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its all ur fault
ill cut my wrists and go to sleep
will you call me
ur everything im on my knees
satisfied i look up in ur eyes
terrified
y r u so terrified

bloodstained sundress
u ruined everything
cuts all on ur neck
i hate this feeling
x2

nothing matters at all when ur not around
ill paint my clothes in blood
i guess it was never enough
i cared i always cared i hope u see right thru my bluff

(hook)

valentine

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based on the anime "our dating story"
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cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon
cos i noticed u started distancing
and i knew with time
you'd eventually leave me

im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
x2

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon

jealous loser

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

@5ylvr
lyrics:
[imsorryhori]
im such a pessimist
i cut my wrists
and watch the blood pour out
im such a loser with no same
i wanna blow my brains out
on the pavement

i wanna die
up in my bed
memories of us stuck inside my head
im such a mess 
im so upset
itd be better off if i was just dead

its all your fault that im like this
your why there's scars up on my wrist
i am a loser and a bitch
just leave me in a fucking ditch
i think about us i reminisce 
about all the times when we kissed

i think about you all the time
and your moving on while time flys by

i trusted you i cant believe it
you fucked my health up so i cut deeper
she says im a stalker and a creeper
i know im such a fucking loser

[5ylvr]
i know im a fucking loser
im trying cause i dont wanna lose her
and im crying but im sadly sober

fantasizing while my heart gets colder
while my heart gets colder
im here you can cry on my shoulder
that feeling where i can just hold her
youll forget me as we get older

im sorry for tell thise lies
i still need u in my life
recanting my words paint the skies

im such a creeper w/ 5ylvr

prod by me.
cover art by me.
photo from Halloween of 23

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What's done is done 
So can you just stay gone
It took a lot for me 
To see I'm just I'm just your pawn
It shouldn't be that hard 
For me to just move on
Or so I thought
Don't know what's right for me
Because you've always been wrong

2x
Your friends might hate 
What I'm 'bout to say
I never cared for them much anyway
I'll just skip on school
And go another day
Wish I could have done things
The right way

Catch u later

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










angelgirl cover

instrumental: @bloodsekai
featuring: @imsorryhori

denpa girl 2

--- lyrics: ---

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

ohh just like you
just like you <3
ohhhh just like you
just like you <3

wear your clothes
let's share our minds
when you're close
let's intertwine
I can't go another night
without you by my side
your shoulders, I sit on and cry
red devil, there's no angel white
it makes sense why you're never right
I'm not scared to fall in love, even if you always lie
had a bloody nose and I had to clean it up
you're my favorite song, you're in my head and always stuck

if i jumped off right now
nobody would care
when i'm walking in the hallways
everybody stares
i wish i could live my life without a care
why do they do this to me
its so unfair

i wish i could be like you
think of the things i could do
i think a screw is unloose 
i just wanna be with you

you're fucking with my head
baby i need some rest
you left me alone and upset
god i wish that i was dead!

girl you ruined my mind
i think im out of time
im tired of your lies
and im so upset
girl you ruined my mind
i think im out of time
im tired of your lies
and im so upset

I think we're meant to be
cuz without you, I can't even sleep
I think that I'm malfunctioning
"uh-uh-uh" that's me stuttering

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

ohh just like you
just like you
ohhhh just like you
just like you

be just like you!! (ft. hori)

what is there after death?

im scared to go outside
life just slowly eats me alive
im gonna close the blinds
god i hate the sunlight


i used to play outside all day
well thats the old me
people are so scary


cant face my fears
its a disaster
please just dont look at me
my heart is beating faster
im not going anywhere
im stuck up in this chapter
everybodys giggling 
theyre filled up with laughter


stuttering my words
im filled up with a curse


i cant talk to the cashier
its way harder then it seems
why was i born so weak?
i cant do anything

theres some people on ur right
u better run and hide
or theyll ruin your life!!!

im scared to go outside

prod @bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/album/5R4wmZWjhjhRoreGZqvqQT?si=OfiXWL1iTRWfceRxPDCJHg

fantasize your touch
i wanna feel love
distanced it sucks
i'll stay i must
we'll meet just trust
don't leave me i'll rust
wait for me im your bus
light my sky like dusk

i dont feel out of place your words make me feel at home
i wanna be stuck to you until we turn to stone
please say you wont leave
i want to be yours to keep
i'll fly out and see
what love is truly
thats if u love me
thats if u stay by me
please stay close while im low
and when im high dont go
im here for u u know
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go

just give me time

This song is for that special someone in yo life

Fallin for You

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Catch u later

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