i swore on the accident
nothing even happened
you still got really mad
cause my poor judgement had lapsed

you locked yourself away
why can’t i tell you i’m sorry
i would just brush that shit off
i would tell you it’s okay
instead of taking at face
you only pushed me away
i'm sitting alone in wait
that’s how we started our day

and what goes up
must come down
and everything you say comes back around
i took a flight to see another town
i'm only praying that i make it back to solid ground
it’s so amazing how you hold me down
better than anyone i ever found
i ripped the plastic but to you i’m bound
they let me go, then they watched me drown

but i swore on the accident
nothing even happened
you still got really mad
i'm only trying my best

and now it’s getting worse
but i’m in the pocket, let’s get back to work
they’re dropping bands and they still never learn
i’m getting money while it’s hell on earth

still everyday feels like i’m fucking up
or not doing enough
but every night i still try
for you i’m changing my life
weekends i lose my grip
weekdays i fight the itch
i guess i’m back in that mode

last night i drank and felt great
today i feel broke and low
this week might leave me so angry
from another month taking blows
cause everyday i need progress
or i just go to bed sore
my brain’s been running on empty cause emotion leaves me bored

but i swore on the accident
nothing even happened
you still got really mad
cause my poor judgement had lapsed
instead of taking at face
you only pushed me away
i'm sitting alone in wait
that’s how we started our day

and what goes up
must come down
and everything you say comes back around
i took a flight to see another town
i'm only praying that i make it back to solid ground

it’s so amazing how you hold me down
better than anyone i ever found
i ripped the plastic, but to you i’m bound
they let me go, and then they watched me drown

drown

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https://youtu.be/GZgKeF-15aQ

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iphone 14 w/ sativa s4m xainjaya dying star

##cutter freestyle (prod. thayerperiod)

for my block [yurms + pk]

So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed
Some days I feel so much disservice I should be disowned
I guess I’ve been taking Too many things in my control
Too much of a load, I just wanna break the mold
It’s an endless cycle It's not something I condone
Sometimes it’s when I make a track I feel like I’m the one
Didn’t like the last song that I made, like what could I have done?
Always chasing greatness but it’s always on the run
I only focus on weakness it’s taking out the fun
This is just an exercise for skills I’m tryna hone
I wasted so much time overthinking, I must atone
I don’t expect to make a hit of everything I wrote
Like how Every plant I try to grow just starts to decompose
Honestly it sounds appealing doing what I’m told
I can’t live that way, I cannot be controlled
I could’ve sold myself for an amount I can’t disclose
Actually it was only like 80 thousand what a joke
Within 2 working years I would end up going broke
I guess I’ll just stay broke, not giving up my hope
I am not a product I swear I won’t break the code
I’m perfectly happy Inside the comfort of my home
I picked up the call the second you had phoned
I promise that I’m sticking To the standards I uphold
I can’t play the victim from the trauma that unfolds
It’s so hard keep my head up I still fold
So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed



control

This place gives me a headache
Let’s get out of here, go home
Instead of making headway
I still grapple with unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope i come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
I feel so embarrassed picking myself up off the floor
In a dark room on all fours
Trying to settle the score
Underneath my feet the floorboards creak
I’m sorry I woke you up
It shouldn’t bother me
But somehow it cuts deep
In life you can’t repeat
It’s always incomplete
I can’t shake the headache 
Let’s get out of here, go home
The curse of making my own way is fighting the unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope I come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
My only hope is that you never walk out of the door
I took everything that held me back and locked it in a drawer
I can’t spend my life looking around for something more
This is my survival tactic I’m not doing it for sport
It would be worse than death if I was always falling short 
All I’m tryna say is that I’m getting bored
Everything’s a copy or a reboot or a port
It’s honestly a shame how Every time they cut it short
It’s honestly a shame how I still drown it in a quart
I always find myself filling the silence up with doubt
The feeling that I’m chasing seems to drift way further out
It shouldn’t burden me
But the weight is all around
I have take some action Instead of pacing about
Fuck everybody that’s hated
You just hate to see me try
Fuck everybody I’m jaded
There’s no tears I’ve left to cry
It shouldn’t bother me
There’s no option to retreat
Not giving up my seat
Just wanna make ends meet
I can’t shake the headache 
Let’s get out of here, go home
Instead of making headway
I still grapple the unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
My only hope is that you never walk out of the door

it shouldn't bother me

american idol (prod. remghost + shini)

kurtains - i want ya 320

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@elliottelliottelliott
@monclirk
@slump.audios

nate x - uncle ben (nate x & elliott) [monclir + slump audios + samcantmiss]

( prod wstd )
https://youtu.be/w0xCmtvhazQ

baddy but she’s superficial
stressin out if its official 
heard him talkin down on the gang 
had to run up on him with a pistol 
left some feelings in the past
goin up i’m smilin but it’s wistful 
now i’m running up the bands
only tryna talk 2 u if it’s fiscal💸

gold caps eat a fistful
got white caps on the wrist bro🌊
playin words like i’m playin bitches 
banshee out in San Francisco 👻
trouble following the 8fold :/☸️
got silver on me nah this ain’t gold
don’t even care ab the recognition
if u fw me i’m thankful 

crossin bridges but they take tolls
i’m a big cat like a bengal 
buying clothes in japan with a VPN
sell em for the bankroll 
hang with lizards like it’s tangled 
n i don’t miss her but it’s painful 
she been hearing bout me lowkey 
so she lookin at me from an angle 

1 shot that’s a dolo 
cuz my verses gettin in his dome bro
shop foreign clothes shoutout coco 
talking on my name we spillin rojo
race foreign cars like it’s tokyo 
im a ghoul 
kicks got the velcro 
i’m saruman i’m not romeo 
XL tee 2 my elbows

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