‘what really happened to Walker’

written by Jane Salem Mitchell & Jay Luis Pena
produced by Serena Avery Liars & Jane Salem Mitchell
vocals by Jay Luis Pena & Jane Salem Mitchell

cover art by Jane Salem Mitchell

chicken scratch (with JAYOVSN & Serena Liars)

song from february 2025 written in december 2024
i think i'll use this account to post throwaway songs

Even if it kills me

ill make you see me

production by me
art by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0bZCgAemO0h9no2IrXVX0r?si=0b27277049634758

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maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around

produced by me
drawing by me 

dont be so brave, ive tried it all its the same
am i so stupid, determined
you try to pick at my brain, cant let you know me the same
the scratch on my arms start hurting

it all feels the same, the years the seasons all fade
the weathers never been tame, ill keep going
my minds never blank, my past my problems all stay
if i can push it away, am i growing?

dont be so dumb, its only real if you make it
i havent cried in so long, am i real or am i faking?
playing stupid for everyone, this manipulation
so if i take off my skin, would it be me who you're facing?

dont be so stubborn its just not what u want
and dont try to make it work
you should know that its not worth

don't be so dumb

end of the game

prod @kirostardew

olly olly oxen free
why you placin pins on me
shoot the cans right off the post
set me on the track to bleed
olly olly oxen free
its the end im faking peace
watch the shockwave pushing up
why ask what i wanna be

back here again?
its not the first time now
back here at the first was the worst time no
you aint fallin down like me
the cursed clover follows me everywhere i go
got the wrong items
enchanted with the binding on me
roll the tire on me bitch im tired
yeah i look like shit but i feel great they call me tony tiger
i wont lose my balance bitch i still be up on top
and yeah you think im dumb
all you think im dumb
you gon be dumb when you get oneshot

im tryna get fucked up ya
you really thought that i fell of bitch im never on
im off the board cant be a pawn
ion got too many friends
so they cant stab me in the end
no i wont take that fuckin chance
we playin hide n seek
he know he cant fw me
been hiding way too long
cant hear that shit im outta bounds
stay put theyll call eventually
its neverending
sit alone w cats n candy
best hiding spot theyll never get me
dont give me away
i got way too much to say
youll hear em callin

olly @kirostardew

demo (file will probably be replaced later on)

It's a turning point in my life
what can I say?
nothing I say sounds right
hold it in for one more night
what have i done?
i swear, i'll make it right

I look like a mess today I know
I hope you still love me
feel like I'm on the edge of letting go
it's starting to show
I look like a mess today I know
maybe I'll just shave it all off just to see how you'd react

i know what your expecting
but im giving you something else
when you tell me you love me
i wish i could say the same
cant think of the words
you want me to say
you ask how its been
i dont say a thing
i wish i could say something

I look like a mess today I know
I hope you still love me
shattering my brainstem
wandering away, hoping things are still okay
I look like a mess today I know
maybe I'll just burn the fucking house down
maybe I'll see you react
i swear, i'll make it right

Turning point

the naked truth for those ready to hear it

The naked truth

“Undone” is a vulnerable alternative rock ballad. The song unfolds slowly, carried by melancholic guitar textures and a weary vocal delivery that feels worn from the inside out. It wrestles with the quiet moments of collapse — when the strength to keep going slips, belief fades, and the person you once were feels distant and unreachable. Undone doesn’t explode; it exhales — exhausted, honest, and human.

Undone

You Forgot The Words to Our Song

from a scrapped project
made february 6 2025

medicine keeps failing me
i been falling from the highest
all the weights are crushing me
even though i wanna deny it
every night i toss+turn
every night i end up crying
tryna fight the way you hurt me
but i feel my body dying

oh
i keep driving but the road dont end
try to break out but i fall again
i cant tell when i be lying oh
i cant tell when i be lying

Turning point

red letter diary