i will listen to these songs when im 80 years old when i want to remember the good ol days

[+] look at my face girl just know that im trying
*produced by *

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LYRICS:

[chorus:]
Why can't you just, love me?
Why can't you just, hold me?
I don't think you, know me
I said that I'm, sorry (2x)

[verse:]
You think that you know me,
You don't know a thing
I just popped a pill, that help my suffering
Cuz I just lay in bed and I can't help but think
I just miss the days you were my everything
I aint even OD but it feel like I'm already dying
Look at my face girl just know that I'm trying
I see your pain I ain't going silent
Pop a xan and it feel like I'm flying
I want a Benz for my mom to drive it
I want it all but I don't wanna ball without you
I wanna call, but I don't wanna bother you

why can't you just love me

(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

srry i've been gone. been rlly FUCKED up :(

lyrics:

let me go
take me home
thru this pain
solely i know
take me home
take me home
to a place
i might know

you call me cause you can't sleep
and i can hear your breathing
it's a lustful temptation my body abrasive i'm reading your thoughts right now
i can tell what you're thinking bout
i'll give in with acceptance of another round
i feel out of place with my mind in this state
it's a feeling i hate but her touch turns me on right now

let me go
take me home
thru this pain
solely i know
take me home
take me home
to a place
i might know

fw0b (thersx)

w/ @fleshgolem

first single off of the ep, 
happy bday fleshy

lyrics

[mæsk]
im worn, im worn
been wearing and my skin is all torn
but i feel alive, when in eye of a storm
i tip my hat off to those that can move on

she said lets go
well ur just going home
ima be drifting slow

she paddles out to sea to see i see her halo
i cant allow it, need to escape 
ill fuck u up, 
please just go back to where u came

depression i just battle it
im sinking on this battle ship 
steer till i cant battle shit
this is my own settlement
until im old, thats if im old

im holding on to rafts with no sign of a life boat
i know on this 1 i wont have time to grow

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone
now urs to take 
all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone

im outta time in this world im outta time 
and its just me by myself on this grind
and its time to let the pen down
write my final words coz im just out of time

[flesh]
so why is there still time to waste?
i'm still disoriented from the time the tidal wave came thru
cause i've been washed up, cleansed all the way thru
and i'll be damned if i'll be drowning cause of you
it's a process, that's what i tell myself 
inside my head its saw traps, i run with reason 
but i always tend to talk back, it's changing seasons
nearly autumn guess i'll fall apart in my room

i said let's go but i'm just going home
i wish that you'd come too, lay my fantasies out on the table
high seas, pulling me away
i went too far the tide is tryna steal my shame
i try to battle it, i swim but i'm just paddling
there's water in my lungs and i don't think i can handle it
i'll tip my boat, that i'll do
before i ever admit defeat to what i knew
before the life before me ever became true

signal w/ flesh golem (flesh x sunshowers)

music video
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https://youtu.be/w9Jfkvx8xbY
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prod. beamerboy
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lyrics_
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hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

a mutual sickness report

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

Provided by Biteki

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@silverreapersnroses
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@zxlone
@lilblueq
@gothurted
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@diamoonofnhg
@remghost
@irby314
@prod_loopy
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@nate2timezz
@prodtsurreal

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