as I install it 
I never thought the time would leave me stuck right here 
Now nothing is the same and I never feel the same no more 

Fuck my body cuz my brain is on a mission
To see how fast I can kill myself with my inhibitions 
I get anxiety from the little things 
I don’t wanna be seen I’m not a man in name

Oh god 

I feel so lonely and my dogs my only friends 
I get so sick of this damn room it feels just like a pen 
No one cares anyway and I have zero fans
I’ll smash my guitar into bits until it pains my hands 

And I’d leave you alone if you really need it 
I got myself a new bad habit got me a new demon 
I never throught there’d be no better days 
And everyday’s the same and I always feel this way 

Fuck everybody I hate myself and this shit 
reality in front of me but I won’t ever see it 
There’s no variety in my day to day 
I don’t wanna be seen I’m not a man in name

Oh no

whats new? (i dont have fun)

i'm horrid henry cover

im never speaking again
too much dumb shit that ive said
so much dumb shit in my head
i would be better off dead
i would be better off gone
i am a fucking retard
i fuck everything up
i make my life so hard

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

im never making new friends
my life has come to an end
people think i am a sped
why am i so retarded
just put me in the grave
i dont know how to behave
i cant communicate
i am a fucking dumbass

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

spaz attack spaz attack
didnt mean to fucking say that
spaz attack spaz attack
too many things that i cant take back

whats new? (i dont have fun)

nokilam