I thought it's what

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

prod fats'e
w/
@heylog  &
@lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

heylog:
ur across the states, i wish it wasn't the truth
it's either them or me, now ur gone.. you had to choose
so i gave you a piece of art i took time and drew
u can keep it forever, i hope it stays with u
you've got so much ahead of u and goals to accomplish
while i make a song saying "log u need to top this"
but god i'm tired and the struggle is real
i died and came back to life, now i can't feel

fats'e:
life goes on
can't say i didn't try
just not hard enough
found a new timeline
just tossed to the side
died and came back to life

we both come undone
feeling stuck in a loop
that i can't seem to outrun
feeling stuck in a loop can't escape

skele:
n god i’d love to talk 
but look just not right now 
got some shit to say 
i jus don’t know how 
i spent like every night alone jus fucking dreaming of you 
n love i know your hurting 
it kills me too 

n tell me why 
it always gets so hard 
getting out of bed 
feels like i’m heading to war 
n if i saw the reaper know he’d take me for sure
breaking down alone 
i put my head to the door 

i don’t get it 
i thought i was better 
u said it 
so why can’t i remember 
i’m sick of living like this 
i hate the medicine 
im sick of crying like this 
it never fucking ends 

n at this point think i’ve died twice 
really good at fucking up my life 
n i don’t care if you love me
i just need you to lie 
life goes on, i just don’t wanna try 
i got used to all the pain inside

died and came back to life (w/ heylog & skele)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

From The Can

Listen

Dreamzz 2 Ft. John X Smith

keeping up with the joneses

lyrics

tried to save you, sorry
couldn't get there fast enough
safer to give up than hurt yourself
it's safer just to burn out

i know you've been lonely
why'd you think i helped you out?
i know you ain't honest
fucking off with someone else

tell me why i'd care?
you look a little helpless, phone glued to your hand
i don't wanna call
seemed hard to tell, think you see me as an eyesore
don't know what to call it
pressure in my chest when you told me you don't want me
it's getting hard to talk
so i think that i'll just call it and make my way home

i hate the way you're shouting down the phone, love
i fucking hate the way you talk to me in person
i was never so intent on feeling worthless
leaving all my cuts along the surface

blood froze
kinda feel like i deserve it
i'm lost
how the fuck could i trust this
you never cared if were really being honest
cant lie you should really stop talking

tell me why i'd care?
you look a little helpless, phone glued to your hand
i don't wanna call
seemed hard to tell, think you see me as an eyesore
don't know what to call it
pressure in my chest when you told me you don't want me
it's getting hard to talk
so i think that i'll just call it and make my way home

lonely (feat. hiraeth)

prod by me :) <3

lyrics -
ur telling me to hold on
i don't really think u see the best in me
'cos i know
if u really want it you'd make it work
oh i can see the end of us
can't believe that the wall was breached
god i don't wanna go
but you've been pushing me out for a while now
oh no

i hide my face when she laughing at it
cant lie, i dont care, cause shes going nowhere
told ur boy if he wanna back it, come out on the street but hes going somewhere
she getting cold now
pulled out, undercover when she come round
whole streets on the floor, what she know now
tears ready on the floor when she go out

breaking loads of bottles again
got a problem when you talk on ya friends
you want to tell me how she loves me
take you to dance
say you want to trust me I can’t relax
taking all you pour out
i don’t want the door down
7 milli foreign with the Roley got me iced out
in my dreams you know I’m having it
i can barely breathe when all these problems keep on happening

my nose red, blood is pouring out fast
i sit down, think i need to relax
she start her month say, "let's go to the bath"
she look at me when i cause her to gag
after i'm done i gotta leave ur house
cus i don't got time for any cuddles now
a kiss goodbye but she pulls me down
she told me she wanna go another round

couldn’t get enough, ignore the other side
I’ll tell it from the front
you speak about love, that’s never been us
these doors stayed shut
keep your facade
laid out-
knowing it was dormant
a few years and I’m back to this torment
is it really that important?
you know it better than me
you couldn’t let it at peace
this whole story was about me
I’ve got you right on your knees
the only thing that I need
is to make you forget at least…

the end of us (feat. hiraeth, erxn, heylog & xona)

~2300~

@lilskeleskrrt @slmnmore

Lyrics:

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[skele]
i always do this every month should prolly heal up
i think you need me too much
i think i want you no love
painting the wall red maroon
dreams of the champagne
“i do”
know my heart bled
leave you
it’s so hard to see you
i need you here tonight
put the nine up to my skull
i wanna feel alive
hold me until i’m close
i’m saying why do you keep me around 
i always weigh you down
it’s not the way that i want
to make you feel stuck
baby i won’t make a sound 
need you to cover my mouth 
put my head to the gun
and let the steel touch
this is so fucked
you used to love me so much

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs 
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[VITO]
Watch ‘em labor away
They’re digging the grave i’ll lay in 
Counting the days i’ve been
Just wasting away
Unfazed by your influence
You saw what it coulda been
But i’m drained out i’ve been hollow since 
Not a lot of those options left
Can you deal with the consequence?
I’ve never been good at this
Nine lives I ain’t got one left
You threw all your caution west
Still breaking your promises

borderline w/ skele & slmnMORE

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

Wrong One

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

bound

Wrong Ft. Valious (2022)

5he Loves Me Not

Dropping a track every 2 weeks all 2020, hold me to it.

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Artwork: Elliott Muscat

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