Thank the upload gods for gifting me this

i went trough my 2000 song playlist song by song to find this song cus i didn't remember the title and who it was from

Rest in peace sleepy. Gone too soon. You were an inspiration.

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

SPOTIFY

heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

we're all trapped in hell
cant contain it no more
im up in decibals
explaining alot, shut up u act like fool
i hate you i really i do
i go up in decibals
oh wait heres a pause i know
study my flaws you whore
i guess im sad bitch
that doesent mean im emo
i fell in love with you
thats not a thing anymore
you catch me chilling
i go up in decibels

GUESS IM PUTTING ALL INTO MY SONGS SO U LISTEN
TANKING BULLET HOLES EVERYDAY INSIDE MY PRISON
WHEN SHE LEFT SHE SAID AM I GONNA KMS 
THINK THAT I MIGHT END IT

baby dont go
happy at home
she thinks im happy she dont know
i would kill you gladly she turn ghost
i fucking need you badly you dont know
berry in my medly with bloodflow
try your best forget me i wont go
im someone who you envy, i switch flows
im fresher than some dead, ill grab a rose
im sitting in the backseat, when she awoke

I DONT WANNA USE YOU JUST DO IT YOURSELF
YOU CAN DRAG ME DOWN TOO BUT ILL FIND MY WAY OUT
i pump inside her mouth
travels down her throat
BABY DONT MAKE A SOUND
bitch she like grope
i bend her snap her spine
ill put you in a choke
ILL FUCK YOU IN THE PINE

everystep i take
doesent seem to stop my aches
twist it round and pull her face
do it now remove all grace
turn it down your ears might break
IVE GONE UP IN DECIBELS

decibel

produced by caves

it all goes wrong when your with me
you know that, your in two d
you know that, i love you babe, i love you more

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

so selfish what i built for you now
do i exist without my pals
ill bandage ill wear it round
have it we're married in hell

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

IT ALL WRAPS ROUND MY..
SHE CANT CALM DOWN
MY..
IT ALL ENDS, ENDS NOW
CANT HELP IT IM A TREE IN THE GROUND

it all went wrong you know that

married in hell

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

produced by sleepwater melonmusik & leftquiet

lyrics:
i dont wanna listen to this
i would rather you didnt exist
ill pray after you
ill die before you
its my time to live
but ill end up WASTING IT
its my life you ditched
ill disappear into THIN AIR 
oh where she gone have you seen her 
is she on the way home, swear ive been there 
id kill myself just to HOLD YOU ONE LAST TIME

im scared no where to go
seven times ive checked my phone
if you cared i wouldent be alone
addicted to the cracks on my phone

(gasp)

IF I LIE TO U ITS CAUSE I HATE MYSELF
ILL SAY GOODBYE SOON GUESS IM HEADING OUT
I WOULD KILL MYSELF JUST TO HOLD YOU ONE LAST TIME
WAS I RIGHT FOR YOU CAUSE I COULDENT TELL
MY ROOM A ZOO TYCOON IT NEEDS SOME CLEANING OUT
I WOULD FIX MYSELF FOR YOU TO BE MINE

stay between mortar
it all
flashes in my eyes
im now ready this time

#colne #sleepwater

colne

produced by @hiraethsry & @sinxi

lyrics:

questioning on why im alive
i feel my heart i feel a fright
im running from it always running
always tend to forget how im learning
stuff my face full of it now im grounded
in a room full of steam i feel crowded
finding comfort in the seam of my jacket
pull it closer hair between so i can have it
will i ever your meaning on the surface
maybe wipe the screen and just learn there
no ones ever there till your gone
no ones gonna feel the rip into ur arm

im going through fields
scared that i might break my seal
life mate is getting too real
feel like i live in a film
what if we live in a film
i swear its written out
what if i love just to die
i dont have my questions right

i think to myself
i speak to my own
i sing for myself
she dont care at all
she wont pick up when i call
she wont show no love at all
she is tired of emotions
are you not tired of this

im going through fields
scared that i might break my seal
life mate is getting too real
feel like i live in a film
what if we live in a film
i swear its written out
what if i love just to die
i dont have my questions right

absent

produced by sleepwater 

lyrics:
i hate everyone except you
lovers leave is overdue
i let myself   accept you
everything was made for two
i need a girl with hair
down to her shoulders yeah
hurry dont hurl round here
well i  know its cold my dear
we'll never lose hope round here
dont ever give up

 oh yeah, hello, oh yeah, help

pushing my limits no one going to stop it
killing my ex promise you never saw it
bashing our heads against the floor and the faucet
bath tub full of blood limbs in the closet
savour her head tie it up in a forest
its friday tonight but not the thirteenth
take off my mask so you its real
BURY HER BODY AND LET EVERYONE SEE
butcher that witch and go in for the kill
fill up the cask until her blood spill
leave her in a ditch then im going to chill
move on to next she got eliminate

violent

produced by sleepwater @hiraethsry and @prod-oc

✰

lyrics:
how am i alive

lord its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore

i dont care about you
if you dont care about me
can someone care about me
its obvious i find it hard to breathe
your distant now and that makes me so sad
your different now and i werent ready for that
my eyes be crying, like the ocean
no birds are flying, it was only us

i want dreams with you
lets get on the stones
a day with us
is heaven on earth
i feel like more me
pacing through the sand
she stares back at us
says is this the way ?

under the sand
not ready to go
holding my hand
i need to make it special
feel like a strand
latched onto you
you broke my heart
you broke my heart

think im in love with you
its not fair anymore

what are about to do
cos i might burst
dont want this to end
its not fair
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair

https://www.instagram.com/p/CqZoY3PK0Pr/

star

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

heylog - vanish

Give Me A Reason
Written and Produced by Ace Green

Mental notes of your small crimes
(I wasn't ready for it)
Waiting for the right time to call you out so I can leave
(I needed a reason to be alone)

By myself, I can drink for two
What i would like is to be warm inside with you
But all these vices have a grip on me

(Wish I was better but)?
Scared of the things you'll see if I were to stay
I don't want to throw away the key
Cuz I have been here before 
And my heart and brain are always miles apart

Pushing you closer to my edge
(Pushing you closer to my edge)
(Pushing you closer to my edge)
So that  can leave
(and be alone)

I don't think we'd make it if you keep me here
It's best that I'm alone. 
(please move out the way, I've gotta go)

You're not meant to see this side of me
You haven't seen me lose control
please just let me leave

(I drink until the morning's come up
And try to keep you from me 
It gives me all the time to come up
Excuses and the lies I need to
Drink 'til there's no signs of life left
I don't wanna let you go
but I need a lifeline for the night)

I was gonna lie but now that you found me

When you are away
I pull the fifth hidden high up for me by the kitchen window

And I drink until there is no signs of life

So give me a lifeline for the night

Chorus

Give me a reason
To run away
Either way, I'm leaving
And since you know now, 
Don't leave me outside

Just needed a reason to
To hide all, hide all my demons
From you 

Just needed a reason
(to run, run, run)
Run before, the same things plague me
Driving me to insanity

I need me a reason to run
Just give me one more night

absent

sleepwater

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