literally everything about this is perfect, you're unbelievably talented. One of the best songs of the year for sure!

i love it when you do the snare roll thing it always is so satisfying

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 6/30
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art credits: me

This is also one of my favourite songs from the album. I stumbled across the initial looping sample on my drive and the rest of the song was made revolving around it. I came up with the vocal riff while driving and wrote the lyrics down soon after.

Although the theme is cliche, this song is about feeling like I am obligated to have my stuff together and be alright and feel like I am unable to let myself falter. This is in no way shape or form anyone else's fault, but many people I know, whether recently met or people I've known long-term, tell me about how I seem completely stable and how they feel like I have my life together.

This makes me feel a level of impostor syndrome as on the outside, it does look like everything is stable, however, I constantly feel like my life is fluid and constantly changing.

I feel these feelings have stemmed from the fact I have struggled to keep people close and consistent in my life. I often find myself very goal-directed and hyperfocused on things at the expense of giving other people the attention they need. I also find myself not realising that I'm trapped with people who make my life more difficult and bring nothing but negativity. The combination of these two alongside my seemingly bad luck with general life events makes me feel like my life is unstable and that anything could happen at any given moment.

Thankfully at the time of writing this, I have people who I love and adore and can count on through thick and thin. I've made sure to give them the time I should be giving, and have learned that I value companionship.
When listening to this song, I imagine a beach at the sunset and the waves slowly rolling in. The loop used throughout the song sounds peaceful and content to me.

lyrics:

[verse 1]
they say life goes on, i keep on trying
i'll find my place, i'll keep on striving
just make things right and you'll be all good, all good.

but no-one sees i'm almost breaking
seeing, breathing, overwhelming
i wish i wanted to be here

[chorus]
set me free
from this pain
just let me fade

[verse 2]
they say you'll be fine, just keep on trying
just keep silent in the surroundings
you don't seem like you're suffering at all, you don't.

i could lose myself completely
hide away and be deceiving
shaking cold, and fear my downfall

[bridge]
this facade will fade away
and i'll see the last of my days
this facade will fade away
and i'll see the last of my days

[chorus]
set me free
from this pain
just let me fade

i wish i wanted to be here

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 14/30

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
i give up and give in
there's nothing to hide
i felt safe, believing lies
secure their disguise

[pre-chorus]
i know that i was wrong
don't let me fight this alone
i'm trying my best to keep strong
i don't want to go

[chorus]
i am now in the end's tides
at least i lived my life
now i can no longer rewrite
at least i lived my life
i am now in the end's tides
remember me, this is goodbye

[verse 2]
now you've become
someone i've never known
and i wonder
if you're still there

would you try?
and do it all again?
would we shine?
or would we go through hell?

[pre-chorus]
i know that i was wrong
don't let me fight this alone
i'm trying my best to keep strong
i don't want to go

[chorus]
i am now in the end's tides
at least i lived my life
now i can no longer rewrite
at least i lived my life
i am now in the end's tides
remember me, this is goodbye

this is goodbye

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 7/30
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This song is about the careful balance needed between reflection and self-incrimination, the latter of which is often easy to fall into. It is a good thing to accept where things went wrong, take responsibility, and think about what would be done differently next time, however, it can be easy for that mistake to cause damage to one's self-esteem.

When I hear this song, I imagine a cloudy, poorly-defined purplish environment with hands grabbing up from the ground.

always fine, always alright

@neck-deep-official
only good for giving is done. it's time for the next album !!
this song is a teaser of the next album to release, be ready for a beautiful, yet hurtful life c:

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neck deep - december [revenant remix]

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@aegoo @nvr-me @arkenesis
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//
cause i didnt want to find out
i wanted to be cool 
i did everything for you
and Im sorry ive been selfish
and i hate the way im talking about it

what am i supposed to do
did it everything for you
why do we go on like this
go on

cause i didnt want to find out
i wanted to be cool 
i did everything for you
but if you treat me like that i dont know if im that selfish anymore

aego:
i don't matter at all
playin with my feelings you know.
i can't see the light
your lies are mine

selfish w/ NVR ME + arkenesis + aego

mididuck - be comfortable (aego Remix)

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