original song
https://soundcloud.com/nothomex/not-home-welcome-ft-heylog

heylog - welcome

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

christmas was never this cold (cxrter x tahtx)

produced by R3DQX and discent 
mixed my epitomeoffailure and teddyboi
mastered by teddyboi

lyrics

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

(teddyboi)

really tryna make sense of this
dead bodies turn to slitting wrists
and i ain’t got no time for that
i ain’t got no time for that
‘cause i got a lot inside my mind
and i don’t want to waste all your time
baby i think that im curse
‘cause im crawling at the end of my life
lately there’s a lot going on inside my mind
and baby i don’t want to lie to you
i think i need some time away from everything
to try and heal myself
work on my head
worry about my health ‘cause
all i ever do is drink the memories away
until im covered in my vomit
emptying my brain 
the liquor’s healing me but my body’s giving up
‘cause i don’t know what i can take
and im close to seeing god
lift my facade
im scared oh my god
she touches on my scars
they make us who we are
but i can’t lift your fingerprints
(off my skin)

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

a toast w/ teddyboi (R3DQX x discent)

numb (feat. Blospar)

prod. sleepless beats

lyrics:
i know youre probably better alone
but you know i could never let you go
so much time spent in pointless fights
now youre just somebody that i used to know

i know theres both of us to blame 
but youre not the one staying up late
overthinking, contemplating
if everything can go back the same

i could probably write a book
fill every page about us
all the bad and all the good
and the things we had and then lost
and lost, lost
and lost, then lost, lost

liru:
aye
and I know its been a week
you havent called nor sent a text
I would prolly be the one girl I keep getting too attached
and I really wanted love you didnt want any of that
all you ever really cared about was when id get that bag
now youre gone
now its over
bring back all my love I needa go and look for closure
I drank so much shit last week I still aint even sober
right about a year ago I died and I got colder

I know its sad im still on lean im smoking packs
anything that helps me get you the fuck off my chest
took one to the face now all I see is foggy specs
pulled up in new designers I could really get you blessed
ive been on my grind I turned this heartbreak into racks
stacking up blue hunnids
nother night another plaque
destined for this music thing
im never going back
one day ill be famous
I dont care about your text

scorpio:
i could probably write a book
fill every page about us
all the bad and all the good
and the things we had and then lost
and lost, lost
and lost, then lost, lost

write a book (feat. liru)

Lyrics:

(teardrop mafia)

tell my mom i'm sorry
cuz i can't feel my body

tell my mom i luv her
i respond with trauma
got them demons in my mental
i'mma fuck up all them commas
put my pain to pressure
tears up in my twins eyes
we gon make it out
i got angels in the fuckin' sky

we got angels in the fuckin' sky
all my dogs bleed
all my dogs be on do or die
wipe them tears, no suicide
wipe them tears, no suicide
tell my mom i'm sorry
i can't feel my body
tell my dogs i luv them
tell my dogs i need them
we gon keep bleedin' till we 6 feet deep, 6 feet deep

tell my mom i luv her
i respond with trauma
got them demons in my mental
i'mma fuck up all them commas
put my pain to pressure
tears up in my twins eyes
we gon make it out
i got angels in the fuckin' sky

all them rainy days, all them stormy nights
we done paved a fuckin' way bitch
eyes red seeing blood bitch
eyes red seeing blood bitch
i got hounds, i got dogs in the mf pound
ohhhh put that on my twin
we was born 2 win
we was born 2 win
shout out wifey
shout out dylan
shout out digi that my bro
that my twin
that my twin
that my fuckin' twin hoe
got some demons
eyes still bleeding
freezing, black ice
teardrop dreaming

tell my mom i luv her
i respond with trauma
got them demons in my mental
i'mma fuck up all them commas
put my pain to pressure
tears up in my twins eyes
we gon make it out
i got angels in the fuckin' sky

Credits:

Art: bleak7x
Production: cxrter x yunny goldz
Mix/Master: yunny goldz

numb part 4 prod. cxrter x yunny goldz

Hook
Stressed pressed see me I’m a mess
Rest less in my bed all vexed 
Got my dome running pressure on my chest 
Still I’m cold blooded know you’re not impressed

Verse
Every season see me I’m still bleeding 
Now I’m needing what I’m fiendin for 

Extra liquor extra buzz gotta fill my cup 
Cut me off but out of love know you’ll never run 

Faded but you still think I’m the one 
Jaded but you still think I’m the one 

Gastly all the things that I’ve done 
I’m still haunted by the ghosts the have evolved as I’ve moved on 
I’m still looking for the answer so I mimick you 
I don’t got to much to live for but I’ll live for you 

You’re wrapped around my skull 
Taken all my thoughts 
can’t even express that
You’ve fixed all of my wrongs

Hook
Stressed pressed see me I’m a mess
Rest less in my bed all vexed 
Got my dome running pressure on my chest 
Still I’m cold blooded know you’re not impressed
X2

Faded but you still think I’m the one 
Jaded but you still think I’m the one 

still think i'm the one (prod. tiedforsilver)

(prod. Miércoles)

lyrics:
scorpio:
there was once was a man who
travelled down different avenues
trying to find a place he belongs
but he never found the place that he wants

there once was a girl who wrote in her diary
saying, "i wish there was a boy for me
the one that i dream of
but i dont think he'll ever come"

Zoe Beaufay:
you
been by my side the whole time
but you didn't believe me and that's alright
cause you
made me feel bad so many times I can't even count

wow, I was so down
you feeling proud

I'd rather watch the moon
at least it shines for both of us
and it reminds me of what I should do

there once was (feat. Zoe Beaufay)

seasons change.

comfort.

whispered, almost spoken

discord: scorpio4488

side project w/devin's world: @frozen-grotto

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