dt thisismyreality




i saw you inside the party kissing on another guy
and i asked you about this before and then you fucking lie
so ill take my bottle with me and ill go out for a ride
hopefully ill crash into a tree and then ill fucking die
now i dont know what to do with you
you can tell me anything but the truth
i bet you feel like shit since you got caught
i dont want you anymore bitch please get blocked

bitch get blocked

prod @bloodsekai ft @foreverstained

@yukisasayaki:
always talkin under my breath
im so insecure ever since u left
but i cant move on n im so depressed
cus being with u rlly was the best

nothing belongs
cant right my wrongs
cant write no songs for shit
nothin ever matters n i wont let it
cus i hate my life n im pessimistic

@foreverstained:
i just cant do nothing by myself
i need u here to keep me well
i feel like i dont belong
i'll never get what i want
what i want is u
i wish ud want me to
my aggression grows
why would i let go

@yukisasayaki:
always talkin under my breath
im so insecure ever since u left
but i cant move on n im so depressed
cus being with u rlly was the best

nothing belongs
cant right my wrongs
cant write no songs for shit
nothin ever matters n i wont let it
cus i hate my life n im pessimistic

i kno u dont feel the same
but its racking up in my brain
n its causin all sorts of pain 
crack the picture n the frame
it wont ever be the same
what else have u got to gain?
i dont wanna play this game
i dont wanna play this game

right my wrongs w/ lifeless

xowillow cover + @bloodsekai

now on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0RHM2lVQmkyg1CThPz8jMI?si=7ugw5TuNQ_GjQUi74W4cqQ

Im feeling super out of it
Next to you my heart starts to flip
Im super lame
Cant entertain
And when I try and talk to you
I always end up looking rude
I dont know why
I fail every time

I took some tips from guys online
Put on some lipstick then I'll find
A girl like you
You are so cool
Youre super punk
I super suck
You sucker punch my fucking guts
I cant be fine
I'm out of line

Dont wait for me
Delete your discord
Don't wait for me
I'm already gone

loser cover

https://open.spotify.com/track/0xrmO7bsphVGjmmEIGxoqm?si=32268afc4e334d8b

featuring @m1v !!!!

[prod me]

lyrics:
(me:)
you know what i meant 
when i said i wanna die
close the cinemas 
cuz it's brutal, close your eyes 
it's only "forever" 
until u wanna change your mind
i'm the detriment 
i didn't meant to cause a fight
to cause a fight
the bells last toll rings and my ears bleed
it'd be best if u leave now, it'd be best if u leave now
don't bring more attention
your eyes are the weapon
don't be so aggressive
i'm not your possession

(m1v:)
contemplating the society i'm raised in
take me back to home
i'd rather leave it all behind
i'd rather run than walk a mile
with time and time and time again i realize
your show is when my problems turn to open wounds for me
and i take massive pride in having none of this repeat
repeat, repeat, repeat

(me:)
you know what i meant 
when i said i wanna die
close the cinemas 
cuz it's brutal, close your eyes 
it's only "forever" 
until u wanna change your mind
i'm the detriment 
i didn't meant to cause a fight
to cause a fight

your show is mine (ft. m1v)

prod by me.
cover art by me.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/18Wj6ONTw9q0XFIOS0jweB?si=75d9f83c2b1f4427


I think she wants me dead
4x

I'll go talk to no one 
Maybe she'll like me better 
She tells me to move on 
with her blood stained sweater

It's my fault I don't know what I did
I fucked up, no I won't do this again
I'll take another hit until my eyes turn red
She says I'm full of shit I think she wants me dead


I think she wants me dead
4x

I'll go talk to no one 
Maybe she'll like me better 
She tells me to move on 
with her blood stained sweater

I think she wants me dead
4x

I think she wants me dead

very wifi skel inspired r.i.p

prod by. me
cover art by. my gf

Everytime I see youre eyes
I know that I will be alright
We will both get through this night
If I know that you're by my side
Alexis I'll make your dreams come true
Call me crazy but I know what I must do

We'll get better I hope you know 
We can change the weather if it snows
Cause are souls are tethered I won't let go
I won't let go
I won't let go
I won't let go

Everytime I see youre eyes
I know that I will be alright
We will both get through this night
If I know that you're by my side
Alexis I'll make your dreams come true
Call me crazy but I know what I must do

Alexis

we made this like 2 months ago 

prod by. @deadyami

w/ @akira3ksucks

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/44nIhegzZLQSoC5buGanGh?si=fb18ebd3a9134411

pwnd/
I know it's hard for me to give a single fuck 
When I wake up I'm always thinking bout' us
Taking tablets knowing that I'll end up in a rush
But if you call me back I will be singing about us
I was sober until I met this girl 
She told me run the way I'd fuck up your world
But I'm stupid I like watching my life burn
But that's what I get and why it still hurts
I'd sing you're name during this song
But I know you would just sing along 
Keep messing with me you're in the wrong
And that's why I still pick up you're calls

redize/
I'm left on read again
I'm still seeing red I guess, but just know
I'm still mad about it I can't help from shouting
About all the bullshit that you wrote
How could I forget about you said 
I'm feeling left for dead 
Yeah I hope you know
Yeah I hope you know, yeah I hope you know
I'd sing you're name during this song
But I know that you'd just sing along 
Keep messing with me you're in the wrong
That's why I still pick up you're calls

Care abt us

Care abt us w/pwnd [+ deadyami]

prod by me.
cover art by me.
w/ @haunted_sad

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/40NhgfTYY3VRBYpFF9gYdx?si=vuWtjkVGQya_ugSwx9Aktg

redize/
What a perfect way to end things
I'll end it all I can't help myself
I've been throught this before I can live without
This other bullshit

Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

haunted/
And yeah I've been running out of time, baby
The death clock it keeps on ticking 
These emotions I have, yeah, they are livid
All these visions of my death they're are vivid
You stabbed my heart in front of me
I watched myself dying every fkn day
I thought girl that u were fkn cool :(( 
Yeah ur the one that just made me end it 


redize/
Thought I had the balls to tell you sooner
But I waited so long why am I such a loser?
I try to keep it all to myself and not ask for help
K I lied, or maybe once a few times
But it will all get better, just don't ever say never
cause there's no better endeavor in life

redize/
Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

haunted/
And yeah I've been running out of time, baby
The death clock it keeps on ticking 
These emotions I have, yeah, they are livid
All these visions of my death they're are vivid
You stabbed my heart in front of me
I watched myself dying every fkn day
I thought girl that u were fkn cool :(( 
Yeah ur the one that just made me end it

a perfect way to end things

a perfect way to end things w/hauntedsad

You were shirtless in his bed...

broooooooooo 

found who i need
cant let her leave
dont want to bleed
just want to breath
get close to me

theres all the reason to stay
get rid of all my pain
so low u make me feel okay
make me feel okay
8x

found who i need
(make me feel okay)
cant let her leave
(make me feel okay)
dont want to bleed
(make me feel o)
just want to breath
(make me feel okay)
get close to me
(make me feel okay)

make me feel okay prod sickboi

cover by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/7vYAvFCyAGckR5vid5UAmD?si=f0e6ebbfdcc54343
@holdmetillicry
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl

says she awful, but i like her
she spends her days online with her damn fur
she's got some cute ears
and a pointy little tail
kinda want her to hold me but thats unwell
she makes me dream at night
hope i dont fall for her
she makes me dream at night
hope i dont fall for her

i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl
i need a catgirl

she sits on discord and talks to other guys
but ill fucking kill them just to have her by my side

@mistvale
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl
I need a catgirl

Soft fur and fuzzy hands
You know exactly what I want

Fur suit and everything
I don’t care if I get the looks

Na,na,na,na,na,na,na
Na,na,na,na,na,na,na

Na,na,na,na,na,na,na
Na,na,na,na,na,na,na

(ALL PLATS) i need a catgirl w/ mistvale

rock and roller on the interwebss.

I prod most my stuff.