u made the first ever song that made me cry wtf

this was supposed to be punk but i made it acoustic for some reason


i saw ur text said i never was enough
i really hate how u treat me like a dog ooooo
make me feel worthless im really really stuck
might kms casue my life is getting rough
tear me down break me to ashes
i dont even know what happened
theyre all staring theyre all laughing
really soon ill end up passing 
oooo
oooooooooo
hoe
oooooooo
oyaoyaooyaoyayoy
thats it okaia bye

my life is getting rough

i hate u i hate u i hate u

pwnd - i hate u i hate u i hate u

prod me

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping

darkness all around
left to following the sounds
and ill wallow in my tears
if i might slip and drown

im nocturnal
drink elixir
im eternally dead
i wont die in any way
try and cut off my head
x2

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping
x2

i need change

weekends demo

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/51ZjJcupHpaKxT2Oib82Q5?si=ff63f972d4e94eec

treat me like the rest do 
i dont even get to 
say that i like you
my message goes right thru
i see ur online too 
why cant i attract u 
why cant i attract u
why cant i attract u

im stuck in a loop 
can someone please shoot
or say that they love me

when will my life shift
how long it will b like this 

treat me like the rest do
i dont even get to
say that i like you
before u make me feel all alone
all alone

in a loop Prod bloodsekai

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/7tvZUKvYRNd0C3rc2xLKLm?si=16da5715988b4e3e (i put the wrong title on spotify like a retard sorry)

yea im the problem... me
i wish our talks had deeper means
but my mind goes black and i cant see
then our connection crumbles and u look down at me
im pitiful and unloveworthy 
in a couple days you'll be someone new to me 
dont beg if u wanna leave
just say goodbye and do as u please

hate realization
im just a leach
i hate reality no one loves me
i pray and hope something will work
the eyes watching me know that im dirt

im not good enough
8x

im not good enough Prod bloodsekai

@weejk

wen u walk thru the door
every1 hits the floor
did u jus want the cash girl?
i wanted to know
wanna be more than friends
rest my head on ur legs
but u dont care about me
u couldnt care less

wujek - you couldnt care less

prod @bloodsekai

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die
but what u said 
its in my head 
n ive been thinkin bout suicide
but instead keep it to myself
i really promise that i tried
x2

i cannot do this on my own
but i begged for u to go
cant let u see me get this low
but ive never been this alone
call my phone
tell me what u wanna do
ill come thru
all for u
cut myself n eat no food

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die
x2

but what u said 
its in my head 
n ive been thinkin bout suicide
but instead keep it to myself
i really promise that i tried
x2

i cannot do this on my own
but i begged for u to go
cant let u see me get this low
but ive never been so alone
but what u said
its in my head
n ive been thinkin
about suicide

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die

u decide

so just tell me im i perfect for you 
my dumb habits always thinking about you
ima loser all i do think about you 
ima do it kill myself to
ima do it kill myself over you
yes ik ik that you love me
that you need me
can you see me
wondering if you think about me like how i do
ima do it agin ima do agin
ima kill myself 20 agin
yes ik that im such werido 
stalking well you go to sleep
yes ik want to date me
but can you handle me
i have  massage on the wall
started think about you before i got thses withdraws
and im sorry i have thes withdraws
do you think it okay if i shoot myself agin
do you think okay if i wanna die agin
do you think okay if i just kill myself agin
cause you tell my sercts and i think like dis again
you said dont worry i worry alot
i think im schizophrenic i think alot
i wont think
just wanna be happy 
need little happines 
in a hour before i die
do you think about me
tell me if you need me
do you acc love me
cause i love you alot
i dont want to think no more

ima kill myself

do you think about me like how i think about  u demo

prod my nigga @odihu 
chronically always online
i just want talk to you all night
be with you like all the time
i just want talk to you one last time
stupid bf always online
retard bf always online
chronically always online do you want play games all da time 
i like you do you love me ?
ant social loser online
im such loser online 
dont even talk im so lost online 
loser bf always online
i just want play game all the time
i love you do love me
i just want play games all the time
ouuuu
i just want be onlineee
im your loser bf online

online bf

prod, mix, master by @bloodsekai

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x2

i dont even wanna die
but i think that tonights the night
i dont wanna fight it
my body wont deny it
do u gotta be so violent?
im bein so compliant
give me one little moment
need time thought i could buy it

i dont think that i could live another day
my body would expire and slowly decay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x3

u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

bandages

(odihu) 
if i had a choice i would steal ur heart
i would break it to pieces and tear it apart
i want you to rot and cluster
my goal is to make you suffer
i know that im the bad guy
i shouldnt be on this side
but i just want you to die
cause you ruined my life

(hxnterbtw)
i fucked up again
and im really fucking sorry
i should just be dead
i only want your love please

i know i shouldnt be like this
im just a useless piece of shit
i always end up ruining it
and baby just give me one kiss

(odihu)
 i dont think that ill get better 
i gotta find something to do
my therapist says that i should leave my wrist alone
but cutting keeps my mind off of you

rot and cluster ft hxnterbtw

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/51ZjJcupHpaKxT2Oib82Q5?si=9d15a65a50364a84

so many failures and more to come
my future is so crushed
im turning into crumbs
i swear im just too dumb
affection i want sum
but i'll never get nun
can't even love myself
im trapped in my own hell
im too young to be true
i wanna feel sum new
they tell me then go do
but i dont have any clue
in my room im so glued
wish i could hit undo
always knew i was doomed
need somewhere to run to

im looking all over
to keep my composure
i need dopamine
i need sum exposure
i really want closure
life sucks as a loner
too bad im afraid of
tryna approach her

hit undo Prod bloodsekai

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










my life is getting rough

odihu

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