Honorable Mention

Todos necesitamos gracia

rest in peace mom
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so what’s next? to let myself go? 
life closed the stretch of that road
i could have been there in the end, but selfishness left me alone
i’ve dropped a lot of my hopes
no home, and nowhere to go
tried not to stress, but now you're dead and buried
how could i have known the end of your life would that sudden? 
i felt so attacked
i’m caving in
might fade away just to escape what i know 
but that’s how we die, and it’s sad
forget all the plans that we had 
i’m caving in
might fade away just to escape what i know 
what's next? to let myself go? 
life closed the stretch of that road
i could have been there in the end, but selfishness left me alone 
i’ve dropped a lot of my hopes
no home, and nowhere to go
tried not to stress, but now you're dead and buried
how could i have known?

("i know when i said goodbye to him, that it wasn't goodbye forever
when i see him again he won't be in pain, and he won't be weak")

but that’s how we die, and it’s sad
forget all the plans that we had 
i’m caving in 
might fade away just to escape what i know

prod/mix/master by me

missing your wake

@notmorgn <333

lyrics:

I don't need no friends that fake expressions just for fun
how you say i started when i ain't even begun
every lie you stack up on me hurts unless you're done
every day i suffer in my room well just because

everyday i wake up in a nightmare its a curse
every night i try to change then wake up felling worse
thoughts and hollow memories but still no lessons learned
broken glass for feelings but nobody act concerned

i can't hold my happiness for not even a day
people poppin xannys and they wanna hide the pain
i don't think they understand that life isn't a game
look inside yourself and you might find someone to blame

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

i can hear your whispers as they echo through my mind
pitch black border painted all around your eyes
i don't feel a thing i swear i've never been this high
i don't need to try
i don't wanna stay here
wanna take my life

i don't think i'll every try to make it through the night
who wants to feel alive
am i right
wanna die in your eyes

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

dying in ur eyes (prod.notmorgn)

@guardinmusic
@imnegativezer0

lyrics:
ive been saving this for the weekend
an eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions
my hair is split, im cutting the lose ends
my brain is shit, im tired of trying
im sick of this patience 
logic comes to dying
i knew you were lying but i didnt care
you were something to stop my self hatred
i didnt dare ask a question
you're always on my mind
intervention for loving too many times
did i mention this pain is a way of life?
you learn to live with it
or you let it eat you alive

id kill myself
just to be myself
dont even ask the question
all ill be is a burden

who the fuck am i
just another psychopathic little prick you decide
it's much better here without me cause you're feeling alive
all i ever did was love you but everything dies 

there's a monster in my head that's rippin' me apart 
vacant spaces in the places where we both would start
to separate and every day i blow my candles out
i sit inside but that's not something you  could care about
my heartbeat has grown tired of the wind
if you don't love me anymore than please don't bother to attend 
i'm a waste of energy i'll never see the point in this
arms length, this love is tragic, i'm not something you would miss

i'm so fucking lost without you
they don't really care about you

Follow me <3

before the storm (ft. guardin) [prod. negative zero]

My real life.

prod by taylor king 💘

LYRICS:
you my best friend 
and my enemy
i pop one then i pop five 
you my remedy
and i don't know what 
what comes over me
i get fucked up 
my soul ebony

only dream off a bean ya
tryna be up in the scene ya 
(aye) clips limousine ya
why she callin me a feen ya ya
sad faces 
i aint got no heart
cold cases 
i ain't never gettin caught
ya she too basic 
i could never love a thot yuh
too shameless
i aint never give a fuck no

the pillies is silly
but i cannot quit it
woke up in the pital
my demons is winnin
why i'm always sinnin
downin this liquor
drownding myself in this venom 
ya ya ya

(the sample i used is from skins :)

My Best Friend

i lost myself and wasn't seeing it through
the fever that grew, i dreamed it was you 
i stopped and fell into a sea of abuse
the fever that grew, i dreamed it was you
forgot the help that i’d known and lost myself without hope 

i lost myself and wasn't seeing it through
the fever that grew, i dreamed it was you
i stopped and fell into a sea of abuse
the fever that grew, i dreamed it was you
i want to stay but i know our days are numbered
i’ve lost all hope

i’m haunted by this mess and just want to know what's next
i long for what is left but i just need some rest  
i watched the light turn red but crossed despite their death
i’m constantly obsessed

i lost myself and wasn't seeing it through
the fever that grew, i dreamed it was you

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cracks in the mirror

No Strings on Me (prod. 4evrgone x caspr)

go follow @iofmusic and use his beats hes great

lyrics:

There we were lost again gone for days
Whats the point no one cares anyways
I’ll still be alright, you could let me die slow
I’ll still be alright, just leave me alone~

On the floor laying there wondering
If any of this shit matters anyway
I'll still be alright, you can watch me die slow
I'll still be alright, that's all I can hope for~

Fuck this conversation , cause I can’t let go
Life just has this grip can’t take hold
Coldest times are near don’t want to
Let you down but times approaching

Peaks never feel like the lows
Slowing my life to a halt
Calling out all night
Closed doors locked behind
You saw all the signs
Lie to me thats all I need to get 
Feelings that cannot compete with the real thing enough
Deep as those meaningless words wanna cut
Eventually all that shit turns to
Nothing


I cannot rewind
Mine as well move on
Longing for a sign
Wishing for a thought
Thats all that I want
Something that just gets me through for the moment
The closer I get to the edge feels alive
Like whats the point of just trudging along
None of this shit feels like it is alright
Cave into the thought crawl into my hole
Back to where before no where left to go

I thought that I'd realize and just let go~
Why did I assume things were simple?

signs ~ [p. iof]

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-growth-spurts-lyrics

Growth Spurts

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cracks in the mirror

shae delea