no shame, just love respect and growth <3

wow wtf this just played after my song and this is so creative and unique - good job man damn

Lyrics:

I messed around, and I told them all the obvious

The way I'm walking straight is making everything monotonous

For anything that I have had a problem with,

I'd hate to see it all again,

Still here, but my mind has gone away






Saw an idea, it doesn't feel right to die here

get my keys, get my wallet, get the fuck up outta here

This is my fear, came equipped with the right gear

When I'm in the area, it's always my section right there. 


I guess that I'll admit it, I've always been so vindictive

Of the life that I've been living in,

Fortunate for the misfortune, I've been pivoting

Call me a cryptic sadistic visionary 

Put me 6 feet under and leave me buried,





Take a shot of cynanide for every time that I have lied


and even though I know that I will die, the truth is mine to write. 


How will my story unfold? Find out when the time is right.


There's a deeper meaning to exist in this life of mine. 





Painful in proportions, ripping pictures of my walls

Tameful in extortions, going easy on you all. 

My name is what's important, fuck the fame it's all a show. 

I've been faithful to the gods, and I've been faithful to my soul. 





My life is always great, but my mind is always poor

I don't wanna die alone, nothings in control 

Put together pieces, the pieces that I know

Have so many questions but everythings rhetorical x2

Rhetorical (prod. PurpleHex)

RiverKinn
"Spotless"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Don't hold back
Don't worry 'bout me
If it hurts, I'll live through this
Don't hold back
Don't worry 'bout me

The streetlights go out as I drive underneath them
And you once told me that must mean I have an energy inside

When you realize I don't feel the same
Will you call me out by name?

That's the way it goes
When it gets so far away
And you've been all alone
Wishing I was there
You're the one to blame
I tried to make it work
But you're too fucking proud
Turned the Mona Lisa to another face up in the crowd

The streetlights go out as I drive underneath them
And you once told me that must mean I have an energy inside

(An energy inside)
(Oh, an energy inside)
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"KINTSUGI"
12 Track Album
Produced by RiverKinn

STREAMING:
SPOTIFY: bit.ly/kintsugiSP
APPLE MUSIC: bit.ly/kintsugiAM
OFFICIAL SITE: riverkinn.com/kintsugi

@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXXI

Kintsugi

Spotless

RiverKinn
"Heated"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Yeah, I want it
But I don't need it
And now at times
I wish the memories could be deleted
I think about the way
You left me feeling so defeated
You're just another bad decision
That I keep repeating
It's got me heated
Like I'ma be the one to keep the fire stoked
Got some issues
But my condition was never diagnosed
Try and cope
Refocus my vision to kaleidoscope
Only know a few that treated me the same
When I was broke

The lack of signal had me disconnected
I'll admit that most my energy was misdirected
I couldn't take responsibility or see the blessing
Now I recognize that it was only my perspective
In the mirror I respect the man I see reflected
Took the weight up off my back and now I'm decompressing
Always begging for a sign but never heed a message
No insurance on my life, I had to repossess it

I've been under the impression
You still think about me
But I don't have any reason
To believe assumptions
I've spent hours in confession
What a waste of effort
Guilt of a criminal
I gave it all and escaped with nothing

I've been under the impression
You still think about me
But I don't have any reason
To believe assumptions
I've spent hours in confession
What a waste of effort
Guilt of a criminal
I gave it all and escaped with nothing
--------------------

"KINTSUGI"
12 Track Album
Produced by RiverKinn

STREAMING:
SPOTIFY: bit.ly/kintsugiSP
APPLE MUSIC: bit.ly/kintsugiAM
OFFICIAL SITE: riverkinn.com/kintsugi

@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXXI

Heated

AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE!
https://linktr.ee/ASHXS

i remember (feat. chloe jobin) // prod. sproutz

@rivilin

Lyrics

I say I'm happy but I'm not fake a smile it takes a lot
No energy feeling lost, what's the point now your gone
Plagued by nightmares where I'm shot, through the head and i wake up
Didn't think that was a dream, no I'm losing losing weak

Yeah i hear these ghost yeah outside my hallway
My windows covered in ash at the moment
I don't think ill ever escape from this
The walls start to breathe and the eyes just open up

Moving back and fourth like I'm in a body
Of some disfigured by product of hate
I guess ill make my home right here
I'm more comfortable being trapped inside then exposed
 
To the daylight of the morning
Where I hear pretty whispers just calling my name
And I wake up in a day dream
Thinking that you just went out to get coffee or you went to work

But yeah i know that it wasn't real
That's why i stay awake in the night time
So i know i don't get disappointed by the morning
When i wake and your not there

Cus you know this life gets a bit difficult at times
Yeah I don't think I'm coping i think that I'm lost
Yeah teetering on the edge of suicide
Like yeah do i do it or do i wait to die

Cus it feels like you picked out the gems from my bones
I was so beautiful now I'm empty and all alone
Cus you love to put your two hands in my insides
And you push me on the stage where I'm blinded by the light

Yeah I'm tripping on my own tongue try to find the words
Just to tell my family that im not ok, i hurt
Tell me when was the last time that anyone cared
Probably when you read my eulogy when im fucking dead

Everyone has their opinions on why i takes these fucking drugs
Yeah just to feel numb so i cant give a fuck
Im sick of overthinking about everything in my life
And you know youre fucked up too

Its crazy they don't get it
Just a-fucking-live cuz I got people that be caring
Standing on the edge and staring
At the faces warped from cries if took this step to end it

Walls be closing so I'm phoning in cuz I feel so lone
On the edge of it, cuz I'm on a binge and I know it shows
Sold my soul for shit boy this ain't a skit, man I feel so cold
Lost it in a f it, I was in a binge, can't take back those

So I live with it, and I loop a bit, and I loop a bit
Like I broken record I'm forgotten bitch
I know I got a problem, made a fucking list
Knowing I'm adding daily cuz I'm throwing fits

My mental state be going down a pit
I got a itch, which I gotta fix
Cuz I'm bleeding out from scratching all of it

These walls are closing in
Losing all my breath
Thinking did I live and life without a end

Gasping for a breath
Fighting for my friends
Fuck I gotta make it, I ain't ready yet

Gotta make amends
Cannot fly again
Off the handle, man I'm fucking losing it

Grounded by a bend
Blacking out again
Sober up until it happens all again

Fucked up I need to lay low
Beta blockers with the Faygo
Anxiety got me fucked up with these fake thoughts screaming lameo

So I close my eyes till it fade away
Open up and its another day
Another day issa another waste
Man I fucking hate, that I think this way

Losing It

⸸ spotify ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Losing It

Prod by: @quiteevil

Robstar: @robstar100

Lyrics:

(SCAR$)
(Verse 1)
Do you remember last fall?
Cause I don't
Remember anything at all
Anythin'
Anythin' but your last fucking call

Waking me up in the middle of the night
Screaming at the top of your lungs that you wanna fucking die
And I'm
Gonna buy
A gun for you to say one more final goodbye
Not a single angel would ever cry

(Robstar)
(chorus)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

But I don't mind if you waste my time
Up at 2 am with some other guy
You text that you miss me but that's a lie
I kinda liked how you'd twist that knife

(Robstar & SCAR$)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

(SCAR$)
(Verse 2)
Used to hope that you would miss me, but not at this time
You and all my flaws seemed to intertwine
Now the only one you kiss is a bottle of wine
So you're callin' up my line, but I shrug and decline

(Bridge)
And as my world was fallin' to pieces
You gave me
No reasons
To stay
So that I would walk away

(Robstar)
(chorus)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

But I don't mind if you waste my time
Up at 2 am with some other guy
You text that you miss me but that's a lie
I kinda liked how you'd twist that knife

(Robstar)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

(SCAR$)
(Outro)
Do you remember last fall
I don't remember a single thing at all
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I hope

Last Fall

Last Fall (ft. Robstar)

LONELY HELL

prod. ocin
guitars: 5head

You know my life’s a mess 
I wanna feel your chest 
Come give me one last breath girl 
Keep going til the end 
Remember what I said? 
Do you, do you? 

Find me alone 
Writing songs on my own 
I won’t pick up the phone tonight 
You wanna find my love again 
I don’t know where it went 
But I know it will never fade 

I love the look on your cute face 
When I’m sorry and you hate 
Me for being such a fool 
Still love me until the end girl 
I can’t live here in my head 
It takes control when I’m in bed 
Take my heart and soul instead 
Still love you until the end girl 

Baby I just wanna be enough 
Cause my heart it beats for you, and it will never stop 
I can’t help you baby I’m in a rush 
Insomnia sucks 
ya 

Find me alone 
You know I cannot pick my phone up tonight 
You wanna, wanna find my love again 
Still writing all my songs on my own, alone 
(x2)

alone

I got places, i draw faces, i leave the canvas black 
for all cases, divine judgement is not racist 

I see ghosts right beside of me, 
Day by day they just take away the life from me, 

No vision, but cold vision, they try to take my wave with nose digging,
EMPTY KID WITH NO FIGURES, I GOT MY OWN CODE, WITH GOLD SCRIPTURES,
THEY DONT UNDERSTAND ME CAUSE I JOKE DIFFERENT,

(Chorus)
Ima die lonely, i see the light slowly, take your time on me, they got an eye on me x4



Dead choices, and dead voices, i hear none
Fake emotions, and fake love, just get lost
Light Yagami,with dead bodies, I let none 
I became a villain in short time, i hate lust 






I claimed a vision, and never thought, that I'd see the start
Now i'm the one that the devil wants to come tear apart, 
Live a life alone, a broken kid, with a broken heart,
Never thought, that the pain would play such a major part 

I'm sick and twisted, fuck it I'm conflicted
Aint a person round me that can fuckin tell me different. 
 

Ima die lonely x 4

Die Lønley (prod. Purple Hex)

Official Video: https://youtu.be/g5LsZrIONSo

prod. @mit5udomo3
photo. @ch3xican

(lyrics)
I’m just someone to talk to when the bars all close
when your man ain’t home and all the stars have gone 
so tell me something, just tell me baby 
does this feel wrong cause your complacent 
Just tell me I’m not crazy 

insecure 
but maybe
maybe I’m just breaking
Tell me one more lie
and place me 6 feet down 

or 

I’m just crazy
For you
Am I crazy
To you 

You need
To feel like your alive again
I know 
You’ll leave me here to die my friend
So go
You Act like you don’t give a damn
but when I’m gone 
You’ll know it’s all wrong

I know it’s all wrong
By me 
But I’m better right now
Yeah I’m better right now
But it’s all you see
Now it’s crumbling down
Yeah I’m crumbling down
I know, you know 
Those things in your mind you’ve been wanting to say
I watch, my words, yeah I tippy toe round these insecurities

Insecure (prod. Mitsudomoe) *video in description*

Feat vocals from my homie:
: https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals
Feat Guitar from my homie
https://www.instagram.com/oden_johansson/?hl=en
Art was done by my homie:
https://www.instagram.com/muskisdead/
Just stay just stay for awhile
vision blurring i fall back lose track of time
hands on ears yeah outside just gets so loud
scared to death of confrontation ill be back in awhile

no shame i just break, on knees i cant fake my composure
feel like im just used, between two people you tear me apart
cus i didnt understand it, im left repremanded by my friends and the ones that i love
try to gain composure we fall to exposure, i guess you couldnt take that you judge from above

look at the blood moon consume me
skin shakes to stone the dust that surrounds thee
shadows and footsteps fluttering all around me i thought this dim light would keep me safe
but who am i kidding this journeys so long but ill fight until my grave

-- ripthepetals

I can feel him grabbing at my leg, I think his dragging me to hell
I just took some valium, you know that I am crazy for the pill

Goth kid with the cut wrist
I say im fine but im suffering
Big riv got the ritalin
Laced what im sipping in
I dont really care, bitch give it here
We really living in a false hell
Little vemon when im spitting, im wishing the best worlds
We really going down again
Im wishing we were more then friends

BURN ME FT. RIPTHEPETALS & ODEN JOHANSSON

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

BURN ME FT. RIPTHEPETALS & ODEN JOHANSSON

Rivilin

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