The fractal song: love sex death & time travel 

circa April 2021

with artwork shot on location nearby Dickinson, North Dakota

the fractal song

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The fractal song

05

I know you're not alone
Well I know it's all interpretation and correlation
Oh have you seen it
I feel the heat on my skin from the sun
But I can't help but asking

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

Well now I've realised
I can't just walk around with closed eyes
Get a grip of yourself
I know you're scared
Let's look at the semantics
I know I'm so pedantic
It's all perspective, it won't ruin my vision
We've gotta stop with all this indecision

I see it all the time (okay)
I can't believe I didn't notice you
And I won't hesitate anymore
Action over reaction
And I won't play pretend anymore

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

the desert

Scene 3: Ogden's Observatory

O—I found another curve
I ran out of words
I started looking at the night sky
I made an observation
It brought me back to Berwyn
Last time I thought I could be in love you nearly died

Cuz you need someone to rely on
And I need somebody to help me with construction
You see I'm working on a flying machine
Almost nobody knows yet,
About my little scheme

I don't know why
But I see you in a special kind of way
You're sort of like
The gateway drug to everything that makes me me

Like my sun sign
And my biggest secret
There are certain things that I like to keep pretty sacred
Just like Ogden
I've only ever met him twice
But you're my best friend, so please let me explain
I've been studying batwings and chainmail and old tech—
—and based on what my Dad said:
Everybody think's we're turning this around
We're gonna make it to the next step

I don't know why
But I see you in a special kind of way
You're sort of like
The gateway drug to everything that makes me me

Beautiful boy

O—I know you're being polite
But with God on the line
You know I'm taking your side
O—I don't know why
But I see you in a special light

ogden

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

i've been hearing bout this innocent lie
you've been selling, been telling
you keep self-vindicating thinking that i wouldn't hear it
or fear it when i speak for myself

oh everybody hates somebody round here, so i'll be the one for you then
we can fight like kittens and fuck like cats, even though we can't tell the difference
and our friends don't mind if i go silent and act like i never knew them
cause you spread your lies and i take the retribution

but whenever we face off
we can't seem to think of
any of those virulent words we wanted to forget
they never get said
oh we can't regret them
if we never let them
be spoken cause they don't mean nothing at all to someone else
only ourselves
whenever we face off
we can't seem to think of
any of those virulent words we wanted to forget
they never get said
oh we can't regret them
if we never let them
be spoken cause they don't mean nothing at all to someone else
only ourselves

i might say i hope you die in a fire
or a car crash, on a racetrack
or i might say that i've been working a while
for a compaq, or radio shack, some bullshit like that

cause everybody hates somebody round here, so i'll be the one for you then
we can fight like kittens and fuck like cats, even though we can't tell the difference
and our friends don't mind if i go silent and act like i never knew them
cause you spread your lies and i take the retribution

but whenever we face off
we can't seem to think of
any of those virulent words we wanted to forget
they never get said
oh we can't regret them
if we never let them
be spoken cause they don't mean nothing at all to someone else
only ourselves
whenever we face off
we can't seem to think of
any of those virulent words we wanted to forget
they never get said
oh we can't regret them
if we never let them
be spoken cause they don't mean nothing at all to someone else
only ourselves

face off

Seeing Double 0.o

suddenly i'm drowning in water in the middle of the forest
and i'm the only one in harms way
i can't tell if i'm dreaming cuz i took another substance
was wondering if it could just give me a little guidance
and it did and it really helped me out
i was screaming in my room crying out
if there was someone here to save me
a huge pretty painting on my wall that could calm me down

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

isn't that crazy? you must really hate me? but when you paint me you say i look amazing, say i look amazing

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

it kills me even slower to know that he's below her
he fulfills the role she needs in her life

He's The Reason

honey... did you hear the call?
sun is burning through our walls and money's gonna kill us all
i'm okay, won't live for long
cuz i don't have a say all i can do is find this funny... ha!

i found everything i needed in your touch
tried escaping from reality it sucked
no i'm not scared cuz you make your own luck
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
and i'm fucked up cuz all of this is made up
breathe deep, pop a psilocin and wake up
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
bankrupt

and then i wake up and i'm naked in my bed
it's another day i've dreamt of you if only i could rest with you as lovers
hiding under covers, love under the sun and the drugs 
and then suddenly i'm dreaming that we're face first in flower beds
if you think they're pretty now just wait till everybody's dead and they recover
industry gonna suffer
i wonder how a couple more bucks is gonna save us

i found everything i needed in your touch
tried escaping from reality it sucked
no i'm not scared cuz you make your own luck
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
and i'm fucked up cuz all of this is made up
breathe deep, pop a psilocin and wake up
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
bankrupt

Seeing Double 0.o

patchymate