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She (H)ate me

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Sophmore year

Valentine

Falling Behind

Glue Song

Promise

A Night To Remember

produced by crayon
mixed by crayon
mastering by crayon

no fun
no fucks
you did me bad
i dont wanna know why you came back
can we just forget each other
sorry right to my mother 
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other 
sorry right to my mother
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other

sorry this is too much

@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i cant stand my skin 
i fell in love with lynn
i noticed that she was right
noticed that she was right
dont know where begin 
im cursed with your sin oh i am
just about to burn 
just about to burn

stop cursing me

@ankleankle
@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i guess every time you close your eyes
you see me standing right beside you
brush your hair from morning on
wipe your skin til your tears are gone
i guess everyone just fucking hates you
shattered words will end and break you
cry to me while you sing along
look at me while you get it wrong

say what you said i heard you
i known you for a long time so i cant hurt you
and i dont want you feeling like im not okay
i tried to leave but not again
looking at the ceiling of my room
im pondering im missing you
thinking of our conversations
i cant even think of things to do
you wanted me to stay but i dont wanna see it through
rather be by myself but everytime i close my eyes im seeing you

close your eyes w ankle

i tasted your razor blades
i hope these words cut deep
cause you’re not subject to change

you’re such a
evil conniving lil slut
i hope they rip out your guts
i hope you go grab that pistol and turn your brains into mush

you whore

i hope you’re somewhere just rotting
in my mind i’m fantasizing 
me in the woods really quiet
waiting for you in the silence
so i could rip all the skin from your body

you’re undeserving of love
you shake my bones with disgust
i swear i’ll catch you don’t run
and stab you until you gush

such a whore

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

i cant get you out my head
you would rather see me dead

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

makeup

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

Prod @mbrksht
mixed and mastered by me 

Lyrics: 



How's it my fault?
Things you did I couldn't imagine
Now I want to see you rot
You don't even know

How your shitty words just break me
And your words moving like it's 8D
Hate the thought of you just Tryna play me
What the fuck

I don't even know what you really want from me
Better tie me down or you will see
DEATH DEATH
My intrusive thoughts want to see you bleed
Do you feel the weight of jealousy?

When tongues are tied to fallacies
Did you know I want to see? ROTT
ROTT

YOU ROTT
YOU ROTT
ROTT YOU ROTT
ROTT

CAN YOU ROTT?
Girl, I'm tired of all the acting
You putting that shit in the past tense
Even though all your points were clear

A mistake my dear
left my patience here
Am I what you fear?
So, please can you let go?

Can you let go
Watch your blood paint on the floor
Look you in the eyes, you dirty whore
You're so helpless, you can't run no more

How could you think that you played me?
How could you say that you made me?
Feelings that are overtaking 
Can you just let go?

How's it my fault?
Things you did I couldn't imagine
Now I want to see you rot
You don't even know

How your shitty words just break me
And your words moving like it's 8D
I hate the thought of you just tryna play me
What the fuck

What the fuck
I don't even know what you really want from me
Better tie me down or you will see
My intrusive thoughts want to see you bleed

Do you feel the weight of jealousy?
your tongue is tied to fallacies 
This is why I want you to rot

can you rot?

bullshit

galore galore galore by bunii

cupid

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

national bf day got me sad as fyck ... i am so god damn pathetic

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Nnwe5weuh5fyte28mcrJR?si=ea812a2a3b0c4e23

old (wujek) styleeeee !!!!! beat by me 

w/ @humanendeavour

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
migraine my head aches
ur phone contains my messages
u haven't read im dead
im being ignored again
yesterday i had the worst time
and today if i said im good
then thas a lie
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
i said my head hurts
a thousand times
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
ill my blood feel it up i wanna fill it all with blood
i feel your guts i cut it up
im sorry if that is too much

together forever w/ endeavour

i hate being ass at music dude why cant my vocals be pretty :c

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Mkqb85Xssw7NjMCH7zDKN?si=f0939011e78b4e22

prod me w/ @yukisasayaki again yayyy

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

baby i feel like im gonna die
tell me that u love me while u look me in my eyes
notice how i see u
from across the classroom
pretend to drop my pencil
and watch it roll past u
i jus wish ud notice me
a loser with no apathy 
slit my throat n watch it bleed
if u n me can never be
i swear that ill take my life
use ur silence as my knife
so come and take my hand
i wish u could be my wife 

yea be be mine
never leave my sight
we can live together in a loop
for the rest of time
no different options
no fucking pathways
ur stuck here forever we'll never part ways 

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

dating sim suicide (ft. yuki)

prod me

@menthol100s

skating on the block
i dont really wanna do shit
im never getting a job
cause i know im gonna lose it
i just wanna play cod
and listen to music
dont make me get up
im gonna start puking

i saw your story
but now im seeing red
just like a bandaid
im wrapped around your flesh
like morning coffee
i thought of you in bed
if i had a gun id use it
if i had the balls to do it
why are girls so fucking stupid?
bitch your friends arent fucking human
by the time you know im touring
maybe then you wont ignore me
but if you dont get the message
ill just kill you when were 40

skating on the block
i dont really wanna do shit
im never getting a job
cause i know im gonna lose it
i just wanna play cod
and listen to music
dont make me get up
im gonna start puking

puking w/ skeleton

harper i think im.... uhhhhhh

some fuckass dude was playing guitar in the back at the beginning im sorry

we literally recorded this at guitar center fuck a fl studio

prod me
ngl i recorded this in one take 

@revivle 
do you wonder how ive been? 
if you want we can go back
to the place our eyes locked inn
maybe we'll hold hands again

i talk less since ive lost you
but when i talk its about you
my friends say just forget about it
but how can i forget about him

i cant pick up broken pieces 
love is still a game for two
tell me what i am to you

if i asked for honesty 
would you tell me that you miss me
or would that be too risky,
ru scared?

ru scared ru scared ru scared ru scared