i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

when you’ve got light eyes it kinda hurts when it fills your sight 
leave a heavy sigh every night bask in the moon light 
takes a while to keep enemies around gotta keep close by 
gotta go through it all sometimes gotta hold off that pride 

cause I been dissatisfied with the way we handle things 
listen to the rain when it falls you’ll hear it sings 
I don’t even know when you lie do you hold it on me  
Some day when you meet your match feel how that stings

dissatisfied (skelly)

prod. dercept

lyrics:

[bedroom noise:]
i can feel u stitching up my wounds, but i don’t trust you
my arms are stiff and i feel something i cant tell you
i let the snow stick to my face and you breathe life into my lungs again, it’s so hard not to stay

i sit up and winter air cuts through me like a knife 
the frost from early evening spread atop the fallen pine
makes its way to me, i feel it forming down my spine
and i’m so terrified, i’m terrified tonight

 maybe it’s the poison in my veins
but i can feel my body sweating through the cold of heavy rain
through the shroud of mist here i can only see your face
nothing here can break me i find solace in this place

oh i promise it’s nothing
venom in my stomach
pushing out my chest in search of air atop this summit
no i’m not myself
no i’m hurting baby i can feel it in my bones
i’d take it back to cure this ailment i just wanted to go home

i tried to write you this time
i'm selfish, engrained in my mind
i couldn't wait for you

[99knights:]
the gods will shed a tear that’s why the rain drops fall around me
i’m the weakest soldier but i’ll fight my strongest battle proudly
summer air is cutting through me like it’s tryna hunt my bounty
but the ritual won’t start until you pour the salt around me
led a horse to water
i won’t drink, instead you drown me
and i swear you put a curse on me
my head is always pounding
i feel death inside these 4 walls
and she’s talking oh so loudly
you can’t enchant my mangled flesh
and now i finally have grounding

solace in this place (feat. 99knights) [prod. dercept]

prod @yunnygoldz
lyrics
Tryna farm the clip but he can't even reload
How much your broke ass got I'm guessing zero
Tryna talk looking like that best check ur ego
Blospar Bible turn the sidekick to the hero

Blospar on the song turn it to a banger
need scatpack 392 jeep Wrangler
Fuck a bronco, I got Mopar anger
And I'm dodging off the runaway best be finding me a hanger

I got too much on my mind to ever stop and think
Witney lemonade pour me up a shot of pink
Maybe Mix it with some monster now thanks a killer drink
I Smoked four bowls I think i might be passed the brink

Push me down, but I'll always recover
Might hit the ground, and be lost to the gutter
Still creating my sound, we only get one life
So let me talk my shit cause we don't get another

Dont matter how many plays I get in still the goat
Dropping every week, I'ma do the most
Blospar baby, pop the cork and let's toast
cause I'm the best motherfker from the Nova Scotia coast
Halifax, Irving supreme bitch smoking hella gas
Masked up looking like scream, watch this fella rap
I'm the cracker of the century that's a fkn fact
And if u in that trolley problem I ain't stopping that

I'm an innocent soul, but take no toll when I rip
First past the poll, I win the vote know where I sit
Embroidered the throne, blospar dictatorship
I'd be watching ur tone, before u end up in a ditch

Push me down, but I'll always recover
Might hit the ground, and be lost to the gutter
Still creating my sound, we only get one life
So let me talk my shit cause we don't get another

ALWAYS RECOVER [prod. yunny goldz]

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

prod marlon

still find things so terrifying 
i forget im growing up 
ive been stuck so far behind while 
all my friends are moving on 
i try not to cry 
feel like a burden all the time 
no ambition in my life
theres no direction that feels right, to me
its all up to me, why? 
its so heavy all the time
always wrong and never right

how does anyone find meaning, i cant help but feel there's none
never ask for what i need, i don't know what i need at all  
all i care to be is just so far out of my reach 
i don't wanna leave, i just need some space to breathe

its all up to me, why?
its so heavy all the time 
always wrong and never right

heavy

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

i dont know how im still freezing
blunt came with the pharoahs curse
breathe it take the edge off
im so drunk right now cant even close my mouth
3.5 inside of this blunt im fried
shit might take me out
and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like
oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

you hate the lyrics but girl i know you love the sound
a tragicomedy it feels like i been stepping on a rake
this broken heart's another foot inside the ground
you took the cast off and didn't even find a heart to break, like how
ironic how the marijuana breaks me down
it hurts my lungs like ow, like ow, like how
if i keep on going down this road then you won't follow, right
baby did i get that right
visions blurry but i think i see the city lights
you said you really want this for my life, right
now amiro in the party like

oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

feed u w/ kiddamo (p. under the maple tree)

calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u burn the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god


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60 sec cover of Sewerperson’s tbh. Emo rap snippet, just wanted to capture the vibe. If you fw this I’ll drop a full version

tbh (sewerperson cover)

deadwood forever, deadwood even in heaven

lyrics
How did time get away from me now?
I always hoped that it’d be better than this
She’s in love with the ghost of me now
I never thought that I’d be something to miss
Losing composure
When you’re pulling me closer
Can we stop with the faces
Faking every emotion
I feel better at distance
At least better than coping
Baby everything’s broken
Who the fuck are we joking?

Thinking I need medicated?
Baby I’m done with the pills I’m just dealing with stress
Never believe when I say I’m depressed
You say I’m blue and should come to my senses
I see the posts in my mentions
Why don’t you stick to a message, huh?
Don’t even cover intentions
Stick in the knife and I see u enjoying the blood

How did time get away from me now?

Don’t even care what you said
Don’t even care for the ending
What are we trying to mend?
Nothing is worth the protecting
I’m so fucking close to the edge
Baby I’m sick of pretending
Quit being friendly
You’re fucking deadly

(Time falls down
To the bottom of the well I drown)

How did time get away from me now?
I always hoped that it’d be better than this
She’s in love with the ghost of me now
I never thought that I’d be something to miss
Losing composure
When you’re pulling me closer
Can we stop with the faces
Faking every emotion
I feel better at distance
At least better than coping
Baby everything’s broken
Who the fuck are we joking?

Maybe time will heal the wounds
But fuck it better fix it soon
Cause I’ve been slowly losing sanity
I trade it all for you
All the change up in the wishing well
It’s never coming true
I give it all for you
I give it all for you
After everything you did to me
I finally see the truth
I still fall for you
I still fall for you

(I still fall down)
-
P.S. I spend a lot of time tryna write well so thank you for reading <3

times up. (prod. dash)

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

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