lyrics
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sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

don't tell nobody
whatchu really feelin
i cocoon myself & dissociate when i feel it
scratch off my eyelids
slowly revealing
every single dissatisfaction i've come to deal with
of course the course i'm driving is full of formaldehyde
hiding deep inside the spaces of places i'll never find
the inevitable factor of rattling what's inside
is the base of all your struggle so buckle up for the ride
sign the waver in your favor for fucking up all your time
the pandemic academically taught us all how to hide
hopefully we all come out of this happier & alive
with a better understanding of standing outside the lines
my creative continuity caught a cold in july
though the weather was much better my feathers just never dried
hung my coat up in the closet consuming my modest mind
overcame it when i aimed it & shot it back at the sky 

sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

cocoon

hey, thx 4 listening, seriously.
this is the first song i've mixed completely from scratch,
so i hope it doesn't sound too foul 
prod. @prodskellington <3
cover art sketch by @bleulmao

~~~lyrics~~~
a minute away
i’m gonna fade
back into the nothing
shit what do you say
fear to be fake
look at my face
fucking disgusting
throughout the day

i can’t talk if i can’t even breathe out
she seems off there’s gotta be a reason
raindrops fall everywhere i don’t need it
think this calls for the death of a weakness

check, check, check,
troubled mind, covered ears
less, less, less, chitter-chat full of tears
let’s, let’s, let’s, get the fuck outta here
can’t afford being gone
but i’ve lost will to care again

the cycle ends
what’s the point in this
low love, slow thumbs, so numb

winter crept upon my hands
and all i am’s ideas through a screen
is it true that you were never meant to be?

troubled mind, covered ears [prod. skellington]

<3 ur all amazing

prod. me

lyrics:
is there really a good time that we could talk about it?
when I bring all this shit up I feel im so dramatic.
am I really the type of guy that u should talk to?
cause i’m kinda selfish
I wish that you would think this through.

look at my goals I’ve already done most of them
I dont know
where the fuck to go from here
I do this for all of you I feel like I’ve known you for years.

took me everything to get here
my complexion is gone I fuckin disappeared
wasting my life and i cant shed a tear
cant look them in the eyes cus im so fuckin insecure

sittin and thinking im buggin im not done with my life.
I got too much shit to do and its bout time I realize
that I can make my way back.
so tell me what the point is.. am I doin the right or is it pointless
dont say I copy shit bruh I fkn worked for this
stress is eatin at my body I fkn hurt for this

(yea it fkn.. yea it fkn hurts)

took me everything to get here
my complexion is gone I fuckin disappeared
wasting my life and i cant shed a tear
cant look them in the eyes cus im so fuckin insecure

dramatic

spotify

dramatic.

I love u if you’re reading this :’)

Lyrics:

[hero]

i should write a million songs
a discography is not one

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know

[navyxower]

every day i am outside in
this cold weather makes me feel alive, andr
your always inside of my iris
i wish id take you out for the night, then

i dont wanna casue a problem
i lost a couple friends that i loved
i need to make some sense, of what i, have known
im in love with you and no one, knows
i need to make up my mind again, timeless the gang, yeah we know how we ride in this
i dont fw hoes or a side bitch, i made it far, now im thinking where ive been
up in my minds a mess

times going by, and i cannot stop it
im tryna make sense of this
but i cant even breathe through my concious
nobody fuck with me
my style yeah i see
the pain in ur eyes
baby i got your back, even if you aint mine

[hero]

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know


thank you

to all of my listeners
to my idols i base my sound off of
and to all my friends that have stuck with me.
(names in the order of who i met first to last to the best of my memory)

@kurayuz-rageex
@kukisawus
@seltzerkrys
@xweepings
@yokaidreams
@canyouseetheghost
@navyxower
@killsadghxst
@adoretaiken
@lovecliqxe
@noeke
@prod_emerald
@solofttt
@cyzun
@emptychest
@autumndropsdead
@sadtxnshi
@shizukesaaa
@swno
@ztope
@powla
@prodselfdoubt
@camertin
@luvsig
@yxvngjones
@nevrwrld
@x1fern
@caspywaspy
@drewisdead
@failure404
@paperthinwallss
@im_slendr
@drewisdead
@anmldoctor
@betweentheveinsandi
@safeatlast
@lxstboymusic
@heyzbee
@dxnnyymusic
@mxlatonin
@crizzywhite
@cuts
@sivistial 

and so many others i couldn't find the @s for or aren't on soundcloud (or i missed cuz i was tired writing this list LOL)

you made me who i am today
and i am forever grateful all of you have been part of my life

thank you (ft. navyxower) (skellington)

Lyrics:

i'm not lost
you can find me in my mind
meet me up inside my noggin
where i am solitary confined
and 
i never wanted you to pry
all the reasons why i'm in the prison that i do reside
and i know that i rely
way too heavily on my intuition
not efficient
makes it easier to lie
self collision
my existence
need a different frame of mind
an artisan a
shit musician
is just how i am defined

i found a egg inside my body colored red covered in guts
she's spouting bout how that's not a fair and giving me a fuss
uh 
i'm sitting here like what the fuck
is that really your reaction to my stomach now expunged

my intestines aren't intact
and my liver's no better
you thought it was a laugh
but i'm dying in my sweater
took a blurry photograph
and i hit the ground forever
tried to put them back in
i was putting all my effort
yea
i was putting all my effort
sorry that i couldn't make it home was busy deader
promise that i'll try to make it home by supper
if they let me out this coffin maybe soon i'll be better

fuck fuck fuck fuck

we're all in this together
like captain could you share the map
we need it for the weather
your greed is immeasurable you fucking human trash
how i'm friends with you no wonder ended up a pile of ash

i'm not lost
you can find me in my mind
meet me up inside my noggin
where i am solitary confined
and 
i never wanted you to pry
all the reasons why i'm in the prison that i do reside
and i know that i rely
way too heavily on my intuition
not efficient
makes it easier to lie
self collision
my existence
need a different frame of mind
an artisan a
shit musician
is just how i am defined

how i am defined (prod. treetime)

distressed

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

fucking call me or something

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why 

(don’t let time go by so easy, i’m barely hangin on)

we can go on for hours
the power lines 
the quiet times i had left behind
severed arms won’t take my hands
bleeding in a bathroom stall
blood all on my fingertips
i guess it’s so
won’t let go
of the promise you gave me
needing you lately

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why 

i just got a rover skrt 
pull up all my haters hurt
say no words 
don’t call me a jerk
if you tell me to be there
you know that ima be there first 
it’s obvious that you’re tired of us
i don’t wanna fight 
i just wanted us to be alright
you said things would be the same
i been here trying
you were lying

(you can’t rewrite the things you said, they’re not unspoken)

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why

end of mine (prod. pretty boy ron x nick cassidy)

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

kais