when i change the subject oh it gets so frightening
and then you wonder why theres so much in my life im hiding ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

got me crying inna parking lot. love the emotion on this one yall <3

Been my favorite song since I found this masterpiece 🙏🏼🖤

broken ft. navyxower (dash)

corbin cover
cover of "mask it to the casket" :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/16u5jqodaQ5oWqhoTxhJhe?si=CeaWjF9zSFumLTxvtCpsbg

I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like a scumbag, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on a string
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
I get too frustrated when I'm not sedated
Threw away all my passion, baby I'm paying for my actions
Why you gotta celebrate it? I think that the wall's 'bout to cave in
I'm a kraken, my feelings being drowned, yeah, I sank them
Pathetic, yeah, I'm so pathetic, I get it
I'm a menace, it's time for my penance
Confession, I've been known to cause infection
A weapon, lethally inject, no discretion, no
I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like scum, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on the screen
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
No emotion, I mask it to the casket
Can't control it, do you really want to see me relapse?
Overloaded, I think it's time I pack in
Any way you fold it, yeah, it's always gonna be a back then
No, no emotion, won't let them see
Nothing to show, no vanity
I think I've lost all sanity
I have become my worst enemy
My heart is breaking, it's more than what's fair (more than what's fair)
I'm non-existent, it's like I'm not here (like I'm not here)
Don't wanna sink again, I don't, I'm scared (I don't, I'm scared)
I'm getting tired of this

mask it (corbin)

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

and i'm trynna get my money up
travel where the dreams come true 
when people make it it's never luck
except when it comes to you 

lately i been asking for help
sadly with no1 to come thru 
they say i just think bout myself
i'm trynna keep myself away from the box made out of wood

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how 

drugs keep me afloat
wavs keep me from ending it all
sometimes i wish u crushed my throat
so i woulnd't have to feel at all
so i wouldn't've to deal with all
the bullshit i get involved 
with everysingle day 
cause it just means a new headache 

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

all my friends say i've changed (kaydo)

lyrics

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think is for the best if you let this run its course
yea cuz everything has a purpose and im safe i swore
that id keep myself away from harm no matter what
even if its not what i want
told myself that id protect you from all pain
even if thats me sometimes
im stepping through mines
you dont like the person laying next to you right now
baby you dont gotta lie
but i love you id give up anything for you
that includes getting high
i could die right now in the place im in
with my head rested on your thigh
right here where i lie
im drowning trapped under ice
and her soft words become a foreign language
this time of night
and her butterflies turn to pure anguish
when i have to say goodbye
you really are my best friend
ill love you till i die
and ill love you till the very end
but im just happy you're here for the ride

cuz those lazy days dont feel so lazy at all
with you and my friends here i promise that i wont fall
turn the beer into a natural disaster make a tornado waterfall
but still you aint picking my calls up
cuz i aint been sober in a while
me and this drink like best friends
but he hates me im just in denial
remember back in the day
in the back of the car i was smoking on white owls
yea im a night owl
i just need a night out
think i just need a quick break so this cigarette feel like a timeout
maybe i just need to lie down
or maybe i just need to go outside
but this blunt knock me out like a takedown
you gotta crouch down just to see my eyes
she really want to know where i am now
maybe ill come see you if i got time
and i really wish i couldve been your lighthouse
maybe i did help you in different life
i really cant tell where i am now
but grey smoke covers up purple skies
and even when the studio close down
ill still love you till the day i
oh i cry blood
i cry tears of joy
i cry tears for you

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think its for the best if you let this run its course

my best friend (jacob vallen)

lyrics

just to let you know imma fuck this up again
i hope you dont change your mind
and all those times i ignored you, my love
its just cuz i was high
and as september comes to an end
im thankful now, more than ever
i look at this beautiful life that we have made with each other
i hope this never ends

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

build it up
break it down
its the end of the world in a few days
is this something we can fix in a few days
i had a little bit to drink and now i feel great
i had something on my mind but i think i forgot it
i hit up the plug and then i go and make a deposit
cuz lately i been fucked up everytime im writing these sonnets
i get high then i get drunk then i go and run it like sonic
the distrokid check came in im getting coins like im sonic
she love me more than i love myself think its kind of ironic
ive been burning bridges from the fires you started
and ive been making wishes everytime night is star-lit
theres secrets being shared between me and the  scarlett
its making money on the web kind of like charlotte
a white pill in the morning before its even started
but baby everything i do is for you-

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

i hope this never ends (miercoles)

lyrics

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
you call it poison i call it an antidote
i hate to see your scars unfold
and you think youre all alone

but im here for you my love
you just sit there while i smoke in my yard
ill try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

i hope i dont stay this way
she had the nerve to tell me that ive changed
everything has lost its color
you can see it
even my fucking eyes turned grey
you made my fucking whole life change
from the first day i saw your face
you know you have my favorite face
you know that id do anything for you
now im on the road
but the citys dark
i think i should really be sleeping
said youd call me if you need me
but i dont think you really mean it
i been waiting for a long time
just for some type of some way
to help you
i love you
always

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
youre calling it poison i call it an antidote
ill wait until youre finally home
and you think youre all alone
but im here for you
drunk outside smoking with you
try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

imhereforyou (jacob vallen)

lyrics ⬇️

i walk away from everything i know
let me be
where i wanna go
drifting away in my sleep

broken lamp but the light still on
everything i do i feel is wrong
tell me to try and then i end up seeming dumb
yea my anxiety riddles my tongue

i cannot speak without feeling numb
and i feel at home when im all alone
weak in the knees when i see em run
i know that theyre against all of the stuff ive done

Crawl out of the basement find another when were out of touch

find someone to share the love from up avove
i dont hate the pressure but i fold when it gets way to much
yea outta luck
yea outta trust

i saw my demise when i saw you do that lil shoulder shrug
yea now u hate my guts; no longer think im a stud
yea i thought it was over with the first time that you left me off
wrong all along
turn my body off

(skele)

skele -
i won’t let you go 
but we won’t make it till the morning 
colder than the snow 
but i still need someone to hold me 
start to lose control 
i hold it down
inside it’s storming 
hear it in my voice 
it start to shake 
when i’m recording 

going numb 
off this bottle 
poured up 
nobody left 
no more light 
no love 
fool me once 
gave my life 
for what 
all i want 
in my eyes 
was us 

nobody there for me to cry for
breaking down 
to you i’m looking like an eye sore 
breaking down 
to you
you’re someone i would die for 
triple digits on the dash 
hit a high score 

i thought maybe i was someone you could try for 
i thought maybe i was someone you would like more 
i thought maybe i was someone you could fall for 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t anymore

spite w/ skele & static (blocktane x nate2timez)

lyrics
i just need one reply
forgot how much i smoked and now im too high
i go out back to smoke and make my lungs cry
need a new picture for the song im looking to the sky
im outside just taking pictures of the fucking sky
she want me to tell her im not like other guys
truth is baby im just like those other guys
everytime i let you down
youre like this happens every time
i wont lie

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

you said that you wanna see the right
me im sorry but my life is like a light beam
its way too fast you can see it for a second like its lighting
when i change the subject oh it gets so frightening
and then you wonder why theres so much in my life im hiding
everybody thinks the stuff they think so uninviting
and i cant even try my best they think that im not trying
and i cant take it when they think that i been lying
now days got my heart vacant hear it when im sighing
why u wrote me up a ticket idk what i am signing
maybe if i fix it then youll come around to like me
and if not then ill run away and ill find peace
i been tryin hard to fix it up with everything i got
its been goin wrong lemme take another shot
missin every shot but gettin closer to spot
now yea im locked down

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

monday night w/ brecken (p. under the maple tree)

@nevermadeithome:
just one look at you
that's when i knew
[x2]

@lottaheart:
that’s when i knew that you were meant for me
keep every letter that you sent to me
yeah, i cherish every memory
i just want you next to me
cause when you are

i don’t feel as bad anymore
when I’m with you
we’re all alone,
just me and you inside my room
when you get sad, I’m here for you
you’re here for me too
don’t want you to leave, she said "me too"
[x2]

@nevermadeithome:
i don't feel bad,
anymore
just the butterflies,
right in my core
i love your shoes
i think they're cute
and then she turned and said,
"i love you too"
you make my thoughts crazy
and if it's 2am,
i would trek down to your house alone
the roses that i bought
have wilted in the dark
they could've been so beautiful

@lottaheart:
i don’t feel as bad anymore
when I’m with you
we’re all alone,
just me and you inside my room
when you get sad, I’m here for you
you’re here for me too
don’t want you to leave, she said "me too"
[x2]

don’t want you to leave cause i need you
travel round the world just to see you
i would give you me to complete you
she said she do the same, she agreed to

i dont feel as bad [lostcage]

produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (prod. cxrter x retz)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

rock bottom

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