trying my hardest

vocals by me and rouri 
art by phixel


wut do u want frm me?
i been silently waiting 4 u to leave
its a problem with u & not a problem w me
i been stuck in place, not moving constantly
u think ur safe w/ ur back trned
dnt feel surprised when this blade makes ur neck hurt
jus close ur eyes & wish 4 things to get bettter
acid lies always burning thru my sweatshirt

YOUTUBE

problem with u ft. rouri404 (yungspoiler)

I knew it (johnny friend)

when will i stop being the problem w/ tigerstar *p. uxbie

@funeral

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produced by @/soontobegus on instagram
orchestral production by @iamkeeve
mixed & mastered by me

special thanks to @f0rdis

selfish (feat. funeral)

produced by (prod.@sheepy_kid x @1purplebabby)


(Stevyn)
Put a bullet in his chest
Lord give him rest
You making all these wrongs decisions 
I’m turning left
You ain’t gone yet you ain’t gone yet
Steady hurting my liver im cognac
You ain’t gone yet you ain’t gone yet 
Cannot find my self I guess I lost track 
But I ain’t gone yet(glitches) I ain’t gone yet
I’m fucking slamming the button how do I reset 

I wanna change all of my ways 
But I can’t no I can’t at all 
No I can’t no I can’t at all
No I- Fuck

(Rans0m)
I’ve been making the wrong the decisions can’t do the right
Every-time we talk it just end up in a fight
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m losing my mind
I’ve been feeling like I’m running out of time

Runnin out of time 
I’ve been keeping to myself 
I’ve been staying out of sight
pressure makes diamonds I swear I’m the highest
Sometimes the truth hard to digest
Fuck all that shit abt feelings 
Ima go get off my ass and go get me a bag
Not gon stop till I get to the millions
Gun go pop pop we do killings
Brand new whip im moving fast
Be careful with your words cause then they might be your last

(zay)
m-m-me and stevyn got hit up to do a task, yeah
told to put all yall niggas down in a casket
my choppa gon make him dance like he michael jackson
red dot, and i be aiming right at yo back, yeah
i dont think you really know what we be on
talkin down about my bro we shoot you freely
watch you mouth if you dont then youll get yo ass beat completely
anybody in my crew will make those words be your last easy

careful what you say those words might be your la-a-a-ast
me and stevyn coming first place man fuck last
m-m-movin quiet gotta put on a ma-mask
g-g-gotta choppa ima go and atta-attack

gone yet +rans0m & zaywxlk

Ft. @reefuh
@poisonedcheeto

Lyrics:
[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

[reef]
save it, left my heart out on the pavement
yeaaa 50% of my luv was the payment
thinking u could be w me, girl ur off ur medication
stuck in the past, shriveled me up and threw me in the grass
like how u move on so fast, spent forever tryna get like that
so dont pat me down, maybe u had me then but u dont have me now
so just shut me out, and don't act like that cuz u know how
(i give up)
im drowning in this bot- in this bottle
lost my peace of mind to all these thirsty models
like bitch who you think you are?
if your a shooting star then ima shoot the stars
fake shit rlly dont get far
wanna match better raise the bar
dont race me boy race a car
i been in and out of love i swear im trying hard
oh, ohh, ohh ohhh, oh ohh, oh ohh

[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

SPOTIFY

let me talk ft. reef (simon m)

I got weight I can’t cut
You think i give a fuck?
check bigger every month
i bet these xans will keep me numb

i never did it for the money
i only do it for the drugs
i did a tour across the country for my health
and it just paid me for the month
 yeah

say they gonna slide on me?
then put that shit on god
motherfuckers pussy i see right through their façade
boy this outfit cost a k, i’m just wearing what i got
like my boys in french denim like marithe francois girbaud

Marithe Francois Girbaud

prod credits.
me
cole calico
sxth sns
dramatrial
billsburyjoeboi

LYRICS: 
i spent 2 years tryna reconcile
as if its possible to do so i went through the trials
im fresh off bullet wounds and scars love ones left on my body
communicating aint my strong suit i guess that im sorry

man fuck that shit i sent so many damn apologies to you
green bubbles hit harder when i saw'em come through
convinced myself you had an android all along call me insane
but it was easier than dealing with the truth

i aint gon lie like i dont miss you for a single second
but you aint think before the knots to type a single message
hypocrisy i know im spitting yes i need a lesson
but since your gone man who my teacher hope you see me stressing
thinking about you every second yea thats what you wanted 
i shouldve felt the narcissism from the first few punches
do not talk family with me i fucking hate the subject 
what if i killed myself to figure out if i meant something 
you'd of told me i meant nothing 

i used to say you were the best mother 
and to this day i still try not to think much less of you
but its not easy with you not here telling me to run away 
from what im heading towards
i used to think i was the one that burnt the bridge of course
but its in my head now super clear how you were wielding torches
how you built me up and knocked me down made me feel less important
how you tied that noose around your neck before giving me notice 

now it would only take 2 seconds just to hit me up 
i'd probably respond too late but you dont give a fuck 
sometimes i wish i was the one that found you hanging up
i keep calling and hanging up

i wish i had another chance to say i love you 
cuz at this point inside my head im like fuck you
thought i could trust you 
never been more wrong in my life i wish it wasn't true

but i still breakdown wishing that it wasnt you
in my head i been so alone my thoughts are skewed 
can't deny i been in this pain for at least 2 
long years i don't think they're ending soon 
might as well put the gun to my head
and pull the trigger i might get to see you
my dad keep telling me im wrong
he probably right but i don't know if i wanna be here long
yea i wish you could hear this i know it would be your favorite song 
or maybe thats just my ego speaking you know where i get it from
ask me what i do it for?

yea it used to be you but now i don't really know anymore
i could tell you the truth but i know your not there to hear it no more
and if you were here you wouldn't wanna hear it it would bring you
to the floor, i dont really care no more 
you was finna leave me anyway 
through me off the cliff as a featherweight
don't act like it aint take nothing
i dont went through it in a heavy way
feeling naked running through the heavy rain
what the fuck was going on with my brain
they wonder why i made headaches shit
i was really truly going insane

i spent 2 years tryna reconcile
as if its possible to do so i went through the trials
im fresh off bullet wounds and scars love ones left on my body
communicating aint my strong suit i guess that im sorry

man fuck that shit i sent so many damn apologies to you
green bubbles hit harder when i saw'em come through
convinced myself you had an android all along call me insane
but it was easier than dealing with the truth

trying my hardest

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