softheart❤️

Softheart Full

Softheart Hits💎

this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Walking With Fire

mindless little conversations
i can see you hiding what youre thinking about 
im sick of you staring at me
like youre tryna figure something out 
i fucking hate grocery shopping
sometimes i cant tell if they wanna kill or fuck me
i left my keys at your apartment
and i think i forgot to pay for the parking
i feel so much its impossible
cant describe without sounding obnoxious 

but the world looks different from outside of the love
outside its rough
all scars and flaws
my heart shaped glasses they distract enough 
i saw the glow the light shines in dark 

they said someones gonna rip ur heart out if ur not careful
either if its someone else or it just gets dull
never cared that much about all of that pessimism
rather get the flood now then see how long the dam holds
lets go make ourselves whole
see how long we can hold
lets make something special 
keep it just for us two
i hate people so much
but i fuckin love u
because i just do

porcelain mask

Outside like the plants and trees
I'm outside with the steel in links
I'm outside walking by myself
Like there's nobody out for me
Looking in the endless foggy water finding things
Tossed the piece and parts into the cauldron and the steam
It doesn't eat in objects more-so small internal things
Most delicious parts of it are parts you cannot see

I stay up
It's such a late hour when i stay up
Until I hear the birds chirping and I get all depressed
Then I guilt myself about it
Then rush myself to bed
Think I missed you once again
And I heard the callin I just hope that I can find it
In the faint and silent signals of the universe
And i dont wanna act so ignorant and come off callous
So I ask for nothing in return

Outside like the plants and trees
I'm outside with the steel in links
I'm outside walking by myself
Like there's nobody out for me
Looking in the endless foggy water finding things
Tossed the piece and parts into the cauldron and the steam
It doesn't eat in objects more-so small internal things
Most delicious parts of it are parts you cannot see

Yeah, i tripped on myself oh jeez
I hope i know you when im 70
I just get scared when everythings ok
I don't mean to attention seek

it went over me and stuck to my heart like a curse

....
I sit still in the tall grass
I breathe in as much as I can hold inside my chest
I trust in the sun to beam and lungs to catch my breath
Sometimes it gets hard for me but I still try my best
I'm stuck in the yard right by the broken water fountain
I just saw somebody in the window of that house
I gathered my courage and walked in to check it out
I went to the master bedroom and I looked around
I saw the closet open slightly towards where I was standing
I think I hear someone inside it and it's very scary
I gather all these skeletons up like a cemetery
I swear I didn't wanna lie but it was necessary
I wake up from a bad dream and I go to start the day
I forget about what exactly, just that there was pain
I act like nothing even happened and I'm all okay
I see a new horrible image and I look away
I'm inside the woods way out 
I'm swinging my head, jack-o'-lantern around
October in this ******** town 
Got big leaves lit, I let the rest fall down
And the pines, only thing that survives
Once this winter arrives
And this cold season start up
... ur only sorta right
You make me mortified
And I don't wanna fight
And I'm still someone's daughter
.
.
Like some bands i count the spirits in this monster house
I ain't slowin down im on the highway to hell 
Fuck my opposition smile like I wish you well
I got information that I won't ever tell
I take up to 2 but any more would put me out
I won't face it now, in the morning put me down
Stuck all by myself-

Don't know how it happened, it's a force in this house
Don't know how I keep a forest in this mason jar
I'm so lucky that I told her meet me in the car
Could've turned out so bad, thank god
4 AM in Boston walking with this magic wand
It's cool, you'd think that i was totally cool
With thinking bout bad things 
I'm thinkin bout bad things 
Unwillingly

monster house - Copy

this is a repost of salemjournl and is not my work

pillow pit

pillow pit - SalemJournl

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heartache

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

nothing much

hide the tears

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

Nosedive 2

maniac

guitar & drums performed by Cisco
@waitingoncisco

destiny calls 
and then i open doors  
just dont press me at all
i run out on the porch 
and then out on the yard
im crushing leaves when i stomp
i get lost tell me 
who the imposter and
who swiped the card
only human interaction is 
through discord calls
and the creeks
in the floor
sound like your name in these halls
bang my head
on the wall 
oh how foolish i was
to believe 
anything
any opinion at all 

innocence 
on the kids face 
telling you its so hard to love you 
so hard to cry its like my eyes are all just shriveled up 
no thoughts, rivers ran dry 

and i cant go back to my decisions in the past
but for some reason that don't stop me from thinkin bout 'em
all the time

if theres somewhere i could be its 
you holding me in your arms 
i keep pushing on the feeling
while trying my best to hold on 

i can be dramatic
overload my senses 
I'm over my head
I'm just holding my breath in
theres somn bout the fresh snow
on the deck 
looks so nostalgic
i grab my blanket
and curl myself into a ball
my chest still drops when my phone goes off
as if you're still calling its so dumb, i 

try not to lose the magic
i just mess it up if i 
think too much about it
try my best to stop always thinkin bout bad shit
life's got both aspects its euphoric and tragic
i can't pretend as if one is more valid
i'll find the balance 
at least i hope, i hope, i hope

Okay777 (with waitingoncisco)

art by denevikart

lyrics:

hey hey
i been pullin through
why wassup w you?
im unteachable
seated in stone
carcass past i reap and sew
golden caps i took 3 o those
brand new pack i breath in slow
so much smoke i couldnt see thru the door
theres closure 
ill never find and shit i dont need to know
uuurg
i light up this cape on me and burn
i got so much weight on me it burst
pictures of those days hit me in blurs
man back in the days i was the worst
i still remeber when i heard about when 
there was a village on the top of the mountain
i almost fell to the cold when i found it 
but you if you saw it trust me its astounding 
there was a tale of heartbreak and denial when 
there once was someone that he let close around him 
he closed himself off from fear of letdowns  
and thus closed off love he would have found then
they just dont see it though
why he always seem so low
its insatiable 
no signal up here im unreachable 
its nothing you need to know
noone even knows me yeah thats me you know
damn i used to think you didnt love me enough
how much you hurt me shit i beleive you now  
im unteachable
seated in stone
carcassed past i reap and sew
golden caps i took 3 o those
brand new pack i breath in slow
so much smoke i couldnt see thru the door
theres closure 
ill never find and shit i dont need to know
give me something doc say it straight
give me somethin i can work with
act like i did it on purpose 
like its all purpose 
and its all just context
no its not all words said
we just all want purpose 
we just all want purpose
we just all want purpose
its a gift and a curse idk which side id put first
i know ill be searching
till im in my hearse 
sometimes i feel like life plays out like its all rehearsed 

(chorus)

Little stone statue (prod. LR beats)

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just happy to be here