cant stop listening to this, its my fav song rn so beautiful i love it

old tattoos (ryo + will + st jimmy)

mv: https://youtu.be/qqQnSx04Rp8

@ccottrill
lil sc-only ting

feb 9 2022

between the gaps, i was swimming laps, got close to some epiphany. i'll convince a friend to join deep ends, have your toes touch the lack of cement... gather to one corner of the woods, echo chambers inside a neighborhood. in centerfold, humility shown, you're not as good as what your mama's sewn.

aren't you glad that you reside in a hell and in disguise? nobody yet everything, a pool to shed your memory. could you say you even tried? you haven't called your family twice! i can hope tonight goes differently; but i show up to the party just to-
.
.
leave...

https://soundcloud.com/ccottrill/amoeba

amoeba

@saiwai
@1spoder
@rywrrd
@redhxrse

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i cant drown
if you got me then i got you there's no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

@rywrrd:
we just walked in
yea pulled up to the party and we sparkin
i got no options
i told that bitch i'm pullin up but that is not it
bitch i'm posted up w roah and spoder
when i'm down feel like sosa cuz i hate bein sober
fucked it up when we talked like over and over 
bet u wanna talk now cause i skrt in tha rover
got me fucked up 
tried to hmu last week
but idgaf i'm not ur bestie
left me
in the dirt like last year
but idgaf cause this is my year!

@redhxrse:
ooh
yea i'm going thru the works
can’t believe it's getting worse
when i'm with u it's like a curse
ooh
problems that u need to fix
and u keep venting about shit
like i'm a fucking therapist
all them fucking parties where i'm standing in the corner
minding my own business but u couldn't be more forward
yuh this broken man is tryna give out all these hints
but u give no shits with u there ain't no subtlety
subtlety subtlety like look at all these bands on me
money ain't a problem when ur clinginess is all i see
put another k on the dash but ur still here
try n make it make sense cos i don't want u anywhere near

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i can't drown
if you got me then i got you theres no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

fight

'jazz' +@1spoder

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/numb-feat-spoder

written circa nov2020 before redhorse was a thing,
back when i was still in school - still the saddest song i've written, limina may overtake tho-

lookin in the mirror, i don’t look too happy,
my room smells like shit, and i've got no money!
another one of those days, dead in my bed,
escape thru my phone, ignore what’s downstairs...
this time it seemed worse, what’s gotten into her,
i wish i had her energy, not being a sitting duck,
are my problems that bad? they tell me i’m too awkward,
sometimes i wish they’d expel me, then i might just be bothered
i know i say no, actually i want you here,
being a burden just hurts, but i need someone to see my tears
only downhill from here, i don’t wanna grow up
shoulda took a few pictures, i’d have shit to look back on
but no i’m a loser 
foggy path up ahead
maybe it’s time to wake up, 
talk to her instead.

solo

feeling audacious, might leave my bedroom
been the first time since i saw the full moon
they ask me why, i’m just following the rules
but i know inside i ain’t got anyone to talk to
bittersweet taste, brought it all on myself
just want the attention not the love, it makes me unwell
past few months i been sitting like a shell
sitting like an empty vessel drifting away into the ocean
island of my own, embrace the palm trees
escape from reality, i just wanna be me
move with the currents, fed up of self-control
hopeless for the future, got me feeling freezing cold
life has no winners, 
live a planless paradise,
sleeping in this limbo, 
no concept of time.

switch up

@1spoder verse, go get ur money up n follow him

had enough, i'm running out of patience
i'm sorry
can't figure out another way to say this
i really hope you don't keep me waiting here
i really hope you don't trap my mind with fear
i don't like who you are
cause i don't know where to start with you
i could travel so far
but i'll end up coming back to you
and i hate it
but i don't have the guts just to say it
walk without a head, think i'm brainless
you want my damn heart then go take it
i'll be here waiting
and it's all my fault
that i took it this far
guess i had it all wrong
and you are who you are.

2-5-1s am i right

numb

stream the mf song

numb, +spoder

prod simon m @simonpopdiva goat

i think im gonna 
fuck up every single thing in my life
know that ima stuck up, everything i do is out of spite
i know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try
i just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die
lately been on my own, and i walk this lone road
i wear my heart on my sleeve, she said im getting too cold
u say that im toxic, selfish, oh well thats just how it goes
keep making assumptions about me, look at u what do u know

and lately i been feeling better than ever
we dont talk anymore but maybe one day i'll write u a letter
and time goes on and the bond we had continues to sever
yeah i guess i wish i never met her

u say one thing and do another
see the cracks, i see the bluffer
too far gone, im under covers
know that u want me to suffer
look at u i look at my reflection and i hate it
i dont know the last time i felt good emotion, heart's so vacant
like woah woah, im moving so slow
take a pill im gone, i just do it all to cope
im just losing myself time and time again, im losing hope
maybe one day i can really love again, reap what i sow
like
what u really want from me, begging for my attention
(i know that i) love u and i hate u, got me torn over this tension
(feels like ur just) using me, these memories are stuck in my retention
(tryna get u) out of my head but i still see u in my mentions

i think im gonna 
fuck up every single thing in my life
know that ima stuck up, everything i do is out of spite
i know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try
i just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die

i think im gonna 
fuck up every single thing in my life
know that ima stuck up, everything i do is out of spite
i know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try
i just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die
lately been on my own, and i walk this lone road
i wear my heart on my sleeve, she said im getting too cold
u say that im toxic, selfish, oh well thats just how it goes
keep making assumptions about me, look at u what do u know

and ive been doing better
shoutout to my friends cuz without em i would never
be in this position so for them ima be better
fuck the opposition ima go up, go getter

SPOTIFY !

out of spite (simon m)

prod. @simonpopdiva
mastered by @weial

lyrics:
@weial
i fuck it up again & again
it's like they're my only friends 
i'm talkin bout all these drugs
i take em straight to the head
ik u lie lie lie
but u say u regret
i hope u die die die
cuz of all that u said
ur keeping me up at night
don't think i've slept in days
i'm mixing codiene with sprite
look at the mess u made
left me onmyown again
i think im saying too much
but bitch idgaf
i'm running straight from ur "love"

@fvtl
please just save me from this wreckage
i just hope you get the message
i just don't know how to say this
passing notes I hope you take this
count the days in my head
days in my head
never felt like this before
count the days in my head
days in my head
never felt like this before

@aftrrs
im not saying that i hate u but i hate the way i love u
fucked up everything in my life all my happiness came from u
i know we cant go back but in my mind i still think of u
my mind is going off track u really hit me with that 1 2
we dont talk anymore but text me and i’ll reply right back
im crawling on the floor taking pills to stay on track
and shoutout to my bruddas they the reason i pick up my slack
maybe one day me and u can talk again forget about the past

@oviyan
all the things you say hurt me so so bad
i'm just one bad day from calling it wraps
but you're the only person i really have
so what the fuck am i supposed to do when you don't answer my snaps
it really feels like you don't even care
the times you say you love me, they're so rare
yea i'm speaking from my heart, and i'm talking with pain
yea i fucked things up, just another day

@weial
i fuck it up again & again
it's like they're my only friends 
i'm talkin bout all these drugs
i take em straight to the head
ik u lie lie lie
but u say u regret
i hope u die die die
cuz of all that u said
ur keeping me up at night
don't think i've slept in days
i'm mixing codiene with sprite
look at the mess u made
left me onmyown again
i think im saying too much
but bitch idgaf
i'm running straight from ur "love"

spotify

lie (weial + fvtal + aftrr + oviyan)

all instrumentation by me!
JUST STAY!!

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

so you think you'll waste your time?
well let me prove you right
i still need a reason why i think i should be alive
sent a message to myself, read it when im 35
the only question that i asked, if im gonna be alright
will this music shit survive, am i really living life?
i just turned 19 i just did my first show
im still debating on quittin this shits got me feeling low
but it still make me happy thats what im doin it for

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too quick someone should stop him

(awesome epic lead solo)

so how am i supposed to tell you you're wrong
how do you get so worked up over some little song?
and now that I am older, I'm still the same sloan
enjoy what you have right now, cuz you know it'll be gone

someone tell me where the time is at cuz im really tryna hit the sack
someone tell me where the moneys at, im tryna give it right back to mac
im really tryna this shit out of my system
you sayin that you love him you might as well kiss himmm
dont ask me for a reason why, i'm gon list em
don't ask me if i'm doin fine, there's no wisdom

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

what's the point if it all means nothing?

life is like an automation clip

lil song thing w @mysticbummer and @v2nthan
Insta: @9blare
prod. joshwa 

(intro)
i swear im sorry i couldnt give you what you wanted
but i thought we were forever and there wasn't no discussion
so i walk in the room, and im looking for you
i dont know what to do, when im alone no clue
sorry you're on your own, i dont mean to be rude
can we just play it cool

(chorus)
you dont gotta be sad imma call right back
you dont gotta be mad imma come right back
in the meantime, take your dress off unbutton it a little
imma get you right, have you feeling sentimental
x2

(mystic)
i dont wanna, waste no time
i got you, on my mind
cant get you out cause you and i on different times
and we’ll put it back to together yeah we’ll be alright 
what we got is untouchable
but my mind is corruptible
still you drive me crazy
ill lay right back and youll dance for me

(chorus)
you dont gotta be sad imma call right back
you dont gotta be mad imma come right back
in the meantime, take your dress off unbutton it a little
imma get you right, have you feeling sentimental
x2

(venthan) 
you don't gotta be mad, imma call you right back
i know I've been a bitch no hard feelings attached 
i've been thinkin bout our old days for so long
it prolly seemed like I just didn't care at all
no more problems
got me acting up for your love, near the bottom
money addin up, but I'm still feeling rotten
don't worry bout it all
i just wanted to call

(chorus)
you dont gotta be sad imma call right back
you dont gotta be mad imma come right back
in the meantime, take your dress off unbutton it a little
imma get you right, have you feeling sentimental
x2

sentiment w/ mystic & venthan (p. joshwa)

prod me
@chanelfather

lyrics:

helper:

every time i wanna go outside you're there
papparazzi on my ass yeah they sure think that im aware
so lets go
i can take you million times in a row
and i can touch the sky
that shits impossible to you
and my heart's cauterized 
and yo ass baked like nba2k oh
and i feel like we're better when we're together
and ur way too busy runnin ur mouth
got biscotti and no one can take my shawty from me
gettin my flex up while yo shit is goin south
talk shit and then that repost goin down
and u said that im a person, not a fool, fuck you
now im getting dirty flashbacks when i thought that we were cool
oh, oh, you're wasting my time

im so damn original yeah i can find my own way out
people try to copy me but every time i spaz on the track
and im losing my god damn mind
everything i do is a waste of time
(2x)

shits none of your business why u gotta be so nosy all the time
but there's blood on my hair and i just wanna disappear
and i love you less the more we talk
and my brain is flooded with these thoughts
and i do not give a fuck
no second thoughts i feel like miley on my hot shit
but i guess that's how it is
and i dont know why im like this all the god damn-

catchin the opps and im freezin the bag
thats so fuckin original to me
and im thinkin and thinkin and thinkin about what we had
and i fucked up real bad
everything is in the past
and that boy he need a glow up real bad
u look better with the lights out
doesnt everyone?
cars are flippin all around me and i dont know what's goin on
what do u expect me to do?
im like nothin but a shell of a man

chanel:

everything is different nothing feel like the past
only thing that stayed the same was me gettin racks
you know imma different breed take a look at the facts
hunnid rounds ion the drum imma make this shit blast
only got 1 blunt imma make this shit last
if these pussies talkin down they can hold my sack
i been workin day n night a man like me dont need rest
give a fucc about the numbers bitch i know im the best
only feel like im chanel when i be high off the dope
and when im sober i just feel so weird i dont even know
how to feel or what to say
all i do is push away
all my people say they miss me
but they aint gon do this with me
couple shots up out that fye make em crispy
kick her out but she come back jus like a frisbee
smokin crack up out the pipe i know its risky
yea im on my grown man shit sippin whisky

helper:

im so damn original yeah i can find my own way out
people try to copy me but every time i spaz on the track
and im losing my god damn mind
everything i do is a waste of time
(2x)

they designed me to get better and better
this aint no contradiction im switchin moods like the weather
and all they do is talk about it
so they copy me
i know u wanna see some more
u just want a feature to get off the floor
everyone is beggin like just parle-moi
i just know u wanna be like me
like me me me me meeee

original w/ chanelfather

THANK YOU ALL FOR 400 FOLLOWERS I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU<3

pic u up (iann+monaco)

Episode 1!!
inspired by h

lyrics-
i cant catch a break!
this real shit is fake!
i cant get right!
im still stuck left!

cant go back idk what 2 do
yea im posted with the @00clique yea im posted with the crew
and ik im in my feelins but ik i like u
ima send ten shots when u in my view

i know its just a feelin, i know it, i got it
2023 we goin up like a rocket!
yea this shits a puzzle but you know that ill solve it
and no i cant catch a break no i cannot stop this

and theres a whole lotta shit on my mind
and im searching for some wishes that i cannot find
half of my best friends are all online
i cant catch a fucking break at least i tried...

i see the way u moving, ur all in, my eyes
i like the way u do it, im tryna, get high

but its ur decision, ultimately
i could have sworn i seen somebody that was other than me
really i just wana go somewhere with my friends
its just a shot in the end with someone i cant make ammends

nobodies gonna make it out alive
dont care how u gon perceive me i wont lie
so why the fuck would i ever want to try?
no i do not give a f**k who you idolize!!!!!!!!

(x2)
i see the way u moving, ur all in, my eyes
i like the way u do it, im tryna, get high

cant go back idk what 2 do
yea im posted with the @00clique yea im posted with the crew
and ik im in my feelins but ik i like u
ima send ten shots when u in my view

i know its just a feelin, i know it, i got it
2023 we goin up like a rocket!
yea this shits a puzzle but you know that ill solve it
and no i cant catch a break no i cannot stop this

HOW SHOULD I KNOW??? IM STILL IN GRADE SCHOOL! U THINK IM THAT CRAZY???

numb, +spoder

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