open5eason (killedmyself)

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

for now, im no one (p. muzcean)

lyrics:

[bedroom noise:]

i stumble down the stairs
i grip the railng it sends splinters thru my hands
as the panels shift the mildew creeps its way into the air 
all i do is think about ur body and i stare
att the bones beneath the remnants of the flesh u used to wear
and ur not breathing. i dont notice
and ur bones r rearranged to fit a shape thats locked in place
as the spire calls my name i twist and writhe until i change
until the mirror splits and now i do not recognize my face 

uh, i do not recognize this place
fluid leaks from puncture wounds, its pouring out my  brain
i let my flesh
become a costume
for the souls that will replace me
the bodies left adorn the concrete floors inside this basement

i do not think abt u lately
something in the walls is tryna change me
i hear u caling down the halls
i cannot speak to u at all

[melmige:]
	
why u looking at me that way is something wrong
now that u mention it my body cold and my hands are numb
throat is closing up think im losing all my oxygen
pieces fragment falling off in sequence to the setting sun
bile rises up when i try open up and say what’s wrong
fighting for control i think i never had and never could
im scared not one for cynicism
but it’s looking bad and not any different
than how it’s been since it was in winter
heat change nothing don’t feel the difference 
i’m mumbling i’m stumbling all through these empty streets
i’m wondering bout where ive been compared to where i’ll be
my body rotting stomach rumbling i haven’t ate in weeks
not worth the trouble don’t deserve the proper care i probably need

so why you looking at me that way am i too far gone
i feel like time freezes and then i blink and the years i lost fly by
body rusting stuck in place gather dust over my eyes
don’t think i am someone my family recognize
every word tears at my throat and every step bones break
i feel trapped under my skin as i claw at my face
im writhing

a remembrance of the spire

a remembrance of the spire (feat. melmige) [prod. TXMID]

calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

raindrops on concrete w/ cray (cxrter)

animal

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

P. nomansland 

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

Gherbo Intro Remix

Balmain Jeans

Drums

静けさ - shizukesa

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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

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