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I Break Everything I Touch (prod. CapsCtrl)

produced, written, sang, mixed and mastered by me
lyrics - 
You’ve written me an ending
With places I’ll go 
An ending I’ll love cause it shows how I’ve grown
I’ll finish up this story
Because I now know
You’re in it ‘til the end and you make it flow

Under the stars, you kiss me in the dark
You helped me shape, who I am today
It’s a happy ever after kind of love
I know it was fate
Tell me now my love
Was it worth the wait

Spent so much time with you
And I’m falling in love with everything you do 
And when I’m looking at you
It’s like all my dreams came true
You’re my home
You’re my mind
My heart beats
Cause you’re mine
And I promise I will keep you by my side
‘Til the end of time

a perfect ending

produced, written, sang, mixed and mastered by me
lyrics -
Ruin everything I try and do, cause it’s on my mind
So much that I gotta prove, too scared to try
I’m sick of everyone I just want you, in my life
I know I’ve got nothing to lose, but still I hide
Will I find out how to break out of the cycle
Hurry up, make a choice now and pick the right one
I’ll be alone once you go I know I’ll bleed out
I won’t fight it
And I won’t scream for help
Reasons, yeah I know all mine
Never really wanted to live this life
Still breathing, and I don’t know why
Already passed my original time
I need you, all the time
You are the one who calms my mind
A feeling, that feels so right
A feeling I need all the time
So tired but that’s nothing new
Just need more time
Motivation, never heard of you
Too hard to find
I’m submerging in despair
What a waste of my own life
Fabricated complications
Build up in my mind

Is it alright to feel this way
You hope I make it through another day
New commitments got me freaking out
It’s so exhausting to speak about
I’ve fallen too many time
Is it possible to rewind
I’ve wasted too much time 
And too many tears

Ruin everything I try and do, cause it’s on my mind
So much that I gotta prove, too scared to try
I’m sick of everyone I just want you, in my life
I know I’ve got nothing to lose, but still I hide
Will I find out how to break out of the cycle
Hurry up, make a choice now and pick the right one
I’ll be alone one you go I know I’ll bleed out
I won’t fight it
And I won’t scream for help
Reasons, yeah I know all mine
Never really wanted to live this life
Still breathing, and I don’t know why
Already passed my original time
I need you, all the time
You are the one who calms my mind
A feeling, that feels so right
A feeling I need all the time
So tired but that’s nothing new
Just need more time
Motivation, never heard of you
Too hard to find
I’m submerging in despair
What a waste of my own life
Fabricated complications
Build up in my mind

fallen too many times

9TAILS - arctic eyes (cover)

prod tiedforsilver x flesh


tear my flesh apart and leave me rotting in the basement
stomp my fucking skull into the dark grey pavement
i am just a hollow shell a body not to lay with
i just wanna feel the love instead of always fakin

fake shit
i dont wanna take it no more
im vacant 
watch my vessel sink in the floor
self hatreds 
the only thing i feel any more
ill take it
just so you dont walk out the doooor

dont walk out
goin too fast cant stop now
put my heart on lockdown

dont walk out
goin too fast cant stop now
put my heart on lockdown
we gon make it out now

we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out

i said we could fucking make it out
grabbed me by the face & kissed me
then we started making out
i was listening to dgd & it was raining out
voices in my head been asking what are you complaining bout

i said what are u complainin bout
baby we could make it outta here without a hint of doubt
i think im infected and theyl never find an antidote
everything is golden in my eyes i think ur freakin out

and its really over nothing
ur overreacting
that was what youd tell me when id get in a rut

ill always let you have me
any day you ask me
even if ur nothing but a snake in the mud

we'll make it out of here, i promise

beat produced by lil nightshift 
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb4KSyiaqbe_4UTYHZZEXOg

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

knife to the back how you feelin bout that
that's how you treat everyone all the time
life goes fast as it flashes through your eyes
i'll stand and watch and complain about mine
you're so sad i can't stand you
everyone around has abandoned you too
that's cause no one can handle
all the misery you put them through

so goodbye now
guess your time ran out
keep it quiet now
for you there's no way out

she told me i'm crazy, like yeah i know
i'm helping you out cause you gotta go
you're insane, told you long ago
time to leave this place you dumb girl

she tries to attack but it sets her right back
tears are flooding out of her eyes
this shouldn't even be too much to unpack
i smile and laugh over her cries
she's so scared, and no ones here for her
all the noise just turns into a whisper
she's so unprepared, won't know what hits her
and hopefully things can just go back to how they once were

she cried "it's not fair"
wait, why are you not self aware
you've done so much shit that you cannot repair
ruined lives and you don't even care

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

blood covers the pavement 
now i hear sirens wailing 
stained clothes got no time to change them
so i'll stay here and wait then
bite marks on both of my knees
covered in marks and bruises
in my head i'm replaying your screams
never met someone so useless

sirens (lil nightshift)

with @decksmusic

[intro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[verse - decks]
and when i look underneath i'm the reason i rot in hell
i did all i could to help you, never helped myself
i wonder what it would take now to flip it all month
these visions have plagued me i'm tripping
say what you're feeling cause i know it's different
you'll never wish me well
no you'll never wish me well

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
you’re like the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[outro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

oni boy x decks - zzz (prod. idealism x Lucid Green)

switching signals w/ halfhearted

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up daisies hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (w/ notahero) (malloy x jkei)

soundcloud only...
prod. irby - https://www.youtube.com/@irby314/videos

The waves you hear crash down
They are misspoken
Leaves inside the pack are ripped open
Find it hard to love 
Told i was broken
I’m crystalized inside 
I was hoping
   
Intertwined timelines
Flooded rooms 
Under gray skies
Walking through streets at night
Can't seem to find your light
Welcome to the end
Of my ride
2 times is a long time
Texting you but I can’t type

Lost in the big world
Where no one knows me
Too drunk too lonely
Wishing for you to hold me 
Beyond redemption  
It wasn’t for the attention
Too bad i’m gone now
Blurred my own reflection

Calm down
Look up to the sky
Wind gush 
Rush against the time

Just lust
Keep me in your sight
What's love
No one thought to try

9TAILS - arctic eyes (cover)

notcursed

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