prod. cxrter

new taste

boogies 4

Dope whiteboy playlist pt 3

jck ivry pt 3

boogies 5

prod. flesh

jck ivry pt 5

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Restless Modern - in summation
https://ditto.fm/in-summation

🧠 Lyrics: https://genius.com/Restless-modern-in-summation-lyrics

▼ Restless Modern
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in summation

surprise surprise;)
---
don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
---
lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

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Restless Modern - I Hate That I'm Addicted to the Internet
https://restlessmodern.link/internet

🧠 Lyrics: https://genius.com/Restless-modern-i-hate-that-im-addicted-to-the-internet-lyrics

▼ Restless Modern
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I Hate That I'm Addicted to the Internet

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

--Lyrics --

Interstellar like i've been falling, don't think that you can stop me
Higher than all before, don't even need to pop these
Feel like seven dragon balls, wishing through my options
Hyperbolic time we on, shifting through my optics
---------------
Blast off i'm higher than Goku sipping soju
Straight fire like Sozin buffed up Master Roku
I been feeling so damn good know that it's a lie
Why I can't seem to be the one she wish to find
I've been heavier interstellar like it's event horizon
Slide infinity when she feeling me got ghosted i'm dying
I wish I could say everything in my mind i'll find the time yeah
How I love you I meant, fucked up in the moment
---------------
Interstellar like i've been falling, don't think that you can stop me
Higher than all before, don't even need to pop these
Feel like seven dragon balls, wishing through my options
Hyperbolic time we on, shifting through my optics
---------------
Splash down fast high cannonball
Bitch like i'm too blasted sabotage
I should pass it pack too spirit bomb
I've been floating coast by ever long
All the times been cut deep severed on
I keep hoping stoked up inner mind
Pain evolved like Evangelion
Desires that burn steeped inside of divine
The fires you turned me alive in the night
At sight of a full moon, it's finally time
If I never loved you, I would never die
---------------
Interstellar like i've been falling, don't think that you can stop me
Higher than all before, don't even need to pop these
Feel like seven dragon balls, wishing through my options
Hyperbolic time we on, shifting through my optics

Interstellar // 7 Dragon Balls

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

spotify

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: heydium and @jang0x
------------------------------------------------
surprise release :D
hope yall enjoy<3
------------------------------------------------
lyrics:
(verse)
always one to worry bout futures,
used to be chill, till i lost all my humor,
caught in revenge, huh, call me lex luthor,
i just regret that we didnt end sooner,
never stationed, always moving
always dreaming, never lucid,
i got plans so call me stupid,
but dont get mad when im suited
ill be at the top when nobody cared,
i was at the bottom all of them just stared,
so dont be suprised when im closing up,
i dont got an audience, ill make one up,
all ill get, ill get it by myself,
so dont even try to help,
none of yall ever worry bout my health,
til i start talking bout future wealth

[bridge]

(chorus)
look me up and down,
couldn't be bothered
your mans,
cause hes selfish and hes ignorant,
and never making plans,
he can never get involved,
like whats up with that,
yea, i would blow up your phone,
till you answered that,

(verse)
like baby girl, wya now?
you lost everything that you had now,
you did this yourself, dont be throwing fits,
but i wont lie, i do miss
all those nights, yea watching netlfix,
never decide on the show,
like we never decide where to go,
im glad that its over cause now im at home,
watching a movie alone on the couch,
there seems to be comfort in that,
cause every time, yea, i just fall flat,
but now it's too easy, got my life intact,
i always wonder how you doing, but im never checking up,
if you wanted that luxury,  should've been open to talk,
but you always giving up,

[bridge]

(chorus extended)
look me up and down,
couldn't be bothered
your mans,
cause hes selfish and hes ignorant,
and never making plans,
he can never get involved,
like whats up with that,
yea, i would blow up your phone,
till you answered that,
got a list of all the reasons why im never coming back,
you were ignorant and selfish so much times that ive lost track,
you could never get involved,
like whats up with that,
i guess youre perfect for eachother,
and im fine with that,

couldn't be bothered (prod. heydium & jang0)

w/ @fleshgolem

first single off of the ep, 
happy bday fleshy

lyrics

[mæsk]
im worn, im worn
been wearing and my skin is all torn
but i feel alive, when in eye of a storm
i tip my hat off to those that can move on

she said lets go
well ur just going home
ima be drifting slow

she paddles out to sea to see i see her halo
i cant allow it, need to escape 
ill fuck u up, 
please just go back to where u came

depression i just battle it
im sinking on this battle ship 
steer till i cant battle shit
this is my own settlement
until im old, thats if im old

im holding on to rafts with no sign of a life boat
i know on this 1 i wont have time to grow

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone
now urs to take 
all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone

im outta time in this world im outta time 
and its just me by myself on this grind
and its time to let the pen down
write my final words coz im just out of time

[flesh]
so why is there still time to waste?
i'm still disoriented from the time the tidal wave came thru
cause i've been washed up, cleansed all the way thru
and i'll be damned if i'll be drowning cause of you
it's a process, that's what i tell myself 
inside my head its saw traps, i run with reason 
but i always tend to talk back, it's changing seasons
nearly autumn guess i'll fall apart in my room

i said let's go but i'm just going home
i wish that you'd come too, lay my fantasies out on the table
high seas, pulling me away
i went too far the tide is tryna steal my shame
i try to battle it, i swim but i'm just paddling
there's water in my lungs and i don't think i can handle it
i'll tip my boat, that i'll do
before i ever admit defeat to what i knew
before the life before me ever became true

signal w/ flesh golem (flesh x sunshowers)

TIPTOE (prod. MariMadeIt & 5starcrys) [MV OUT ON YT]

You'll Never Hear This

Crossroads ft. oldcollin

about last nite...

lyrics

wait for me 
when th darkness comes
my heart still beats 
so u havent yet won

bae im looking out 
do u not hear me when i call
r things really that different 
i havent changed, not since last fall 

lock me in a cage, throw th key
sure you’d like that
coz every time i bring it up u all ways talk back
to me
baby 
this dont hav to be th last time 
can we take it back to last night
they dont fucking know about the words we’ve shared
so baby why the fuck u looking over there

uuuuhhhh fade in to the night
take another third at least ill tell u that i tried
but then the worst thing comes to mind
i knew that this would happen but i still let it fucking slide

no way its th worst thing that could do
no way, i held my peace and im not coming back to u
i gave it time so dont think id forget u 
i live my life like a ghost so should be thankful
that i got a use

last nite (flesh)

is there anyone home?

lyrics

[mæsk]

i cant listen to to u speak, gone and not coming back
she’s the one that fucked me up 
now she wanna blame her past now
feeling sloshed baby so u wanna talk now
i just needa stop 4 ur pushing me around

i should not
but now she in my arms
the face that look like heaven but behind 
its a ahhhhh
she calls my name like a saint
she fucked me up
but when in arms we can run it back

im running back on my own, dirt shoes
but she right on my neck to pay her dues
she said “i just hate it, i dont wanna make it if im not with you”
know ur on ur own on this one
but i can make it fun
my angel speaks, i wont listen
i think the horns have won

[flesh]
you can say you're sorry all you want know you dont mean it
you just wanted someone you could fuck and share your weed with
never really gave a shit about how i was feeling
im a hollow body to you none of it had meaning

hollow bodies w/ flesh golem (flesh x nihil空)

theres a lot, come take a seat

lyrics

spreading untrue words like a disease
baby can’t u see, or u still living in a dream
please dont blame urself now
that’s on me
that’s on me
that’s on me

this is us now 
u can stay or leave
j know they tryna mess up all we’ve come to be
they don even know how far we’ve come in reach
but i cant tell u, i did my part to save us, u gotta think for urself

its not ur fault 
the worst comes when th fakes invloved
all they do is take 
and i cant take it anymore

this right here is a way to escape 
so jus take my hand, b4 the wall starts to cave x2

prepare to jus move on
its alrite, im ok
maybe im too fucked rn 
to say everythings great

all night, offerings
triplin uh, and they forcin th sip
they wanna write my name on every cup
better urself or wanna have fun
who r u? i ask myself 
when depleting health
but then take my cup 
and then finish it up
ill try livin life

coz ion giv a fuck
like com take a seat
think too much 
so i barely sleep
ion talk a lot 
but i say too much when im feeling fucked
this what true friends would be tellin me

u right now needa look in th mirror 
this cant be th result of a destined disapearer

its not ur fault 
the worst comes when th fakes invloved
all they do is take 
and i cant take it anymore

this right here is a way to escape 
so jus take my hand, b4 the wall starts to cave

destined disappearer (flesh)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

another me ft. silvverbell (brody + fish narc)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

written: me
mixed: me
produced: @1juanraa
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxrrss/strength

Lyrics:

(verse)

We've been hanging on for way too long
Promise me you’ll never hold your tongue
Honestly i think you don't belong but i don't really wanna be the one to talk
Gave me reasons why i shouldn't stay, dont try to fool me cause 

(chorus)

I know im not, not strong enough to hold you together, 
say that im better than i ever was
Losing my trust
forget bout our love
i never was
 I never was

(verse)

I dont why you can’t see from my side
Swear you’re the one but you dont do it right
You waste all our time
Still stuck on my mind
You’re falling apart but still say that your mine
Wont reply
I’m so tired
Of these lies
Gave you a chance 
never thought i would regret that
I was your man
How was i supposed to expect you’d 
do it again
(do it again)
Do it again

(chorus)

I know im not, not strong enough to hold you together, 
say that im better than i ever was
Losing my trust
forget bout our love
i never was
i never was

strength (juanra)

it’s finally out <33

been holding onto this song in the vault for a while cuz it was meant to be a personal song, but you guys really seemed to want it so go crazy and show some luv ❤️

~lyrics~
please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

i been getting in my head too much
doing everything to make you blush
is it fine? imma let you judge
we can slow it baby we don’t gotta rush at all
i was bound just to fall apart
tearing my emotions like the fucking walls
praying every night for a fuckin call
why’d i tell it to myself that i’d never fold?

please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

all plats

hold me close [prod. irby]

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

trash

residential. - she cant stand me pt. 2

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog

lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

lyrics ⬇️ <3

(me)
cold heart
long arms you can reach
restart although I don’t wanna repeat
it’s hard for you to see
you can hardly even believe 
but I been going through it
so you have been deceived 

there’s high waters where I’m coming from
no way out I need someone to come and cover him
don’t bleed out
no high hopes I’m always suffering 
so astound
yea this time I don’t need a single thing from your mouth

but they’re never proud and I been alone
you’re never around to see
i don’t like my town I don’t like my crowd
but I’m not allowed to leave
somebody please help me
I’ll give you my love and peace
I’ll listen to wind hit trees
theres no way that I can sleep

and just like the rain all my tears have been pouring
she used to just make me feel so damn important 
inside
i trusted ur love but u sold me some lies
keep holding my hand while we wait for the time to tick
trying to cross but u burning my bridge
self medicate ima roll up a spliff
so unaware of the shit that you did 
to me
and honestly it’s getting hard
but trying my best is what tore us apart
and each time i talk you dont care what i say
i think it’s my fault im the one with the blame
and im sorryyyyy
i’m sorrryyy i knew where this would go
(me)
put the lights out tell everybody to leave
when the price down I always spend all my money
i try to hide out
but everybody come an find me
like what’s to cry abt
Like baby look at what’s all wrong with me

(greenwood)
'u up?' at 3 but i black out at 2
lately it's more than 'im not in the mood'
know that i wish that i wanted it too

i fill this cup like im probably dead in a year by myself
it's entirely on what i said
but i hate that you lied to me, fuck

solid states turn to disarray
at the edge, do you feel the same?
off the ket i've been up for days
you're the best, baby never change

i saw your face on the way down
cover yourself as it fades out
i'd be ashamed if you stay now
cover yourself, would you stay out?

and i fuck it up like a prodigy
on my own shit, i just wish that you'd talk to me
i feel at home with my place as a prodical
i take these pills, im ok when i'm off of them

never this way, it just fits so improbable 
hear what you said in the dark in the hospital
black in my skin i feel bad when i'm falling in
ask what had changed, i break down
fucking all of it

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

w/ (soundcloud.com/eunhae)

Greenwood:
Haunted, saw the way you walked in
Exactly how I wanted.
Holding out til august,
To see despite the darkness.
Washed out of a moment,
Forgot where we’ve been going.
Laid out by the ocean,
Lose my mind in several doses

Last night in passing went through,
Old phones and broken windows,
So close I guess it’s been though,
Whiteout I guess I’ve been so

eunhae:
last night i saw what you meant to me
everything about you's gorgeous, you're my centrepiece
i still remember our fight like it was yesterday
the night you left forever, now you went away

when i sleep at night i want you next to me
want you to touch my body
now i can't forget our story
i still need your arms around me

Greenwood & eunhae:
Last night in passing went through,
Old phones and broken windows,
So close I guess it’s been though,
Whiteout I guess I’ve been so

Haunted, saw the way you walked in
Exactly how I wanted.
Holding out til august,
To see despite the darkness.
Washed out of a moment,
Forgot where we’ve been going.
Laid out by the ocean,
Lose my mind in several doses

August (w/ eunhae)

Two Faded w Siloe

wrong for so long

i   s w e a r   i ' l l   m a k e   i t   u p   t o   y o u   o n e   d a y  :(
produced by cxrter & flesh
mixed by yunny goldz & VITO

lyrics:
(lullabyboy)
i-i know i’m not enough
been down on my luck
i still let you know i’m here (i’m here)
i-i know that i was wrong
i know that i’ve been fucked
i swear i’m trying hard
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day

kill myself every night
when you’re away, when you’re away
i-i fell in love
i fell in love with the memory
everyone wants something from me
from me
and i
don’t know if i can be the one i need to be
i don’t know if i can give them everything

(VITO)
miss you the most, can’t let it go (ohhh)
i just wanna know, you feel like you’re home? (ohhh)
would you still miss me when you’re staring back at the crossroads
i know you’re still listening when i’m yelling out, “is it all gone?”
i can’t lie to myself, not anymore
feels like i’ve been here before
doors been closed, outside it’s a storm
i’m still here when you need my support
drag myself through the mud like a corpse
you couldn’t look at the pain i endured
just let the rain wash away all the gore
i’ll still remain while you wait at the door

(lullabyboy)
i-i know i’m not enough
been down on my luck
i still let you know i’m here (i’m here)
i-i know that i was wrong
i know that i’ve been fucked
i swear i’m trying hard
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day

one day (feat. VITO) (cxrter x flesh)

prod. acey心 x kill breanna
i really just appreciate yall still supporting me after so long and after so many stabs in the dark with music cus for the longest time i havent even known what ive wanted to do and i dont think i could ever say i truly know who i wanna be or what i wanna make in music but i love you guys so fuckin much and ive never enjoyed music more and its cus u guys make me realize i can be whatever i want in the end anyway. <3

im just tryna learn
what comes first in worth
no way, no way, ill get the time to see what you do
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

no-o-oh way, that i could ever be exact.
mmh..mmh..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency,
i guess im safe, i know my place..
i guess im safe, i know my place..

im just tryna learn,
what comes first in worth:(
no way, no way... no! 
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

;(
so long
so long
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
uh.. woah.. !
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency..

carefree

the boy who cried wolf (p. noah thomas)

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

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