this flow a bit drippy 🥶🥶🥶🥶😔🥶

@failure404: @shizukesaaa @user-411557229 my boys shreddin this <3

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

i’m begging just let me go outside
i’m making up reasons now
i’m so used to having a bad time
and now i can’t phase it out

i thought i’d feel better at home
and i thought that you knew me but maybe you don’t
the walls that surround me crush right to the bone
but i’ve been so weak maybe it was my fault

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

born in this house [neverforever]

calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

produced by @nevermadeithome & @prodjolst ✨ 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please 

and stay happy cus you’re moving tomorrow
so pack up all those mugs
return the books that you borrowed
it’s a double edged sword i know there’s some sorrow
but your dad’ll be fine
i know it sucks but you gotta go
5 nights on the road with a carload 
on the way to BC just avoid all the potholes
when you’re in your tent all alone with a bottle
and you’re lookin up at stars
i hope you know that your moms right there 

when you’re down baby please will you tell me?
i’ve been gone lately, i know it doesn’t help things 
don’t feel bad girl it’s not your cross to carry
i’m under mud from the weight that ive buried
you’re honestly fucking pretty damn amazing
a lots changed but i’ve always said the same things
“its not fate” i tell myself, then it kills me
you honestly will never know how much youve helped me :( 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please

canada (nevermadeithome x jolst)

think about it (prod. Eric Godlow)

Prod. Michael Harrison 
Sorry I’m so experimental
Lyrics~

I’m so unspoken 
It’s all so hopeless 
This pen and pad the only way I’m copin 
Is it the tree that I drag  or the asthma that got me chokin 
No don’t come in please I’m ok  I’m just smokin 
But I haven’t seen you in weeks 
Talk back to my door as it speaks
Just checking in, can you breathe 
Answer me now and I’ll leave 

I been tryina write these tracks 
About what I feel but they trash 
Then do it again and again till I crash 
knew the caffeine wouldn’t last 
What a drag 
As I waste all the traits that I got from my mom and my dad 
I know this time it’s my bad 
I’m Haunted by all the ghosts from my past 

It’s crazy cause you’re like a poltergeist stuck in the shell of a man that you used to be 
Fuck you I hate you get out of that room shits getting old just give up on your dreams 
The puppeteers back at my door I can feel all his malice intent as he tries to tell what to think 
Like shit let me breath, quit pulling my strings

feed me to the noise

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

lyrics ⬇️ 


i like your lips my love but you dont talk
wont work at all i know im far from you
but please dont insult me
id rather you ghost me as you do
and its a shame that i cant trust a single thing you say

a dusty brain i can’t explain all of the stuff that i went thru
dropped from a crane
cant word this pain but i promise you its nothin new 
want me to blink
wake up to drink
i slowly sink i see its true
no saving grace thats all i’ll say
i cant escape when you dont prove
I know ill lose
theres no excuse 
cuz i cant shake this grave today

say it to my face
or ill be in your way for awhile girl
you dont want that for sure
yea you dont text back for hours at a time
lowkey it massacres my heart when you say that but never why

never wanna know how i feel i keep it in the back of my mind
runnin out cuz i know know that you think i wouldn’t see
but you don’t got a clue cuz you dont know me
Know i wish you could
i had all the time in the world

Dont cover your eyes
i wanna see them in the light
just once jus once
just one “more” time
i never expected you to feel like i was always what you want
know i never was know i never was
well i wish that you could see what i saw

as you do (everest)

Späzż

I DON’T FOLD

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

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