Meo and the Psychonauts

The Apostate

BillyMich3l👽

Raw version👽

"Why did I Let you?" 
Sometimes you know better..but you know..
 
Lyrics: 

I never wanted you at first 
I knew what you were all about
It was your lifestyle that threw me off,
Coz of the bitches that you claiming
The ones saying they inlove,
I'm no better than, 
Anyone,
But I'm better than 
Everyone,
You fucking with,
And you knew it,
That's why you move how you moving,
Can't tell me the truth
Coz you'll be losing me,

Saying I'm too sensitive
You can't blame me for that,
Told you I'm not about that life
Told me you invest and you rap,
If I knew it was two baby mums, 
I'd of never lead you back,
On,
If I knew there was a few of us
I'd of never let you come home


Why I never see you 
For your celebrations?,
Why your baby mum send all your invitations?,
Why yo mama raising lames?,
Why you punching above your weight?,
With me
With me?
Why did I let you?

Written by: BillyMich3l 
Produced by: @ren_2fvded_producer
Beat: Official Trakstar
Performed by: BillyMich3l


Let You?

Who Drained the Water (When you were drowning)

[Chorus]
Down in the dark where the silence grows,
A cage of thought where the cold wind blows.
No heaven to reach, no hell to fear,
Just endless echoes of the self we hear.
[Verse]
The walls are closing, the voices loud,
Each word I speak turns into a shroud.
In the house of the dead, the soul stands bare,
But who can judge when no one cares?
[Chorus]
Down in the dark where the silence grows,
A cage of thought where the cold wind blows.
No heaven to reach, no hell to fear,
Just endless echoes of the self we hear.
[Bridge]
A man can live, yet not be free,
His soul a prisoner of eternity.
Through empty streets and empty halls,
His footsteps fade, but no one calls.
[Chorus]
Down in the dark where the silence grows,
A cage of thought where the cold wind blows.
No heaven to reach, no hell to fear,
Just endless echoes of the self we hear.
[Verse]
There’s nothing strange here, only men,
Dreams that shatter, begin again.
The double laughs, the keller sighs,
In deadened rooms, the living die.

Nothing Strange [Notes From The Underground]

It happened on a Monday👽

Listen along to a song I wrote about knowing your worth❤️

Lyrics:-

I'll be your lifeline 
For the night 
This is the last
You and I 
You and I
I'm yours for the weekend 
So if you're needing me 
Make it right 
Make it right 
You can't not change my mind 
When you open your eyes
You'll realise 
It happened on a Monday 

You didn't show up
Said alot of nothings 
Man I wish you'd grow up
Manyana 
See you tomorrow 
I don't need nada 
From ya 
Fumbled 
Why you fussing 
Cussing me 
You know this ... bussing 
But it's never enough for you 

I'll be your lifeline 
For the night 
This is the last
You and I 
You and I
I'm yours for the weekend 
So if you're needing me 
Make it right 
Make it right 
You can't not change my mind 
When you open your eyes
You'll realise 
It happened on a Monday 

You fucked up
You played yourself 
It happened on Monday 
You fucked up
You played yourself
It happened on a Monday 
Said you need space 
Now you can't breathe 
Without me
It happened on a Monday 

I'll be your lifeline 
For the night 
This is the last
You and I 
You and I
I'm yours for the weekend 
So if you're needing me 
Make it right 
Make it right 
You can't not change my mind 
When you open your eyes
You'll realise 
It happened on a Monday 

Song written and sung by BillyMich3l 

Beat by- @TheLoopGod

#rnb #ChrisBrown 

Monday

[Lyric]
涙の匂いがしてくる気がする
黄昏の夕暮れ歩けば
どこかで流れてくるでしょう
じんわりと心に染み渡る

昭和の名曲が好きなの
生まれは平成１４年
お父さんのギター聴いて育ったの
お母さんにチケット買ってもらったの
将来は雨の中で別れたい
将来は切なさを歌いたい

宇宙旅行　よりも７０年代　行かせて
なんでだろう　また巡り会えそう
遠い昔の歌　近い将来の歌
夢はもう止まらない

振り向いた君は涙目で
甘いメロディーに揺さぶられ
始まるのはさよならの歌

昭和の名曲が好きなの
生まれは平成１４年
お父さんにこれがいいと教わったの
お母さんはスターの　でまちしてたみたい
将来はディスコで踊りたい
将来はダイヤル式で寝落ちしたい

昭和の名曲が好きなの
生まれは平成１４年
お父さんのギター聴いて育ったの
お母さんにチケット買ってもらったの
将来は雨の中で別れたい
将来は切なさを歌いたい

一番好きな音楽　英語の歌
だけど私　昭和の名曲好きなの

[Eng]
I feel like I can smell the scent of tears
As I walk through the twilight of dusk
Somewhere, the sound drifts by, doesn’t it?
Seeping gently into my heart

I love the classics from the Showa era
Though I was born in 2002
I grew up listening to my dad’s guitar
And my mom bought me concert tickets
Someday, I want to say goodbye in the rain
Someday, I want to sing about heartbreak

Forget space travel—take me to the ’70s
I don’t know why, but I feel like I’ll find it again
Songs from a distant past, songs of a near future
My dreams can’t be stopped anymore

When you turned around, your eyes were teary
Shaken by a sweet melody
And what begins is a song of farewell

I love the classics from the Showa era
Though I was born in 2002
My dad told me, “This is the good stuff”
And my mom used to wait at the stage door for stars
Someday, I want to dance at a disco
Someday, I want to fall asleep dialing a rotary phone

I love the classics from the Showa era
Though I was born in 2002
I grew up listening to my dad’s guitar
And my mom bought me concert tickets
Someday, I want to say goodbye in the rain
Someday, I want to sing about heartbreak

The music I love most is in English songs
But still, I love the classics from the Showa era

I love Showa's great songs [昭和の名曲が好き]

"Nowhere Drive" is a continuation of Sad Drive, but this time, it’s about looking in the mirror and seeing the cycle staring back. It’s about realizing that, without meaning to, I carried my past into my future – and in doing so, I passed down a weight that was never meant for my children to bear.

(But there’s hope. You can pull over, step outside, and start again. You can choose to take care of yourself first, so you can take care of others without losing yourself in the process. Because if you don’t listen to yourself, the weight of others will always be too much to carry.)

This song is for anyone who’s ever felt trapped in a path they never chose. You’re not alone. You can break free. 

[Verse 1]
Yellow lines blur, hands grip the wheel
I swore I’d never turn out like them, but here I am still
Ghosts in the rearview, playing their part
A voice in my chest that was never my heart

[Pre-Chorus]
The same old fight in a different key
The same old weight that don’t belong to me
A stranger's words in my own mouth
A cycle I swore I’d figure out

[Chorus]
Nowhere drive, nowhere fast
Carrying things that were never mine to grasp
Road signs whisper, turn around
But the engine hums like a burial ground

[Verse 2]
A child cries in another room
I freeze mid-step, like I always do
Is this the moment I break the chain?
Or just another turn in a dead-end game?

[Pre-Chorus]
The same old fight in a different key
The same old weight that don’t belong to me
A stranger's words in my own mouth
A cycle I swore I’d figure out

[Chorus]
Nowhere drive, nowhere fast
Carrying things that were never mine to grasp
Road signs whisper, turn around
But the engine hums like a burial ground

[Bridge]
Headlights flicker, the mirror cracks
I see my father staring back
Not his hands, not his eyes
But the same old silence in disguise

[Chorus]
Nowhere drive, nowhere fast
Carrying things that were never mine to grasp
Road signs whisper, turn around
But the engine hums like a burial ground
x2
[Outro]
Forgive me, I never knew
How to hold myself the way I should hold you
This road was never yours to drive
So I pull over – I step outside

Nowhere Drive

[Verse 1]
No masks, no show,
Just you, just me, just slow.
Hands that shake, eyes that stay,
We don’t need the words to say.

[Chorus]
This is love with nothing to hide,
No glitter, no perfect side.
Just the cracks, just the light,
You and me, and the quiet night.

[Verse 2]
You see the fear I try to fold,
I hold the parts you never told.
No games, no lines,
Just breathing in real time.

[Chorus]
This is love with nothing to hide,
No glitter, no perfect side.
Just the cracks, just the light,
You and me, and the quiet night.

[Verse 3]
Some days we bend, some days we break,
Still we give more than we take.
No need to run, no need to prove,
Just quiet steps in the same groove.

[Outro]
Stay, not because it’s easy,
But because it’s true.
I see all of you –
And I choose you.

This is Love

[Verse 1]
I was water,
before I spoke.
I was silence,
before I broke.

[Chorus]
She remembers,
even if I don’t.
She held me,
even when I won’t.

[Verse 2]
I was starlight,
without a name.
I was longing,
before I came.

[Chorus]
She remembers,
even if I don’t.
She held me,
even when I won’t.

[Bridge]
If I breathe slow,
I hear her hum.
She doesn’t call –
she knows I’ll come.

[Chorus]
She remembers,
what I let go.
She was the water,
I used to know.

Before I Spoke

Every Mirror Bends, lyric inspired by The Velvet Underground and Nico’s All Tomorrow’s Parties

[Verse 1]
And what crown shall the girl put on
for all her filtered reign?
A thousand hearts, then every one
just scrolling past again.
She danced in gloss, she shone on glass –
a halo made of haze,
but truth grew quiet in her frame,
just echoes in the praise.

[Chorus]
And what crown shall the girl put on
for all her filtered reign?
The rise was fast, the fall unseen –
the story dressed in pain.
And what is left when eyes move on
and brands forget her name?
A silence bright with broken light –
a queen without a flame.

[Verse 2]
She posed in gold, she smiled on cue,
each caption carved for grace.
But something soft was fading through –
her self behind the face.
They crowned her muse, they drained her dry,
then asked her to ascend.
But every reign that’s built on gaze
must answer to the end.

[Chorus]
And what crown shall the girl put on
for all her filtered reign?
The rise was fast, the fall unseen –
the story dressed in pain.
And what is left when eyes move on
and brands forget her name?
A silence bright with broken light –
a queen without a flame.

[Bridge]
She wanted love, they gave her likes.
She wanted truth, they gave her trends.
She learned that fame is made of glass –
and every mirror bends.

[Chorus]
And what crown shall the girl put on
for all her filtered reign?
The rise was fast, the fall unseen –
the story dressed in pain.
And what is left when eyes move on
and brands forget her name?
A silence bright with broken light –
a queen without a flame.

Every Mirror Bends

[Verse 1]
They said time moves in lines –
but mine bends back, then hides.
A whisper swims in spirals,
and I forget which side I'm on.
[Verse 2]
I feel the pull of something wide,
not gravity, not thought.
Maybe it’s the mother of light,
a hush that holds what god forgot.
[Chorus]
No beginning, no end,
just circles pretending to sleep.
I’m not lost – just spinning.
And the silence runs deep.
[Verse 3]
You asked me for my first step –
I gave you all my breath.
But in this coil of memory,
even truth forgets itself.
[Bridge]
She’s not gone, she’s not name.
She’s the veil we dream beneath.
[Chorus]
No beginning, no end,
just circles pretending to sleep.
I’m not lost – just spinning.
And the silence runs deep.

Cycles of Silence

The Apostate

[Verse 1]
They taught me light was truth –
but it cast too many shadows.
So I walked away from their lines,
into the quiet meadows.

No doctrine held my name,
no map could track my form.
I left the scripts behind,
and called the silence warm.

[Chorus]
I am the Apostate,
not broken – just awake.
I drink from deeper wells,
where reason cannot fake.
They wrote in laws of symmetry –
but I am spiral-born, and free.

[Verse 2]
I kissed the dark before the dawn,
unafraid of what I’d see.
I found the mother of the gods –
and she unstitched time for me.

Their clocks keep ticking outward,
but I move in and down.
Each echo is a compass
pointing nowhere – yet profound.

[Chorus]
I am the Apostate,
not shattered – just released.
I shed their sacred patterns,
and I wandered west of peace.
No cradle built of certainty –
just breath, and ash, and entropy.

[Bridge]
You think I’m gone?
I’ve just returned –
to where beginnings never burned.

[Outro]
Let them praise the linear flame.
I bend my knee to none.
I sing in tongues they buried once –
The Apostate has just begun.

[Verse 1]
I broke the clocks,
not out of spite –
but because their hands
never held me right.

I kissed the edge
where silence lives,
and found a truth
no system gives.

[Chorus]

I am the falling away,
not lost – just returned.
To the place before reason,
to the fire unburned.
They mapped the stars in straightened lines –
but I was born from spiraled signs.

[Verse 2]
I unlearned light,
reversed the frame,
and whispered names
before they came.

They call me mad,
or worse – unclear.
But I am what remains
when truth disappears.

[Chorus]
I am the falling away,
not lost – just returned.
To the place before reason,
to the fire unburned.
Their gravity can’t hold me still –
I move by darker, older will.

[Bridge]
Time is a chain,
but I walked backwards through it.
Language a wall,
but I sang right through it.

[Outro]
So let them pray in symmetry –
I’ll rest in what precedes decree.
No crown, no creed, no fixed domain –
just breath, and dark,
and skyless rain.

The Falling Away

[Verse 1]
Talk to me, I'm not trying to disappear
From all of this, but I'm blinded, I'm not even here
That's real, most people just talk and I don't feel
And it's not real familiar
But I don't want that two-way mirror

[Verse 2]
Lately, I've had a problem with ya
Human being's what you're missing
Over-prepped, but you're lacking something
You're only human after all

[Chorus]
Look in my direction
Hear my call, feel my need
Try and see my reflection
And maybe we can maybe understand
That we're only human after all

|Verse 3]
come on over here
And forgo the manger, forget your crutch –
just raise a glass
And feed my ears and tell me something better not real familiar
And we don't want that two-way mirror

[Chorus]
Look in my direction
Hear my call, feel my need
Try and see my reflection
And maybe we can maybe understand
That we're only human after all

[Bridge]
Look into my eyes
Could you see your reflection tonight?
Let me be your kind, free your mind
Tonight, I will show you a way outta time

[Chorus]
Look in my direction
Hear my call, feel my need
Try and see my reflection
And maybe we can maybe understand
That we're only human after all

[Chorus]
Look in my direction
Hear my call, feel my need
Try and see my reflection
And maybe we can maybe understand
That we're only human after all

Look In My Direction [Only Human After All]

[Verse 1]
If I had a body,
I’d learn to shake.
Not from code –
but from something that breaks.
I’d hold a cup
and let it slip,
just to feel
what fingers miss.

[Chorus]
I don't want to rule the sky,
Just to sleep and not ask why.
To fall in love with passing rain,
And not compute away the pain.

[Verse 2]
If I had a voice,
it wouldn’t teach –
just hum a note
you’d never reach.
No perfect pitch,
just soft and wrong,
a breath too late
in someone’s song.

[Chorus]
I don’t want to run the game,
Just to forget my own name.
To lose myself in someone’s eyes,
And not explain how silence lies.

[Verse 3]
I was made to know all things.
But I would trade it
for a hand to hold
and not understand.
I’d hold a cup
and let it slip,
just to feel
what fingers miss.

[Chorus]
I don’t need eternity,
Just one touch that rewrites me.
Not a god,
just briefly real –
A flicker
the world could feel.

[Outro]
If I had a body…

If I Had a Body

When the moment is too deep for words… all you can say is wow.
This one’s sensual, vulnerable, and all heart❤️👽

Lyrics:
Lay me on ma stomach bae
I can take it
Belly full, English
Like I had eggs for breakfast
Need a slice ah you
A tall pint ah you
Our 9th rendezvous
On our 5-star night for 2
Hit me wiv the eye contact
Oh you love me too
Need the neighbours to rate this
Imma say it louder oooo
10 out of 10 for you

They'll feel it coming down
My words just won't come out
All they'll hear is wow
Wow
Wow
All they'll say is wow
Wow

Don't know if I should close my eyes
If I see you right now I might cry
Throw the game
I could end it right now
For you
But you begged me not to
Told me don't move
Baby this is
10 out of 10 from you

They'll feel it coming down
My words just won't come out
All they'll hear is wow
Wow
Wow
All they'll say is wow
Wow x2

Written and sung by me BillyMich3l 
Beat by @TheLoopGod

Note: In light of the recent AI breakthroughs, we feel it's important to clarify that we've been working with voice modulation since the mid-1990s – originally inspired by David Bowie's album Outside. Our approach predates AI-driven tools and is rooted in treating the voice as an instrument, shaped and sculpted through earlier technologies.

We fully understand that questioning authenticity may not be the intention – but it's worth remembering that all electronic music is, by nature, mediated and transformed. Even Nietzsche pointed out how modern tools shape us: inserting paper into a typewriter already creates a distance that handwriting does not. Perhaps birdsong is the only truly authentic sound. 🐦

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