NO FACE (w/ idkconundrum)

im alright (+capsized)

its been awhile, hope ur doing well <3
thx for showing up n hope u like it

lyrics
and i know that i had 
to let u live ur life
even tho that kills me inside
now u found someone else
i heard ur happy oh well
thats what matters the most to me
thats what matters
and its been so damn long
but still i think about the late nights
i had u here with me
now it hurts so much to exist
so i stay inside
i stay inside alone
alone alone
2x

at some point i had to let go (prod. radxz)

Love 
Tell me what is love
And just what I it does 
Its like a drug 
And I can’t get enough
Im looking for a plug 
Im feeling numb 
Got me feeling numb 
Running towards the sun 
It looks like blood 
And all this syrup in my cup 
Begins to gush
Love 
Tell me what is love
And just what I it does 
Its like a drug 
And I can’t get enough
Im looking for a plug 
Im feeling numb 
Got me feeling numb 
Running towards the sun 
It looks like blood 
And all this syrup in my cup 
Begins to gush 


I been on a bender 
Yeah I’m feeling fried 
No I’m not a quitter 
Yeah at least I tried
I need a little stimulus 
To get me by  
Im coping with emotions 
Hide it all inside   
This coping got me nauseous 
Pilot in the cockpit 
Nosedive into nothing 
Till Im talking to my conscience 
Running off adrenaline 
I’m looking for a sign of
Light that’s stuck inside us    
Take the gas and then ignite it
Blow 
Yeah you I’m know finna blow
I got holes inside my nose
I got holes inside my heart
What’s stopping it all from falling apart  

Love 
Tell me what is love
And just what I it does 
Its like a drug 
And I can’t get enough
Im looking for a plug 
Im feeling numb 
Got me feeling numb 
Running towards the sun 
It looks like blood 
And all this syrup in my cup 
Begins to gush
Love 
Tell me what is love
And just what I it does 
Its like a drug 
And I can’t get enough
Im looking for a plug 
Im feeling numb 
Got me feeling numb 
Running towards the sun 
It looks like blood 
And all this syrup in my cup 
Begins to gush

thugs dont know what love is *guala beatz + noahmadethiss*

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

lyrics:

she thinking i’m dumb girl i promise i see thru the ruse
i been on the hunt run for cover i been in a mood
hotter than the sun stack a ton still ain’t shit to lose
don’t stop till it’s done spin the block like a centrifuge

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

i’m going all in i think it’s time we raise the stakes
leave em in the dust if they can’t keep up with the pace
don’t turn ur back n act surprised when i don’t chase 
it’s probably best for both of us to u run away

all u do is ride dick i’m getting chafed 
sewage for a brain im- i’m such a waste
when the lights are off all that matters is her shape
been feeling unbalanced i’m beginning to decay

she tell me she think i’m the one i know there’s been a few
the time will come i just fill space like i’m an interlude
using me for treatment baby i’m not clinical
i can see the nucleus the mass is close to critical

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

please be patient with me i’m used to being harmed
once the inners frozen there’s more pain in being  warmed
it’s hideous beneath this skin covered in ink and scars
split ceramic one more blow and imma fall apart

walking a thousand miles anything to see ur face
another body in the pile i just sealed my fate
stuck at the bottom for a while i think imma stay
i feel at home under the force of this crushing weight

critical mass // on the brink (scottysplash)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised (michael harrison)

Comin with the kick a motherfucker in the face while youre out tryna save the day shit
The astro mega solar quantum hydrostatic supernova omega shit
Keep a few flows
Got no hoes
just kick it at home
Stay on the low
tryna grow from my past
while smokin on gas
In my moms old Cadillac
On my Luda
You dont know me like that
Saba tucked on my right
Two steps back
Predict all your moves
Im a wallhack
Grass stays cut
Miss me with the chit chat
Switched up so quick
Yeah im big mad
it takes all sorts to make a world
Its not just about the sadness, pain, or hurt
Im just finding my way through the words

I might reach for the sky but inside im an urchin
Why you still lurkin?
Said what you said
So lay in the bed
Just be sure to not make a mess
Live in regret and my stress
And I say that shit with my chest
Miss who I was right before this
Jumping ship. Andy Lawrence
Why do I break everything that I touch?
My whole worlds turned to dust
What used to be used as release is now causing the problem. I need it to stop.
I only process my thoughts in the night rollin through my hometown off of something
Tend to say sorry too much so the sentiments way past redundant

why does the music
always gotta follow the misery?
last chance at affording high fashion
in a brand new whip but i crashed it
man i miss when i wish that i had this
i want to forget the day i made sometimes
maybe stop being a hostage to the long nights
maybe we can go for a night drive
Maybe then you’ll tell me we’ll be alright
i swear the music feels like free therapy the way I be talking
To the window, then to the Walmart, then baby we hittin the target
Pull up on any show best believe I be goin the hardest
I do this shit for the things in my life in which I know I’ll never accomplish
Still on a countdown to self destruction
Eyes stay closed and im lost in the function
Anxiety got everybody like
“Ay skrwd why you sweating so hard? is you rollin or sumn?”
Man I just wanna go back home
Drown out the silence, glued to my phone
Ive become a slave to these four walls
While finding solace in being alone
Swervin the whip like a ship
Takin a sip of my Judi juice
We might dap but I dont fuck with you
Lifes a game
Every time I lose
Just spent a rack on designer shoes
Stayin on top of the p’s and q’s
Got too much to say, you sound like a fan
You aint Lindsay Lohan bitch, get a clue

c2d (prod. soloft)

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light
coz i dont know how to feel no
i dont know myself at all
everyone knows me better than myself

put a smile on my face
to give the facade you need
take off the mask to feel so free
i can be me around you
i can be me around you
i dont have to be fake for you to see
do you see me

i tell her i scared
she said what about 
im scared of losing you
and im lose myself in doubt
and i dont know what to do with myself
im lost in my head im wandering about
i refuse to get out coz i feel safe here
maybe it'd be better without me
i just know its heaven what i see 
maybe it'd be better without me
i just know its heaven what i see 

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light
coz i dont know how to feel no
i dont know myself at all
everyone knows me better than myself

what am i doing with my life?

VERZUS Ft Stich

featuring: @noah2kay
beat by: @resonancesoul

c2d (prod. soloft)

skrwd

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