produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

9tails - vent

facts (prod. nciku)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

lyrics

every piece of me is saying
word on the streets is you’re not staying
beg on my knees for you to say it
x2
but pleasant grove is all you know and fractured homes with broken family
i can’t tell you where to go
but every road led back to folly

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

iv been throwing up, iv been throwing up all on the pavement 
she’s said it’s so frustrating 
she said i wish you were happier
so now every smile feel like a facelift
now you got tears running down your face 
but you took it all and i gave it
i know it’s not good for my brain 
but i have more fun when im wasted
now i been drinking every night but safely
six months ago this looked so much different 
but word on the street and my mind says you hate me 
that would rip my heart in an instant
last time we had a fight 
i remember what it felt like to cry 
got smoke in my mouth and got tears in my eyes
cuz i don’t want the last time
to be the last time we say goodbye 

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

sticks and stones tend to break me down
try to grab the wheel but im crashing out
mom and dad don’t like me know
it hurts because they used to be proud
why you never around 
when i’m calling your phone,you’re just putting it down
iv been falling apart on the burial grounds
iv been screaming for help but can’t open my mouth.

folly w/ notahero [king theta]

sewerperson - trust in me

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