choices not excuses

prod: @jolst @irby314
master: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk

i wish that i wasn't wrong


i wish i never called back 
you said
you couldn't tell me that you loved me 
no stress
i hope he treats you better 
than i ever did 
i always break when it ends 
wish you weren't more than a friend
cause i tried so hard
for this
i never thought you'd be gone 
cause i saw stars when we kissed
and it hurt for so long 
again
i never thought you'd be gone
i wish that i wasn't wrong

n i tried too hard 
i guess
i just wanna feel wanted 
and end up hurt in the end
n i should know by now 
that i'm not worth that text
if i was better then maybe 
i'll say it's love when it's sex
n you can fuck me up n i'll stay 
i've learned it's better that way 
i can convince myself that you care when i break
and when your eyes turn to grey 
and all the lies sound the same
i'll know you're leaving for certain 
i've learned the signs of my burden

n i'll ignore it 
like windows down when it's pouring 
i must like hurting myself,
i always know where it's going
n i don't know why i do that 
i wanted love, 
i can say that

i wish that i wasn't wrong this time 
i wish you would've been here 
i wish that i could tell you
i quit smoking cigarettes 
i got stuck on the sentiment 
couldn't look at our necklace 
and i cried getting rid of it
i heard that song
i played it all
wanted to tell you it hurt 
when you missed those calls 
took that trip back home
wanted to see my mom 
n it's been cold in los angeles 
wish we made it to fall
i still give you the benefit 
n honest i'm sick of it
you're not the person that i knew 
i don't know what you did with them
cause you got cold 
n time moved slow 
you left in july 
but i swear there was snow

i wish i never called back (prod. jolst & irby)

Produced by Pekarot
Fanlink: fanlink.to/lovelessgroup

Lyrics:
@sendflowrs
What is wrong with me?
I don’t wanna tell you
Runnin' through the streets
3am off the molly 
And I think you should leave
Get out my hotel room
Lookin at photos from last year 
Swear that’s not me
I'm struggling to breathe
Swing like Tony Bellew
She's sweet like the honey
Goes in your coffee 
And I'm falling to my knees
Ask me and I'll tell you 
When I get too drunk
Yeah, my words get sloppy

@kerrley
Words get sloppy when I talk
It's 3am, and I've had enough
I'm fucked
It's all that I know
I missed your calls
It leaves a sore throat
I'm tryna hold it together
Just to see it through
'Cause these chords that'll sever
Cuts me in two
With the weigh of the pressure
It leaves us dark blue
No, I never talk right since I've met you

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@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup

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sendflowrs & Keeper: 3am (pekarot)

track 1 
produced by: @remghost & @riphomesick

and i’m lost in the fog
i think i need a way out
popped another 30 think i need a lie down
she’s a 
princess got my blood on her crown 
many men she changed
but it’s my turn now 
so i
text her 
say “baby come round, 
we can drive all night,
we can see the sundown” 
and ur 
a ghost girl
u jus need a white gown
and i’m a cliche, u so perfect, how? 

n ur talking to me
but what are u saying? 
it’s nothing to me 
and she jus be prayin 
i die in my sleep
she so she can likes and just be done with me 
no sympathy 
and she laughs when she weeps
shawty so crazy 
but pretty to me 
romance? oh god that’s so silly to me
i hope u choke on those souls that u keep
under lock and key

i don’t wanna be free
she pulls the strings 
she controls when i breathe 
she holds the knife 
she controls when i bleed 
lost in the fog 
and i’m never gon leave
never gon leave 

and i’m lost in the fog
i think i need a way out
popped another 30 think i need a lie down
she’s a 
princess got my blood on her crown 
many men she changed
but it’s my turn now 
so i
text her 
say “baby come round, 
we can drive all night,
we can see the sundown” 
and ur 
a ghost girl
u jus need a white gown
and i’m a cliche, u so perfect, how?

lost in the fog (homesick x remghost)

Produced by BĀ$$MØB, Keys Cobain, Teflon Sega

I Think Of You

lyrics - 
damage to my brain got me turning 
wouldn’t speak a word unless u wanted
is it me or am i going down a spiral
everyday i’m waking up with more problems
i feel alright for the moment 
don’t get too used to who i am in person 
cos the way i lose control is too concerning 
and you wouldn’t like me anyway im certain 

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

don’t wanna talk
don’t wanna stay here anyway
god it’s all too much to keep up day to day 
is it right to think that i’d be better off
jumping to my senses knowing all along
nothing mattered there was nothing at the golden arch
infatuated with the thought of never giving up
what’s the point when everybody does the fuckin same? 
what’s the point of even feeling fuckin anything?

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no 
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

damage

lyrics - 
oh i always find my hand on the trigger when i'm wanting u
i got a funny feeling that i'll see u soon
devil in disguise oh u know i can see right through
and i hope that u want to

take me for a ride
rip apart every inch of me
oh love, we live a life of pure make believe
i wish you'd come and take control
you can take everything u need from me
from me, yeah

devil on ur way down
love
love on your way down
love
x2

never wanna lie for mistakes
never wanna die where i lay
i never wanna show i'm afraid
i just never learned to cry through the pain, oh
god it's been a rough day
and i hope u hold back
i ain't got enough strength
you wanna take us off track
but it's hard when u fall apart
i just don't know where to start
i ain't giving up 
i'm the devil babe

devil babe
come to terms with the devil babe
devil babe
devil on ur way down
come to terms with the devil love
love on ur way down
love

devil

prod. sinxi

lyrics -

i'm wasting my time
i can't wait
to ride the high then fade away
'cos nothing ever changed
and it never even phased me

i know i made mistakes
but i never walked away
getting sick of you lately
i promise i don't need you to save me

oh no, wait

said i never cared but
i never understood what you wanted
i don't know why i came here
'cos i know you'd be better off without me engulfed in flames
hard to live with the heartache
telling me to use my words, this ain't the breeze you said it was
i don't know what to say here
'cos nothing makes it better and nothing will ever fix it

favored hardly
but you're the sweetest thing to me
are you okay now?
hope i don't overstep myself
i'm lost again
inside those pretty eyes
you just cant stay here
trust me that's okay

said i never cared but
i never understood what you wanted
i don't know why i came here
'cos i know you'd be better off without me engulfed in flames
hard to live with the heartache
telling me to use my words, this ain't the breeze you said it was
i don't know what to say here
'cos nothing makes it better and nothing will ever fix it

heartache

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lyrics -
i'm so done with love
i never instigated but you still called me an asshole
i didn't want a lot
but how much did it mean to you?

i don't understand you
you couldn't give me much back
it's a little complicated
but i think i'll be alright because
i
let myself be loved a little more today
i 
went and learned a way to never care for this

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this feeling at all

i used to get lost in our memory
but nostalgia's always sweeter than reality
now that i'm moving on she wanna message me
asking me what's up like what i'm on
i told her i've been
focused on myself for a minute now
opposition's livid when they see the way i'm living now
i've been out the way
no time to waste
lotta words to say
shawty know i don't play

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this feeling at all

complicated (feat. demxntia)

you can go and lie love 
tell me you mean it 
im going round in circles glued to the ceiling 
cus every time you talk to me i feel so diminished 
my heart starts beating i cant breathe for a minute 
i cant speak for a minute 

feel so close to you I
can feel the warmth to your side
im breaking down all the time 
my worlds been frozen in ice 
ur sending chills down my spine 
im finding somewhere to hide
 
say you been so lost 
well baby open it up 
can't relate what you've done 
oh baby i've had enough
im always afraid 
you've taken all that i was
baby please let me run 
im dissolving to dust 

i've been down sleep bet you didn’t notice 
bitch i’ve gone deaf i can barely hear ur shit 
u need to shower, the smell is potent 
balls so big bitch they're floating 
oh god its a shame i
had to see u fumble two guys in the same night 
oh god its a shame i 
went and curved your message at the same time 

don’t you feel stupid cus you look dumb 
whoring  for attention, no one wanted to cum
theres no self worth now the feelings gone 
done it to yourself at least you having some fun 

is this all im worth
i thought i made you mine 
i want mind, 
i wont lie

you could do so much better than me 
oh i 
spend so much time by myself inside
maybe you’ll find me hibernating 
deep in the forest unusual cadence

me

deaf

blame

Tu prod. DefWish

Under my skin

Recorded/Engineered/Produced in my bedroom.

Available everywhere March 1st x

~ Guilty

~ Down

Original Song "Serenity" Written and Produced by Days To Waste
 
Lyrics:
And it seems like I can't hide
Shut my lips and close my eyes
See the world in black and white
Except for you
Hold you close and hold me tight
Runaway, cuz I can't hide
See your face I'm going blind
There's only you

Left my body in your bedroom like a ghost
Haunt my nightmares, fuel my dreams
And let me go

But, I can't drown out the memories, the melody inside
I'm looking back on serenity, it's killin' me
So won't you come thru
Cuz I need you
But I can't walk away, I'm binded
To the wall, forget it all
And maybe I'll be fine

Losing track and losing hope
See my body sinking slow
Feel the ground beneath my feet
Pull me below

One track mind
Miss you so much
Feel my heart
Numb to the touch
Serotonin come in clutch
But I'm so blue

But, I can't drown out the memories, the melody inside
I'm looking back on serenity, it's killin' me
So won't you come thru
Cuz I need you
But I can't walk away, I'm binded
To the wall, forget it all
And maybe I'll be fine

Serenity

'Sin-Shi'

Mixing/Mastering - prodbysinxi@gmail.com
Features/Enquiries - sinxi.mgmt@gmail.com

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@suteracollective

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

devil

sinxi

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