produced by stezzyxl

lyrics:
i miss you i fear
i know something ain’t right
let’s just sit by the ocean
and gaze at the sky
while we whisper emotions
to get through the night
to get through the night

let’s just rewrite this over
and start from the start
and we break up to make up
but we’ve made it this far

and it seems in october we fell for each other
no we fell for each other
no we fell for each other
i just think ‘bout us

seasons they come and they go in a distance
but time can heal all wounds it’s our decision
im breaking down, you pick me up
without you im nothing
our home is now abandoned but these visions still haunt me

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"away from here." - the album. January 27th.

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ihatefeelingthisway

produced by me

lyrics:
can’t accept that you’ll never change
‘cause all your texts have faded
you make this feel so estrange
you make me feel so jaded
you and i are not the same
i’ll slowly kill our flame
but i won’t be the one to blame
‘cause

my blood is dripping down from your lip
ain’t got a lot to give
amongst the edge, i’m scared i’ll slip
across my skin she pressed a shiv
but, i’m just a fragile minded kid
she told me get a grip
don’t blame me for the shit you did
when he’s got you by his hip

it’s been two weeks since i crossed your mind
but now you’re dead to me
deep into your lies i’ll find
that we're just enemies
you do it for the social life
all the guys and likes
i’ll build up till the time is right

blame

produced by me

lyrics:
split my life in two tryna find a balance
in the background, i’ll stay in silence
and i don’t want friends i can’t do relations
i need a sec, but i’m low on patience

i’ve stuck to myself i had to learn real quick
that i can’t be around the fake, cause they’ll decide my fate
so i just stay in my room write my lyrics with hate
how dare you say that you’re my friend, we both know you ain’t

you’re spending all your nights out on the town
telling all your friends to get another round
you’re acting like hoe, but you want a crown?
i wonder who you’re with when i’m not a-

i sit behind my screen, writing songs let the cycle repeat
you don’t understand, you ain’t never had to walk with my feet
i don’t wanna talk, keeping everything about me discreet

split

produced by me

lyrics:
revolving in a loop, no i don’t know which way to go
and i haven’t seen a face within a week, i’m at my low
but my screen, it takes me to a place, that feels just like my home
so don’t say you feel the same, when you’re the one that dug my hole

i’m transforming into someone you don’t want
so why’s your presence always seem to haunt me
maybe it’s the way you always talked
i’ll, put my phone on dnd and keep it locked
i continue lying to myself, i know you’ll never change
you make it hard to face the truth when our convos slowly fade
you make the blade pierce through my skin, the only way i feel escape
oh you should be ashamed, no you’re not in my range

BUILDING UP A BLOCK FOR YOU, IT ALWAYS SEEMS TO FALL
I KEEP PACING 'ROUND MY ROOM, I'M JUST HOPING THAT YOU'LL CALL
BUT THE SILENCE IS MY ENEMY, I'M VENTING TO MY WALL
WHILE MY THOUGHTS CONTINUE RAPIDLY, I'M HOPING THAT THEY'LL
stop

zero to a hundred i can change real quick
don’t drag my name throughout the mud
we’re not friends lil’ bi-
I SHOULDA CUT YOU OFF, BUT YOUR DISTANCE DID
AND NO I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME, I'LL REMAIN OFF THE GRID

roots

(prod. jolst)
feat @notcursed

(vacant)
i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

you ease my pain
my panic attacks they go away
just stay
dont have to be sad again
when your away
i need you in the same place

just stay
just stay
just stay

we can stare at the stars
even when we're apart
you know its just us
my heads been at war
let me pull you close
for this noise to stop
coz ive been hurt myself
paranoid its hell
and i never needed no help
coz your what helps
i feel so selfish

i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you 

you ease my pain
my panic attacks they go away
just stay
dont have to be sad again
when your away
i need you in the same place

just stay
just stay
just stay

i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

(not cursed)

Wish i could stay
And even though we’re miles away
I miss the days
You helped me through your pain
But now i’m too far out
Baby don't you even doubt
I still want you forever
I could never be without
Missing the way, you smile at my face
Brighten up my day, but now i have to wait
To see you, counting down the days till it'll be true
I’m waiting too long
Being away from you for this long, it feels so wrong
By my side is where you should be, that's where you belong
Need you everyday
I’m thinking of ways, to reach you

(vacant)
i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

stay (w/ notcursed) (jolst)

New single “I’m not in love” 

-lyrics-
Take away my breath 
More like my head
Cause I can’t seem think
Of anything another the death
Silence goes the sheep
As the wolf begins to eat
Don’t close your eyes 
Cause they prey upon the weak 

Am I not strong enough 
To say enough to call your bluff 
I don’t know  
Cause we built it up 
I filled your cup but all for what 
I don’t know 
I’m not in love I’m not in love

Is it all in my head 
Or am I already dead 
I can’t seem to tell the difference 
Cause you’ve sewn my mouth shut
Now I’m running out of love 
And I can’t tell you why we’re so different

Am I not strong enough 
To say enough to call your bluff 
I don’t know  
Cause we built it up 
I filled your cup but all for what 
I don’t know 
I’m not in love I’m not in love

I'm not in love

(You're always..) 
When will you move on
(Holding on)
Please I'm sick of it..

I gave my heart and my soul
I let you take it all
The darkness it evolved
I thought you said that it'd go?
Please leave this isn't your home
(Please just go)

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

You broke me apart
Now I feel like a spare piece
Open my heart
See the memories of us
I just can't cope with the way this is going
I remember the days we would bloom love was flowing

Now I'm floating down, in a river on my own
Trapped inside these paper walls
Metaphorically alone
Just consider what you've done
And maybe change your mind before I go
'Cause I'm not coming back
Until this fairytale is over now

I've had enough with you inside my body
Reject your presense but you never resign 
Always lurking in the night

I've had enough telling others it's not me
Had enough crying abt how u got me
No you ain't got me, no more 

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

Gears are turning
I keep learning
Not to trust those around me
I'm just hurting
I'm such a burden
I'm lost at sea and I'm drowning

I'm beat up and bruised
Keep on being abused
I'm just fighting for my life
and I don't want to lose
Burry me, carry me
Tell me I'm okay
You kick me when I'm down but
I grew up this way

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I don't care
I will mend my soul, my body will be whole

You may have had me for years
But I'm done screaming through tears
You always whispered in my ear
I've bled so much, but I'm still here

spare ft. Vails x Lunalis (prod. PartyAtTheMoonTower)

Featuring @cpt_sad
Produced by IOF
Mixing, additional vocals & guitar by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
I can’t afford to live
Like my parents did
For every generation before me
I’m suffering the consequences

Why die young and alone
When we could die young together instead
Underneath the mushroom clouds
Standing hand in hand

We were born too late
So what do you say
Would you take a chance on me
Only minutes left
It’s meaningless
Unless we believe
That there’s nothing left to lose
But everything to gain
We were born too late to fall in love the long way

(yesterday)
Yeah you fell in my lap when you tripped on the cracked pavement
And those potholes have been on this road my whole life
They wanna keep us six feet down
So we can't make a sound
But I can fight all night
If you stay by my side
I've always spoke too loud
It never came out right
Instead of tape on my mouth
You went and got me a mic

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Born Too Late w/ yesterday (Prod. IOF)

lyrics:

in the downpour
i am drowning in your love
on the forest floor
i am hiding in your love

slowly we go
sway back and forth
then i shut the door
and light up the candles on the floor
in a circle
i draw the star i saw from before

(chorus)

see the redwood canopy above
can’t say what it reminds me of
but when i reminisce, i was always in love

(chorus)

split

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