everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even lie 
everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even-

walk straight 
be okay 
can't breathe
beat my cheast like an ape 
nobody cares about love nowadays
nobody wants to stay home feel safe
i've been locked in my room for days
can't leave cuz im sick n thats ok
but no1 called me to check on my pain
nobody called me to check on my brain 

breakdown, breakdown, breakdown again
i'm fucked up fucked up fucked up in the head 
i live like every1 else is dead 
i'm done, so done, fucking done with this mess

everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even-

so as long as im breathing
ill keep on walkin this path
with the souls who deceived me 
but gave me feet to feel the grass
always alone but still with company
spread only love but fight angrily
knowing who watches over me 
i'll always be safe, surely

evrybody's saying dumb shit (hero&emptychest)

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

Acoustic cover of the song: Panucci's Pizza - I Killed Arbor Day For You

I Killed Arbor Day For You acoustic cover

Panucci's Pizza - I Killed Arbor Day For You *acoustic cover*

9TAILS - flavour of the week

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my side of town (prod. vector_kid)

I Need To Sleep Better

odium

“produced” by me

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

and lately i’ve been worried that the only thing i love is slippin away from me,
don’t fall for me,
i try; i can’t fall asleep,
and i stress way too much these days i thought i was getting better
but in my heart i’ll be okay because i’ve firmed much stronger weather 
and i don’t feel any release when i write a song, i won’t lie
only time i feel okay, 
is when i’m holding on to a knife
and i wont ever put you down by running my mouth,
i’ll make sure that he regrets every sick word that he spouts 

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

release

When Life Gives You Lemons...

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just happy to be here

my side of town (prod. vector_kid)

Softheart