THIS IS GOATED. reminds me of jackie platinum

beat produced by lil nightshift 
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb4KSyiaqbe_4UTYHZZEXOg

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

knife to the back how you feelin bout that
that's how you treat everyone all the time
life goes fast as it flashes through your eyes
i'll stand and watch and complain about mine
you're so sad i can't stand you
everyone around has abandoned you too
that's cause no one can handle
all the misery you put them through

so goodbye now
guess your time ran out
keep it quiet now
for you there's no way out

she told me i'm crazy, like yeah i know
i'm helping you out cause you gotta go
you're insane, told you long ago
time to leave this place you dumb girl

she tries to attack but it sets her right back
tears are flooding out of her eyes
this shouldn't even be too much to unpack
i smile and laugh over her cries
she's so scared, and no ones here for her
all the noise just turns into a whisper
she's so unprepared, won't know what hits her
and hopefully things can just go back to how they once were

she cried "it's not fair"
wait, why are you not self aware
you've done so much shit that you cannot repair
ruined lives and you don't even care

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

blood covers the pavement 
now i hear sirens wailing 
stained clothes got no time to change them
so i'll stay here and wait then
bite marks on both of my knees
covered in marks and bruises
in my head i'm replaying your screams
never met someone so useless

sirens (lil nightshift)

with @decksmusic

[intro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[verse - decks]
and when i look underneath i'm the reason i rot in hell
i did all i could to help you, never helped myself
i wonder what it would take now to flip it all month
these visions have plagued me i'm tripping
say what you're feeling cause i know it's different
you'll never wish me well
no you'll never wish me well

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
you’re like the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[outro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

oni boy x decks - zzz (prod. idealism x Lucid Green)

prod. numb - https://www.youtube.com/@_numb

out on all platforms -
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/notcursed/pretty-girls

wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

pretty girls (numb)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

prod. (michael harrison)
blunt lit goodbye
say my regrets 
wish you were mine smoking in bed
get up at 3 awake till the sun again
inhale and forget 
that my love has been lost
can I do it again
would you let me love you
if I fix me
I am the problem noone will miss me
take what you need from me
take what you need x75

we was kids sitting under lights 
on sidewalks 
now were grown and the end doesnt seem so far away 
blowing smoke not a benz
just the back my car
let me go now 
feel it in my bones now
on my own now 
smoking by my lone now
under trees in the dark
by the starlight
light a j and a dart at the same time
everynight how I cope by the riverside
lose my mind
you can see it in my dead eyes
in the meantime think I need some me time
pop a bean time see you in my free time
im on sleep time see you with the night sky
if I talk too much theyll know that im vacant
I dont know or think that ill make it

riverside. (michael harrison)

produced by cxrter & twoyearoldbear

lyrics:
(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I’m not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

(BH MALICE)
Let myself down that cannot happen
What I’m going for it is not average
I've been going hard like a bad habit
When I fuck up I say DAGNABBIT!
Then I’m right back up in the saddle
I might’ve lost the fight but not the battle
I’m staring at stars and I’m trying to grab em
If we got beef I’ll grind it and bag it
I’ll shoot for the moon lets see what happens
I might be nervous but I’m acting savage

(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I'm not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

(JUT)
Yeah I’m locked up in a coffin in all black
Like some coffee
I hear voices in my head 
Yeah I’m haunted 
Why’d you leave me out for dead
With no warning
Why’d you go and do me like that bae
You know I stay with the pack bae
I just spent a couple racks
Put in work I make it back
Yeah I spend it on you I don’t care
All I want is to be your man
But you don't fucking need me
You’re the reason my hearts bleeding yeah yeah

(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I’m not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

cxrter, treez, & JUT - not real (feat. BH MALICE) (prod. cxrter x twoyearoldbear)

she say that she hates me
i just wanna talk
bleeding from my fingers
anxiety my fault 
told me that its okay
but baby it is not
ive been through the ringer
ive been through a lot

i feel at ease when your around me 
i beg i plead come find me
i cant see im blindeed
cant see the future im short sighted
oh i dont wanna know
who you was with what you did let it go
escape from this
feelings on show
i feel too vulnerable 

cigarette smoke is burning my lungs
im faded so you can watch your tongue
pull me aside tell me what you want
told me that everything we hads gone

cant you see im shaking
im tired of waiting
i hate this feeling i hate it

she say that she hates me
i just wanna talk
bleeding from my fingers
anxiety my fault 
told me that its okay
but baby it is not
ive been through the ringer
ive been through a lot

ive been through a lot (cl6udy x jolst)

die slow (jolst x pekarot)

Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

fragments

came a long way, thank u all for being here <3

lyrics

whats wrong baby
well you dont seem to love my lies
well i’d love to 
i'd love to just take your side

blind spot, she hit the blind spot
coulnt, couldnt dodge couldnt watch out
i been covering my room in sage
remiscing all these days

when you’d make my heart stop baby
now just heavy heart drops
its ok, its ok baby

drugs learn ya lessons
but they aren’t always tied to things that aren’t right
yeah we like to live, always friction
but im not tryna burn the forest every night

if she dont see the love, we wont be friends
baby, taking off the top like this is the end
but thats just not the point yeah thats just the thing
maybe its the sum, maybe its the sun 
maybe we just run

can you see the doves can you see them flying away
i’ve seen past this dark i’m not tryna hide away
not today, im just tryna find a way
but i hope u 
i hope u can too

i really want you but i cant say the same
i care about u but its not the fucking same
baby i know its been lonely at night
baby i know its lonely at night

thru my eyes

open up ur eyes girl
we cant stay the same our whole life
but i don't wanna lie girl
i can't always be by your side

wish upon forever 
forevers to vast
i cant look at life the same after all my past
i mean we could live forever 
but it probably won't last
use too much
use too much logic ima pass

plenty signs 
do i really need to give u a timeline
i'm heading out to sea 
coz i've been rejected and dissected 
but i don't mind, i don't mind
ima find a way

jetlag 
i got a jet lagged mind 
its just another setback 
could u just see thru my eyes 
just sometimes

thru my eyes

thru my eyes (ivn)

For The Gold (prod. leoewski)

Chicagoland Producer 💜🖤🩶🤍 | 19 | 🧠♾️ @miserygxrden
(Prod.) Credits: @lilskeleskrrt @autumndropsdead @lxstboymusic @lullabyboy

cxrter, treez, & JUT - not real (feat. BH MALICE) (prod. cxrter x twoyearoldbear)

🥀 cxrter 🖤

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