produced by sor

watch what you say 
cus i feel it 
and my hands can’t bare this weight 
cant you see it?
cant you see what it’s done to me?
i lost my grip and it took my love from me 
this back and forth is not my cup of tea 

apparently they’re talking again 
but what do they say? 
i can’t hear anything 
alone in my apartment again 
these once white walls
are now a shade of grey
these days i don’t talk to my friends
what could i say
i’m drowning in this lake 
my skin is dissolving again 
the salt water burns
but god i love the taste 
x2

my skin is dissolving again

be like us prod waveboys

Lyrics:
Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I'm staying up, I'm laying low
I'm in the stu, don't check my phone
Don't understand, the new world we know
Not as a part, but just as a whole

I feel left out, not gonna cap
All this new shit, don't keep up with that
I stick to myself, the loneliest fact
Life just goes on, you can't run it back

Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I will keep trying, just for the sake
Yes I will bend, but I will not break
Take a step back at the end of the day
But it's not even over, like give me a break

I don't agree with my fate, yuh
Chasing the money since day one
Still in this mess, I'm a late one

Getting Older

if you know where the reference bars are from - you are swag

Lyrics:

on the pavement i've been laying low
i'd rather lay alone
i'd rather sit and contemplate my fate and fuckin zone
wield a mask and cut my wrist until i feel the flow
i wanna kill myself so bad and you don't even know
never cared about the money or the fame
cuz the money fill my tummy but my pockets stay the same
i've been slowly craving happiness and I should be ashamed
i ain't let myself feel anything these thoughts are all to blame

sweater weather's better
i'd go shirtless in december
but i'm dysmorphic of my body
with no sign of getting better
so i hate the way i look
and i hate the way i feel
but i cannot force the change
so i just suffer in what's real

no happily ever after
return the cast back to sender
i'm no mage but eating spells is something i think i could manage
i just pop another xanax
i am used to disadvantage
i can see through every wall
but i just let her deal me damage

she supports me from the shadows
and i don't know if that's better
think i'd rather her let go
she makes me kinda wanna vanish
i just relish in the effort from my friends and all my brothers
if these pills happen to kill me
hide my body from my mother

my own mind got me fallin off the deep end
sleepin in the crevice
it's not much
just slowly creepin
if you tryna stay alive
don't bother
voices been speaking
cuz the reaper split your face in two 
your blood is leaking

sweater weather (hollowprpl)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

(Prod. Noise Complaint)

Lyrics: 

Couldn’t let you inside
I just do the same thing 45 times
Know I hate the thought of you with any other guy
No I’m not the type of boy just to see you as a prize
Spent a whole year to realise
I can see you lie
You were never mine
But nevermind

It’s always so silly to me how much I respect the honesty
Put so much forward for things you can’t see
Look in my eyes when you’re talking to me
What it is when my heart feels ordinary
Why do I feel so alive when the shit get scary?
It’s only a problem to me

I can see the tear drops falling down
I know you can’t even look at me
My problem always keeps me separate from the crowd
Can’t you look forward without looking down?
I got too many issues to part ways with you now
I gotta sacrifice
Looking so bluntly while I sharpen my knife
I swear I told you this is what I wanna do with my life
But when your eyes meet mine we just can’t think twice
(Is this what I’m doing tonight?)

What I gotta do to make you proud of me?
What’s for the best isn’t what I want
Know your future’s uncertain and it’s always a lot
Know I make you mad, yeah I pissed you off
Would I stop being sad if I make the top?
Give me time baby, and you’ll forget about me
‘Cause if you get much worse I’ll be the only reason
Try to clear your memories, forget the hidden meaning
When it gets so cold that I-

Always the catalyst
Cry harder for me babe this is the last time
I feel so fucking sick in my mind
I’ll never forget your hand on mine
I wanna hurt myself thinking ‘bout the next guy
“Sorry I hurt you” doesn’t make it better
I can not curse you, only the city weather
And when I fell in love I knew this shit was coming
Crashing at false speeds, and you just leave me nothing.

nvm :/

[he4vy] 

 i didnt think that this would happen 
never thought id feel this small
living like a broken shell could you imagine
living like youve never lived at all
and the vices giving me all the distraction 
but it doesnt really help my cause 
swear to god that it feels like im doin back bends
know theyre waiting just to see me fall

pick yourself up off the pavement 
i can tell youre always anxious
if youd give it all youve got kid
i can tell youll be famous
i dont think that i can take this
giving face when faceless
never gonna feel alive
im burnt out like a flamed wick

they dont like the way im living lately 
i know its not healthy 
you say you hate the way im so addicted
god damnit fucking help me
always doing the most
never been one to cope
know its only gets worse
ill pay my dues to a rope
bite my tongue til i choke 
im scared of being alone
can you all just let me go

[halfhearted]

live the same day, again and again
got me looking for the meaning
i keep turning on my only friends
but i hope they know i need them
tried to break a habit but its too late
now i wake up in the morning with these cold shakes 
take a shot to help me ease the migraine 
take a trip and finally leave my hkme staye

never coming back
told u id be better
no need to be sad
no need for the letter 
i was scared that youre broke in two
thats why i never reach out too

hate the way im living
its true
and i know that it drives u crazy
when im stuck inaide my room
in shock
when i think abt you
no other soul that id rather run to
so have space if that what you need
but come back to me x2

let me go ft. halfhearted (king theta)

Prod. Dercept + Ayoley

{HOOK} x2

only ever worried when the music stops 
so thank god I hear the violins
I’m trapped outside of the pearly gates 
and I’m so scared to go fight again   
you put hate where my heart would go 
my enemy was once a friend 
I step foot in the wrong place at the wrong time then my journey ends

{BRIDGE}
treasure chest with you’re heart in it just waiting for me to find again
I’ll do my hardest to pry it open before I become condemned 
if not then it’s all over but god forbid if I try again 
god forbid if I try again


{VERSE}

my bones crack as seasons change 
I feel them break
chest caving in
i have blood covering both my fangs 
the stake you wield is shaving skin 
and eating flesh 
eyes red
like I needed  rest 
I have no mouth and I must scream so I guess
that’ll keep it in 
need fresh air but it feels rotten everytime that I breathe it in 
you’ll need the strength of a hundred men
to put me back on my feet again 
just rip me open 
take my heart
then stitch me up to complete again 
make me feel like me again 
so walk away 
leave my corpse to rot
so that way you can see I’m dead 

{HOOK} x2

99knights - Wrong place, Wrong time

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone