Feeling like a problem when I wake up
I don’t speak for days and then I say sum
Wonder why its hateful
Hate the way that its painful
Hate the way that you notice and your telling me that youd stay up
And I hate the way that I want that
Cause its right here
Ive been off the table for like 5 years
Emotionally unstable but I don’t fuck with the labels
I was only a kid who wanted to walk and now im not able

Cause I see his face in me, 17, white walls and a shit dream
Big house, nice car I don’t know what it all means
These days I just want to slow down
We’d pick a day that its nice out
And we’d smoke a few til it gets dark
And id fall asleep in your backyard

And if I don’t wake up 
If I don’t see your face
And I don’t get back home
Remember me this way
And if I disappear 
Cause I cant take the pace
If I don’t get back home
Its better off this way

And I can feel it closer when you leave
And I don’t notice everything they see
And I could feel it changing when you’d say
That you don’t see the difference either way

Feeling more like a problem, late night I walk in
At the lake and im off one
At the edge and im stalling

Inevitable like you said that it was
Im fucking it up like you said that I would
But I never said that I meant to be good but 
I mean to pretend like you know that I should

Like what does that even mean?
Late night out I see my reflection it used to scare the fuck out of me
I just keep it close to my sheets
I don’t know like no its not real
So unclean and I don’t believe
So don’t fucking tell me what I should feel when it goes that way

When it falls in place when it all comes out
When I see your face
Im just sending this text so we touch base
Late night im pressed into deep space
Press play I hear what I cant say
Say things I mean but I feel late 
Late night I’m fucked and my feet ache
Late night im fucked and I cant stay

All day like I don’t even know what im supposed to feel
Supposed to say suppose you kinda made it real
Alone but im as close as I have ever been
Its funny til its not and I was never here

Orient

ur selfish

ur selfish ft. kennedyxoxo (prod. dercept)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever and Low Hope

2001's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/Prod2001

low hope's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/ProdLowhope   


/lyrics/

i can't breath in this dense crowd
could you lead me through i need you right now
eyes piercing through me i feel naked 
could you hold me closely and recalibrate my brain love

i know that it's stupid
i can't help but worry
i know you said you will be here
but still i grip your hand so tightly

and i will never let you go again
i can feel my body tense 
every thought i reprehend 
still rots inside my broken head

and i can't bring myself to step outside
anxiety builds and i just want to hide
i think my body's giving up this time
i can feel my chest collapse when i look inside your eyes

i just feel so fucking useless
can't ask for help feel like a nuisance
just do my best to hide and numb it
a facade that's built with cuts and bruises

i think i have lost it
but don't know what it ever was
nothing like what used to be
lately i feel like a husk of myself 

i can't breath in this dense crowd
could you lead me through i need you right now
eyes piercing through me i feel naked 
could you hold me closely and recalibrate my brain love

i know that it's stupid
i can't help but worry
i know you said you will be here
but still i grip your hand so tightly

and i will never let you go again
i can feel my body tense 
every thought i reprehend 
still rots inside my broken head

inmyhead (2001 x Low Hope)

POS {siem spark}

Resemblance [prod. past encounters]

prod. @jolst
leftover from this summer
put the finishing touches on it and thought it deserved to be out there
hope y'all enjoy this track has a soft spot in my heart
happy thanksgiving <33

lyrics (maybe):

its never my fault
thats what im hoping at least
i don’t think much
its hard to focus at peace
im a nuisance
i never ask for ur help
if we get thru this
i swear i’ll work on myself

life takes what u want from me
my head’s needing surgery
rewire all the ways i see
transgress all the boundaries
i’ve felt the cold shoulder before
i know better than letting u 
slip into misery
its as simple as counting threes
wish i knew u were next to me

im a burden to myself but i make do
nothing forms inside my head when i face u
stare at crystal eyes forever i dont blame u
for hating my ways, never subject to change
divvy up all the patterns i rinse and repeat
i cant do anything im forgetting to eat
whats a job to a man who incessantly cheap
with his words but his money cant last the whole week
im just tired

next2me [jolst]

@goneafteraugust

prod. flesh

lyrics:
i wish that I didn't have to worry bout the money tho 
i got all these banks you'd think that I got me some money rolls 
like the way it sound when I get hungry but my tummy don't 
I just wanna pull up to the mall and get me one of those 
I don't got the funds to make withdrawals for shit to help me grow 
barely even get any applause I think it's funny tho 
really I been crying on the ground it's getting muddy tho
I could mix that shit up with a crack and make it fucking dope 

I've been slipping again 
and this shit all my fault 
I ain't telling my friends 
that I wanna end it all 
if I do it depends 
really hope that its not 
something that I'll commit to 
when I'm closer to god

she said when im in ur presence i feel like im next to god
ur the only one that ever helps to make these voices stop
i’m not doing well i been stuck in my house with just my thoughts
paid in full but if i lost myself was it really worth the cost
anyways i’m hoping for better days
looking to the sky but it’s no use so i don’t ever pray
i don’t have any faith big blows like a heavy weight
slip until i fall off of this earth n knock at heavens gate

fissure of woe w/ goneafteraugust

crystal clear [kuromee + junoes]

lyrics:

as the wind blows (i don't mind)
as the sea tides change
and i recall the person i was
someone to you
could i be someone again?
as the wind blows (i don't mind)
as the clouds arrive
and i recall the way you loved me
the way i loved you
could we be in love again?

every year that passes i feel
a different weight that's worse than i've felt
i thought that once i had nerves of steel
when really underneath i'm made of glass
and you can see it's broken
shattered fragments
know i'm not a poet 
i'm a person that feels something inside
then nothing inside

(chorus)

as the wind blows

yeowch

lyrics:
u cannot erase all you’ve done
mental is one
but the follow thru makes you flinch
sit as the world comes undone
with the glow of the sun
to the trees you are just a finch

you’re fighting a war thats been won
its a hundred to one
and you cant help but scratch the itch
you’re exhausting it hun
and i’m honestly done
in the end, it was worth the risk

i hadn’t seen it in a long time
frostbite, from the shoulder i had once cried
no time, i had spent it on a false crime
some sky, i could say if u were alright
brace for it
under ur breath
you’ve got the taste for it
pay for it
maybe i did
i couldn’t wait for ya
tell me, love, that you love me
cuz in the hole i dug it got ugly

hate bein sober now
im sure u know how that feels
but in a space out of order now
you wouldn’t finish your meal

u cannot erase all you’ve done
mental is one
but the follow thru makes you flinch
sit as the world comes undone
with the glow of the sun
to the trees you are just a finch

you’re fighting a war thats been won
its a hundred to one
and you cant help but scratch the itch
you’re exhausting it hun
and i’m honestly done
in the end, it was worth the risk

finch

finch [wisssery]

@pekarot_161

lyrix

break down the fences
erase all the tension
we had when we were kids
just to lose all that we had again

i miss that moment of friendship

days go by
the time flies away from us
and i wont try
to water the dead garden

we're all trying

we're all trying to

make a name and break away
think less about the passing days
smoke our dreams and hopes away
and hope that something comes of it
im done with it

whats the point of all of this

as the wind blows

SALEM AVENUE

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