what would u know abt being retarded
i throw my brain straight into the garbage
because im sofucking bad at social interactions
because i have such a strong passion for star wars
and also ww2 and ancestry and history 
and all these other things that normal people dont obsess over
i guess its just over
i guess its just over

im a fucking retarded loser i have no friends
i spend everyday inside on my computer i wanna die
the only girl that gave me valentines every year was my mom
i got bullied viciously i live in misery

oh my god i hate my fucking life dude

im anxious as fuck and im depressed as fuck and im suicidal
and i have been for a while
but its hard to wake up every morning and pretend its alright
but at least i have my favorite video game fortnite

why is my life harder because im autistic

won't make song about a girl unless it's a disstrack
how tf you have gf it's just pixels
but yea i been there too i done my mistakes
but i learned from them
now im back to spit hate

idc about u i forgave all of u
living in the moment that's what I do
making music cuz its fun and i like it
in my crib just playing games yea im vibing

if you're my type come suck me in my honda
then we can drive around the town im nicki lauda
don't think u can stay with me bitch go sleep outside
misogyny groyper is my nick in the group chat

HOOK
won't make song about a girl unless it's a disstrack
all the time wasted on egirls I can't get back
had to fall hard on my face to realize that
im better off alone i know but at least im not stressed

now i do what i want
i say what i want
i will never conform
true punk you wouldn't know

suck me off get off my face
don't need u yeah my life is great
true antisocial motherfucker
never felt touch but idc

little ###### im your dad
so just sit down on your ass
yeah i said it idc
and watch me say it again

HOOK
won't make song about a girl unless it's a disstrack
all the time wasted on egirls I can't get back
had to fall hard on my face to realize that
im better off alone i know but at least im not stressed

give me back my fucking songs
give me back my fucking time
give me back all the times when i was there for u when no one else was

give me back my fucking energy i wasted on our chats
u rly make me sick
and im never ever coming back

Im Better Off Alone (Family Friendly Version)

if birds were real cover shoutout to this guy, his music is rlly cool
https://soundcloud.com/ifbirdswerereal

lyrics:
i think i'd rather die
than have to put up with you
i see your stupid fucking face
in everything that i do
so if you wanna die
i want you to too
i hope you take your fucking life
cause it's the least you could do

and when you fucking die
yeah i'll be laughin at you
that's what you get for all the
stupid shit you put me through
and at your funeral
i'll have them play this song too
and make sure every fucking soul
knows it's about you

id rather kms (cover)

lyrics:
(sillyemo124)
this is a song abt a girl i want to notice me
notice notice me
notice notice me
im not a loser
shes just more cuter
i wish i knew her
i cannot fumble her

nanananana 

notice me notice me
come my way baby
i see ur posts daily	
maybe i should call you

we could be together
live our lives forever
take my hand whenever
ill be with you wherever 

this is a song abt a girl i want to notice me
notice notice me
notice notice me
im not a loser
shes just more cuter
i wish i knew her
i cannot fumble her

nanananana 

(bloodsekai)
do you like me like i like u
i just want u cuz ur so cute
call me fool cuz i'd die for u
see u crying in the back ima cry with u
this is a song for a girl
i want to notice me
notice me
notice me
i want her to notice me 😦
attention, affection
i just want it all
i just want it all
i just want it all

(sillyemo124)
i just want it all (4x)
i just want her
and i need her
i want her to notice me

notice me w/ bloodsekai

waking up and getting blocked 
why does my life have to suck
my body hurts 
my arms r bruised 
fuck this shit im super cursed
u hear those screams 
theyre full of pain
i wish she wasnt just a dream
in my sleep i can escape
in my sleep ill catch a break

	
when will it be my turn
i was doomed from the start
maybe i should stab my heart (2x)


ive fallen victim to myself
at this point i should kms 
the time has come
and i feel dumb
im thinking what have i become
numbness all over me
i just wanna feel something
picking at my scars 
so ill bleed until i see stars 

when will it be my turn
i was doomed from the start
maybe i should stab my heart
maybe i should stab my heart

doomed from the start

decided to make an alt for demos and songs ill never finish hi whatsup 
lyrics: 
jenny is the girl that i wanna meet
her shiny blonde hair is so pretty
i wanna be hers and hers only
but no matter what i do, she hasnt seen me
shes cool, smart, athletic, and super friendly
i know im the only one that she needs
with her looks she can make a pretty penny
with those eyes she can stare right into me










jenny come home

(everything prod by me)
ive had this song in my drafts for a reaaallly long time and i was finally able to get it done and im rlly happy with how it turned outt :> im probs gonna make more stuff like this in da future 

lyrics:
think im losing my mind
cuz i was so blind
lovers intertwined 
we were meant to bind 

ill kiss between your scars
and hold you in my arms 
so i can never forget you
stay right beside you
maybe this worlds not so gray
and i will live another day 
holding you close to me
cuz darling youre all i need  

take a piece of my aching heart
and keep it locked 
throw the key in a wishing well 
and let my love forever dwell
can you hear my silent cries
i dont know why i even try
is it so hard to feel something?
or maybe i just meant nothing 

defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)

the angels in the sky
will pick us up and help us fly 
by our sheer destiny 
our love is heavenly 	
ive been living in a dream
but i dont wanna wake up
no i dont wanna wake up
no i dont wanna wake up

take a piece of my aching heart
and keep it locked 
throw the key in a wishing well 
and let my love forever dwell
can you hear my silent cries
i dont know why i even try
is it so hard to feel something?
or maybe i just meant nothing

and so our love prospers

GIRLS GTFO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I fucking hate the lyrics to this song)

Every smile that you fake makes me cry
Ran out of tears to try
Said goodbye but you're still on my mind
Every thought pulls me back to that time 

Oh, you know, you know, all I do is just for you
Oh I know, I know, everything is fucking screwed
Stay still, don't move 
Close your eyes we'll have a good time
 Good time
Just let it fly by

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

What's the time?
I'm waiting for your reply
It's so dark out
I can't even see the lights 
What's all this fuss about
Why are you like this now
Please can you cut this out
Why are you like this now

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time


time?

found peace in the fight

prod. taymxru

(can you lend me that my babe?)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
Its not gonna feel the same.
Everytime you.

I'll still probably miss your name.
Even though we played 
the love, hate game.
And your face is so hard to forget.
I don't think anyone could ever replace.
This one is not for myself.
It's for the helpless cries that's lost in this song.
And there some things I'll never forget,
But they'll sit there even though that you're gone.
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
It's not gonna feel the same. 
Everytime you.

(Huh)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.

7-4-3-7-4-6-6-3

gone

professional musician frfr
listen to my spotify plz thanks