and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

always itching
waiting for 
ur text to come thru

i cannot believe
that there's no pain
in this world

set back 
relax
i can't 

too much
inside
again

gotta
leave
my skin

cuts
relieve
the achin

i thought 
i had a future
but

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

but u never kno (lostcage)

body going missing

prod: https://soundcloud.com/block-tane https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz
 
i can hear my own heartbeat
pound in this quiet
hands bound back
with this rope
he'll tie me up
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
i can feel the cold concrete
laying down, crying
itching through scabs
to be whole is all i want
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh, my body keep shaking
place my flesh upon a sigil
brand with my initials
this night will make me whole again
the embers start to whistle
nothing left, no one to hold me
bloody ceremony
i will lose control again,
the heavens will disown me

please, please
it's all that i have
(like magician, body going)

like magician,
body going missing
bloodied up my palms
baby i feel like a christian
just how i envisioned
prep for the incision
pierce right through my heart
until my fingers finish twitching
oh yeah,
i think i like it, i don't wanna pretend
i'm fucking begging for it
cut me again
and again, and again, and again
and again

(let us pray, let us wish
to partake in communion,
let us partake in communion,
and feast upon the old blood)

where i'm going
i won't make it back
hope he's waiting for me
vision going black
nothing i have left will make it past
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh my body keeps shaking
keeps shaking


paleblood

drops on all platforms - friday 13th june 💫

produced by: @prodjolst
featuring: @ripskele

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it 

[skele]
i pray that someone take me home 
im not seeing right 
im mixing pills into my drink
so i can sleep tonight 
god i know u make me sore 
i don’t need reminded 
fucking kicking down that door
didn’t try to hide it
pouring up this drank 
into my cup gon make it worse 
i can’t even speak 
fuck up this check 
so it don’t hurt
put this metal to my brain 
go afk 
i’m making sure
hope i forget about ur face 
i pop this k 
like its a cure

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it

tired w/ skele (jolst)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

this time i won't try to stay 
once tied to mine, but you'd leave me
you'd leave me
remember the kid?
gave a fuck 'bout a news flash
rays hit his skin, now he's screaming to get back
that night you were there, all i could do was stare
at that hue of her eyes and that blonde in her hair

it's not that bad, could you believe me-
believe me anymore?
it's not that bad, could you believe me-
believe me anymore?


better than yesterday, worse than whenever [prod. never, forever]

i’m glad your cheeks are red, my eyes have turned grey
and i look like a million but i feel like loose change
someone told me ill always get in my way
well if there’s two of me, ill make sure i include him everytime i pray

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

let’s get it started then, while im here i might as well turn up
i’m drinking right off the block at this block party im bouta fuck it up
i’m gliding through this shit i really might just blow up like “Just Cause”
i know i “pour for four” but bae i really think that you’re the one
and i’ll slide
but im scared that it’s the last time
but you stay by my side
and i don’t know why you do that
but i’m glad you’re here tonight

and given the circumstance i hope that we can stick together
cause these dreams hurt so much, i miss you so much
and i guess that’s my bad for thinking that we would be better after the mountain trip
girl i miss us so much
hate being on my phone
i love the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live baby
my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

i used to think that people like this were so reckless
now when my friends call me doing drugs i get jealous
my armors chinked with arrows sent here by the marksmen
they blocked out the sun and used my back like its a target
stop it
i been dodging shit like i did back when i fought margit
stars lit
baby come outside and we can stargaze
im out smoking on the balcony come and join me
i wont jump fr

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

loose change (p. under the maple tree)

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

worth

residential. - worth (all we left unsaid)

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





tired w/ skele (jolst)

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