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𝚂𝚊𝚍𝚐𝚊𝚗𝚐

"Gold" - Beat Produced By Yugiboi. Vocals By ℒund.

Lyrics

gold on my chain
all gold on my wrist
lean in my cup
while I’m rolling my spliff
she gone out her mind 
told me thanks for the lift
bend that ass down
curtains close as we kiss
x2

come thru with my whole crew 
getting fucked up kush blowing
sittin back while i count this cash 
my bank account stay growing
play a show fuck a bitch 
then its time for me to get going
ten blunts to the face bitch 
you know that i be zoning

I’m on that all gold everything
i got them bands i could make it rain
I’m on that all gold, all gold everything
i got them bands i could make it rain

gold on my chain
all gold on my wrist
lean in my cup
while I’m rolling my spliff
she gone out her mind 
told me thanks for the lift
bend that ass down
curtains close as we kiss

them curtains close as we kissing now 
all ice, all ice see me covered down
all gold everything

Gold [Prod. Yugiboi]

love you all

available on spotify, apple etc now here:
https://lontalius.lnk.to/surrender

spotify/apple/etc

sleep thru ur alarms

Sampled - Nick Leng - "inside your mind"
Beat & Vocals By ℒund
I luv u all, enjoy.

Lyrics

she looked in my eyes
said where does it hurt
buried alive she’s pulling my body 
straight from the dirt
am i still alive
is this what its worth
how could you ever feel love
if you’ve never been hurt
(x2)

baby its a late night 
blowing up my phone
don’t ask me where i came from
just tell me where to go
got that look in your eyes 
i just wanna take you home
dim the lights baby
drop it down low

I keep my eyes wide open
never fall, never fall
I keep my eyes wide open
never fall, never fall

all my life
I’ve been waiting for you
(waiting for you)
(x2)

whenever your next to me
girl its just ecstasy
you feel the energy
girl its our chemistry
lets make a memory
moving so steadily 
girl its my specialty
you feel so heavenly
this is our destiny
the perfect recipe
our secret remedy
lying here breathlessly
(x2)

chemistry 
you and me
all i want is you
next to me
hear you breath
hold your body
close to mine
take your time
when were making love
(cause we got)
(x2)

Chemistry

Cat"a*clasm\ N. A breaking asunder; a violent disruption.

Buy on iTunes: bit.ly/CataclasmiTunes
Watch the mini documentary: bit.ly/MakingOfCataclasm
Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Cataclasm

The Hunger in Your Haunt

Buy on iTunes

The Hunger In Your Haunt

Dying Ft Lil Peep (prod by LIL PUKE)

crybaby (prod. lederrick x lil peep)

My alarm sound makes me nauseous when I hear it, so I decided to turn it into something way nicer to wake up to. I documented it with snaps, and everyone was asking me to release it, so here ya go <3 

Watch it here: https://www.facebook.com/RunCryWolf/videos/1069075679840997/

Downloads enabled!

Follow my insta stories (I do this sort of thing all the time): RunCrywolf

Morning Song (free download)

@lilhappylilsad @imsoalone

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i go my own way will u still stay
if i ever have to go will u let me
switchin lanes, if i fall will u help me

you is always on my mind cant believe it
how i tried to make u mine and i reached it
and im still getting high cause i need it
on the surface i am fine, whats beneath it

am i dreaming, girl whats our reason
i try to find myself in here like girl whats my meaning
feel like im sleeping, get low from my feelings
get high to relieve it, i fly and im leaving

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i find my own lane will u still stay
im beaten down, and i cry i cant feel shit
then i look into ur eyes and i feel it

u remind me of the good times, u remind me how i used to feel
u get me ridin on some good vibes, u remind me how it used to be
u remind me of the good times shawty give me good vibes bitch is real
u put me in a good mind, shawty give me good highs and its all surreal

no name w/ solonely (prod. lilhappylilsad)

The first time I saw a real human skeleton I felt a very peculiar sadness and shock inside of myself. It wasn't a reaction to the bones themselves, but to what had once covered them; the strength, beauty, and complexity they had once supported. An entire world had once rested in that skull. How much love, pain, happiness and grief had that frame supported?

As an artist sometimes you write about presence, and other times, absence. You use lyrics and music to run your finger around the shape left by something lost. This EP is negative space. It's the frame supporting something that should be there, but simply isn't. A harsh reminder of what once was; of an unchangeable breach in the order of things. Biting, but necessary. 

This is my sackcloth and ashes. This is my 7 stages all wrapped up into one. I didn't want to put most of these songs out. They all feel excruciatingly vulnerable. However, I decided I'd rather end my life pinned down, splayed out on a dissecting table than be stored away in formaldehyde, buried with my secrets.

So here I am. Here's the knife. Be gentle with me, please.

Follow with the artwork: http://bit.ly/SkeletonsDigi

~~~~~~~~~
Additional vocals by Emalyn

Additional writing by Alex Phillips

Guitars by Death & Rebirth 

Flute by Josh True

Mastering by Matt Simmers

Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Skeletons

Lemniscate (The Place Between Sleeping and Awake)

Lemniscate [The Place Between Sleeping And Awake]

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Prod: @d_e_a_t_h
Sample from @man_huh
Art: @sleepyboyhomeless
_____________________________
LYRICS
[HOOK]
I got a problem
I don't even know if I can solve it 
Sleepin through the weekend 
Passing out unconscious 
Pop it then I'm off it 
On another planet 
Take me from reality coz 
I can barely stand it 

[VERSE]
Fire pits and ash trays, feelings of inadequacy 
Burn up all the furniture coz none of that shit mattered to me 
None of that shit matters in the end
When you're living in the moment you don't think about regret 

You don't think of consequences when your life's a fucking pity party. 
I could pick apart the fucking fact I had a shitty heart
Shitty start to life, a broken family with a shitty car
I guess you took my mind off all my problems

I would sit and talk, and turn the minutes into hours 
You'd just sit and smile at me like all we had was time 
I regret the fact I never understood the concept 
Wish I had your picture coz you're fading from my mind. 

Look at what this pain can do to us(x2)

[HOOK](x2)
I got a problem
I don't even know if I can solve it 
Sleepin through the weekend 
Passing out unconscious 
Pop it then I'm off it 
On another planet 
Take me from reality coz 
I can barely stand it

Look at what this pain can do to us

IN LOVING MEMORY

COPING MECHANISMS

coping mechanisms (Prod. lildeath)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

Clones ( prod. downtime )

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

i just hope this one does better than the last... if not, oh well i guess. 
100 plays and downloads are enabled.

thats all im gonna type this time i guess...

waiting on the heartbreak again (prod. ryan bevolo)

9.Napalm (Bonus)

teach me how to sleep
this life aint what it seem
taught me how to leave
now u taking all ur things...

Teach Me How To Sleep (Prod by y0se)

i recorded this with a fever

its 2 in the morning I’m racing down the block now
n I’m screaming out ur name hoping that u wanna come out
cuz i got two henny bottles 
and I’m riding in that benz truck
good white shawty and i do it for my lil bruv
and they won’t  understand this aint what we had planned
we don’t ever make plans
we jus fuck and hold hands

bitches on me but i do not pay attention
I’m staying late like u got me in detention
and there shit aint to do in this little hell
so won’t u make my night and get high as hell
with me 
with me
cuz i cant sleep
they don’t believe in me
but u do for some reason  

i swear that i just can’t hide it
but everytime i talk its silence
on ur carpet floors we get so violent
til ur legs get sore and u can’t stay silent 

and if my brothers need me then I’m sliding
diamonds wet feel like poseidon
and i don’t feel right when u not beside me
so if i  go seek then girl stop hiding  

cuz its 2 in the morning..

2am (Prod By Jayyeah)

ANKH

https://soundcloud.com/truettthehuman

Free Download

ETHER w/TRUETT ( prod. Dutchman )

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

ГОША РУБЧИНСКИЙ

МЕРТВЫЙ

produced by @hatefulbeats

lyrics:

baby look at what the time is
my phone is silent
faced the fucking blunt and now
im holding up my eyelids

too fragile
i view the world as violent
no relations
everyone tryna be a tyrant

still dressing
like youd think i have a stylist
blowing gas
but we never uppin milage

snow fall
and the world is fucking silent
no nonsense
when the uber drive in

sit next to me
you dont gotta fucking send texts to me
get next to me
if thats where u feel u supposed be

undress with me
show each other what we wanna see
get next to me
ill have you in ecstasy

press me on my snapchat
ion really need that 
flying through my emails
carpel tunnel from the mouse tap

off days i get the spins
i wouldnt mix that
bacardi kick back
gut the woods and rinse that

gold karrots in my nose had got me feeling bugs bunny
dropa truth bomb and they look at you funny
blow up like a bomb and they just ask bout the money
acting like ur mom but girl you not even honey

thinkin i owe u something
i dont owe no one nothing
texting for a week and then they think ur their husband

saying u in love but girl u dont even know me
keep on changing up youll be in love with the old

baby look at what the time is
my phone is silent
faced the fucking blunt and now
im holding up my eyelids

too fragile
i view the world as violent
no relations
everyone tryna be a tyrant

still dressing
like youd think i have a stylist
blowing gas
but we never uppin milage

snow fall
and the world is fucking silent
no nonsense
when the uber drive in

1am (prod. hateful)

this song is completely non profit

produced by @idealismus

lyrics:

blowing on pack
slept three hours flat
how the fuck that possible
that i cant go to bed

if im smoking more i swear i should be getting rest
its fuck up (for real it is shits crazy)

i dont think its the only thing i feel in my chest
got some old emotions buried deep inside my breathes
i can feel them burn me when i exhale my lungs
id confront them but i cant cause i forget where theyre from

hurt you
i dont mean to hurt you
but i dont treat sympathy as a virtue
im too involved in my own selfish mind
even though i forget who i am half the time

as i grow i tend to grow out of line
making time just so i can keep taking my time

no one really has the time to worry bout relationship
but everyone is doing it and no ones really saying it

tinder picking choosing
then delete it for a little bit
u know u like the ego boost
of people swiping right on it

but i do too
and im like you
i cry too
and friday night
im high like you
christmas break
im drunk like you
bad work day
slumped like you
im scared like you
not fair that you
shit on me when im 
just like you

i feel things too
i just make tunes and
the musics cool but
im just you

we are one of the same i know

im u (prod. idealism)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

FREE DOWNLOAD

i'm still just a kid and i'm trying my best

take it day by day.
wanted 2 make a song w/o a kick lol
special thank you to @deltasleep

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artwork by Nohidea

and then, it swallowed me [w. killedmyself] (feat. delta sleep)

thank you so much for 1K. yall mean the world to me, i hope you guys like this as much as we do :) 

it was a pleasure working w/ u homie. much love @4evrgone <3
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i always seem to end up 
in the same postion 
it feels like my actions 
go against my intentions 
and i can't stand the fact 
that i can't even remember 
the reasons to the words 
that i've said before 
and i can't seem to hide 
my pointless emotions 
it's not like it'll change 
as much as i'd want it to 
it cuts like a knife 
whenever we're talkin 
but it's torture 
whenever we're not 

so i'm damned if i do 
and i'm damned if i don't 

now the ghost of my decisions 
they won't let me rest at night 
i'm drowned by the feeling 
of nothing but regret 
and i know that i deserve this 
never ending cycle 
of torture when i see your eyes 

and the ghost of my decisions 
will always be haunting me 
at night when i'm alone 
i can't even comprehend 
what was going through my head 
when i said i couldn't love you 
now it's all that i wish i could do 
for you 

cuz it cuts a knife 
whenever we're talking 
but it's torture 
whenever we're not 

so i'm damned if i do 
and i'm damned if i don't 

now the ghost of my decisions 
they won't let me rest at night 
i'm drowned by the feeling 
of nothing but regret 
and i know that i deserve this 
never ending cycle 
of torture when i see your eyes 

and the ghost of my decisions 
will always be haunting me 
at night when i'm alone 
i can't even comprehend 
what was going through my head 
when i said i couldn't love you 
now it's all that i wish i could do 
for you

ghost of my decisions

buy/listen

demxntia & 4evr - ghost of my decisions

guitar by : @waitingoncisco

lyrics:

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

if i'm a star i'm burnt out and looking down
just cause she love me right now
don't mean she'll always be around
always stoned and in my house 
don't got nobody i can count on 
just stay tucked off by myself
oh i 
only get in my zone when i get on my own
all alone
she hit me up at all
and i shut off my phone
i go ghost
i swear she got those words you feel in your bones
who would have known
the prettiest face would have the ugliest soul

yeah but im a loverboy what'd you expect from me
i swear pretty girls will be the death of me
step to me i'm in the sky
baby i been hearing lies 
all my fucking life
so i always treat them nice
so when they fuck me over i don't even think twice
i just cut em off i don't even want a slice
imma leave her blocked
wish my heart weren't so soft 
wish you weren't my first fuck
all the shit is so dumb

now i just find safety in how 
these memories start all fading
put a knife inside my back
then ask why i'm so filled with hatred

anything but give you space and i'd rather erase myself
put the hurt of my back
chasing feeling's never helps

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you, 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

ghostboy. (with waitingoncisco)

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just happy to be here

ghostboy. (with waitingoncisco)

Softheart