rewind

@thornskin
lyrics: 
i don't wanna lie to you 
i never did
i don't wanna act cool 
when i'm not with you

my head is up in heaven
my heart is down in your hell
when will i learn that i'm all for you
all for you

i don't feel like talking to anybody
i'm alone in my room feeling lonely
but it's okay i don't need them
i'm drinking late take me away
take me away

take me away w/thornskin

COLD? w/@noise (prod. lostangel)

2. cantgetclose

everything made by me
lyrics:

she
dont wanna see
me anymore
i
i tried to fight
tried to fix everything 
i got ignored

she dont like me anymore
i tried my worst
thought i was right
i can't restore

theres
so many things that i
regret
kept pushing you aside
as my love
deepened
im so fucking dumb

she dont like me anymore
i tried my worst
thought i was right
i cant restore

she don't like me anymore

I feel this weight on my chest
I pray my soul to keep
Oh yeah to give it some rest

I'm awake till the sun's up
Cause I'm scared to sleep
No nightmares of monsters
Just dreams of you and me

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end
I can't get you out of my head
I might just jump off the edge

Tell me who would care anyway
Fuck it, inside, I'm already dead

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

I fall apart, I'm my own enemy
It's all my fault, I hate how I'm empty

I won't lie, I've been wearing the same old jeans
For the past two weeks
Getting high off of anything, my mind
Running in circles tonight

Suicide all on my mind
Running out of options and time
I don't f*ck with that pity love
Y'all the reason why I can't trust

I don't f*ck with that fake love
I'd rather feel nothing yeah nothing at all

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

My head running in circles again
When will the torment all end

Tell me that you understand
I crave for something I won't get
My tank running on empty
How did you become my enemy

I know you think oh less of me
I'm on the verge of insanity
Come on girl, stop the front
I'm not the one you want
I'm not the one you want
We know we go

Suicide on my mind again

I just want all the pain yeah to end
Maybe I'll just jump off the edge

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end

Maybe I'll just jump off the edge
F*ck

SUICIDE w/@yuusef (prod. lostangel x jaysset)

Same damn cycle, I'm helpless or either in denial
Keep lying to myself, diminishing my health
With every pill and bottle

I'm tired of losing, oh I'm in delusion
It's all an illusion, but I need to pay the bills
I'm standing still, can't find my will
To carry on, and staying strong damn

I cannot see straight, I'm stuck in this rat race
I see through the lies, through the blank old eyes
Oh everyone I know, vile
I'm tired of the fake smile

Don't you dare let me down, can't you see this crown
And this heart of gold, they want my soul
Well come and take it, I'm afraid it ain't there
I sold it way back then, we all know price weren't fair

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'm tired darling, can't you see
When did we become enemies 
Why did you have to leave me here
To face my fears alone

When I see you again, I'll be digging a grave
For you and me, cause I don't wanna see you happy
With someone else, burn the world down
Watch it crumble, baby oh to the ground

So tell me when will it all end
I'm tired of losing all my friends
I can't wait for the day when we're both dead
When we're both dead, my dear

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'm tired darling, can't you see
When did we become enemies 
Why did you have to leave me here
To face my fears alone

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

VILE? (prod. myss)

Don't ask for moon when you have the stars
Don't tell pretend like you're
Nothing when we both played our parts
I act like I'm numb, but I still feel my heart
I replant memories, like scars on my arms

They say I know nothing, nothing at all
But they never seen, how far I've fall
Cigarettes on cigarettes, they rot my teeth
Vigilant, so vigilant, do you know what that means

Don't ask for moon when you have the stars
Don't tell pretend like you're
Nothing when we both played our parts
I act like I'm numb, but I still feel my heart
I replant memories, like scars on my arms

Don't ask for moon when you have the stars
Don't tell pretend like you're
Nothing when we both played our parts
I act like I'm numb, but I still feel my heart
I replant memories, like scars on my arms

I've been getting high to numb the pain
Heart so numb, fill it with novocaine
It don't matter what I say
We both know nothing will ever change
Grasp for air in this cruel cruel world
What you chaos around me swirl

I need something stronger running through my blood
And I ain't high enough, no
Couldn't tell you why the world against me
I've been feining for long, what does that mean

It's never never enough, I need something more
Before you find my body on the goddamn floor
I miss what we had, I'm still stuck in the past
This headache wont go away, I see your face in the rain

Lost in memories that I won't erase
That I won't, maybe I can't
And baby I won't, I'm still stuck
With the same old feeling
You left me with

Every night I'm stressing when will I win
Tired of being a joke
Every night I'm sinking, no one knows
Get high off of anything to cope

I lost my mind, broke my spine just to get here

I've been getting high to numb the pain
Heart so numb, fill it with novocaine
It don't matter what I say
We both know nothing will ever change
Grasp for air in this cruel cruel world
What you chaos around me swirl

MOON & STARS / NUMB

this EP is mainly about the darkest thought someone can have in the back of their head and how much of a desperate attempt they'll do to feel "love" / it depicts how someone's thoughts can get if they don't get what they want / in this case it's some sort of affection or love that they wanna feel.

SUICIDE w/@yuusef (prod. lostangel x jaysset)

SARM?