Yesssss 🥵🥵🥵🥵 so haunting beautiful dude i hope youre okay

prod. numb - https://www.youtube.com/@_numb

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wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

pretty girls (numb)

soundcloud only...
prod. irby - https://www.youtube.com/@irby314/videos

The waves you hear crash down
They are misspoken
Leaves inside the pack are ripped open
Find it hard to love 
Told i was broken
I’m crystalized inside 
I was hoping
   
Intertwined timelines
Flooded rooms 
Under gray skies
Walking through streets at night
Can't seem to find your light
Welcome to the end
Of my ride
2 times is a long time
Texting you but I can’t type

Lost in the big world
Where no one knows me
Too drunk too lonely
Wishing for you to hold me 
Beyond redemption  
It wasn’t for the attention
Too bad i’m gone now
Blurred my own reflection

Calm down
Look up to the sky
Wind gush 
Rush against the time

Just lust
Keep me in your sight
What's love
No one thought to try

misspoken (irby)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised (michael harrison)

s/o @kiddamo
u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

frost bite covers my soul
i dont wanna be alone
it gets cold
when ur not at home
but i get so much warmer when u are close
yea it breaks me to pieces n i cant believe it
i dont kno why u always say that im tweaking
i hope im not right cuz then youll end up leaving
dont wanna put u in the past baby girl im speeding
monsters are creeping
i hear the floor boards creeking
tears dry no more weeping

u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

i really wouldve died for u tho
damn
i never should of cried for u hoe
so tell me why
why i wasted all of my time
i want to light up
see my past burn aways in the fire
no relief when i respire
thats all that i desire
i hate these people think id rather be a loner
im smoking weed until the end cuz im a stoner
like im saul silver

n she said u should call me when ur sober
but thats not in my plans baby girl
my words just getting slower
ill still be here when ur older
rhinestone love shining like the solar
dont wanna be sad anymore
i stopped smoking
dont hit the dab cart anymore
i dont got no friends anymore
i just drink alone
i dont wanna be here anymore

long gone 2 w/kiddamo (kaydo)

awake for too long (prod. I S O L A T E D)

i want you
i want you

say it with chest i feel the tension
for us
hold that again and dont let it go 
no

coz i want you
all of you
i want you

i feel your heart its racing
so many stars so ill say this
a angel came from heaven and told me about you
so hold on
dont you got anywhere w/o me
coz i wont lose you
holding your soul so holy
im there for you

for you
for you
for you
for you

a angel came down from heaven and told me about you (neverforever)

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

i’ll freeze my soul
don’t breathe when im walking alone
hear your voice thru the phone
won’t talk back to you if you call

just leave me on the highway
i decide to run away
i know you hope i’ll change my mind and come to you another day
but imma do it my way
don’t come by my place
if i don’t return by saturday

coming down, i feel fine now
i can’t let anybody find out
on the walk back to my house
time moves slower, it’s frightened

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

stranded (santana)

subsiding (yunnygoldz)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

lyrics ⬇️

Temple in my body really breaking down
 
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

this is something i should stop
new stuff right out the box
i know that there’s consequences to my actions 
but somehow i would never gove up

using your words as a weapon
how could i think you a blessin
Im tryna make it to heaven
you wont be there im guessin :(

if im guessin wrong then ill be grateful 
when heavin calls youll see an angel
restart my life over again
gotta push back
no im not no recycling bin way past that

but i still need some oxygen to keep movin on in this life
if i cant feel the air thats in my lungs then its not right
gotta keep going cuz nothings ever really perfect
and if it is then honestly you really did not deserve it

this is honestly just a statement but i dont
but i dont wanna pave it
i been turning the pages to make it feel like im staying
but i
think i lost me a dime
shoulda never even tried

Temple in my body really breaking down
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

anxiety riddles me everyday 
Do you wanna hear what i really think
i feel the purpose of life is pushing ur self to yhe limit with everything 
if ya heard this know what im sayin
no purchase
no more complainin its worthless might aswell burn all the bridges

gotta get life figured out somehow 
no i dont gotta go down that route
maybe i dont like the large crowds
so ill be locked in my house 

these forest walls only uncover options
when my liscense old
I think youll find me out there hostage
ill watvh the river flow
think ill finally find calmness
and when you ask who helped me
ill say god did.

misspoken (irby)

notcursed

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