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Sad Summerzzz 24®

A Collection of Softheart Songs
Guest Starring: Truett, Participation Trophy, and SalemJournl [diary]

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Walking With Fire

I Have So Much Love Inside Of Me To Give

Sunray, the thunderstorm

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

produced by kassgocrazy
mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
vocals performed by sewerperson

COVERART BY @UNNANOUNCED ON INSTAGRAM

i want you to suffer (feat. sewerperson)

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

Wokeupscrmn (with notmorgn)

fffuck Y3aaah!!!

i was picking something off the vine 
working with what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret it
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling 
i been tryna chase this feeling
all this time and space that its stealing
my life its like if i let you inside 
know it meant the most that you were in it
i was picking something off the vine 
working what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret 
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling

Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

Nice list ... on the other side looking backwards

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

....
I sit still in the tall grass
I breathe in as much as I can hold inside my chest
I trust in the sun to beam and lungs to catch my breath
Sometimes it gets hard for me but I still try my best
I'm stuck in the yard right by the broken water fountain
I just saw somebody in the window of that house
I gathered my courage and walked in to check it out
I went to the master bedroom and I looked around
I saw the closet open slightly towards where I was standing
I think I hear someone inside it and it's very scary
I gather all these skeletons up like a cemetery
I swear I didn't wanna lie but it was necessary
I wake up from a bad dream and I go to start the day
I forget about what exactly, just that there was pain
I act like nothing even happened and I'm all okay
I see a new horrible image and I look away
I'm inside the woods way out 
I'm swinging my head, jack-o'-lantern around
October in this ******** town 
Got big leaves lit, I let the rest fall down
And the pines, only thing that survives
Once this winter arrives
And this cold season start up
... ur only sorta right
You make me mortified
And I don't wanna fight
And I'm still someone's daughter
.
.
Like some bands i count the spirits in this monster house
I ain't slowin down im on the highway to hell 
Fuck my opposition smile like I wish you well
I got information that I won't ever tell
I take up to 2 but any more would put me out
I won't face it now, in the morning put me down
Stuck all by myself-

Don't know how it happened, it's a force in this house
Don't know how I keep a forest in this mason jar
I'm so lucky that I told her meet me in the car
Could've turned out so bad, thank god
4 AM in Boston walking with this magic wand
It's cool, you'd think that i was totally cool
With thinking bout bad things 
I'm thinkin bout bad things 
Unwillingly

monster house - Copy

scary games with the lights off

Lyrics:

Its GX, motherfucker

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Shove it down your throat
Abandon every hope x2

Still i could never be one of you
Most of us never had an option to choose

Frustration 
Impatience 

Eviscerate the souls of the broken
Swallow your words and leave your thoughts unspoken

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
My heart is filled with so much hate for all of you 

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
I will never change
But i will never be like you

turmoil

Lyrics:

What a slap in the face
I’m wiping blood from an open wound
I haven’t slept in a day
I’m watching ghosts roam a vacant room

The trees are all dying
The angels are crying
Move closer
Move closer to me

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

An echo of hope
Extinguished by flames 
You worship my words
But they’re born from my pain

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

everything falls to the floor

maybe ill leave, take a trip out of state for a while

caving in (hurt for something)

guitar and drums done by noah walker @mr_innervue

Stranger.demo (2021 version)

all i see is trouble
i dont see the love 
yeah i dont need to know
yeah i dont need the truth
i just stay alone between these four corners
i just stay alone making beats in my room
and i cant get back those days spent 
dazed and chasing around with you
and i cant no i wont pretend
every single day i would waist it again
i would waist it again

sometimes i wanna die
but i dont like to think about that
cause of fear for it
and sometimes i cant recognize 
the face thats looking back
in the mirror x3

wanna end the pain so bad 
but im scared and i dont wanna let all these people down
every time i come around smell the weed in the air 
yeah my lungs are full of loud
yeah
i just wanna know
baby i just wanna know
no wait i dont wanna know a thing

repeat

all i see is trouble

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

nothing much

Music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctOyErSZ4Wk

guitar by noah walker and chris p
bass by coleman
violin by mohini 
lyrics: 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

I just look up in the mirror thinking god damn how the hell did I get here 
Says she sincere but I look and can't see her
Wish I woulda back then now I see it so clear 
Ooo 
Walking with a hole in my heart
I know that im over my head
why I'm always upset  
If i told you know youd say you wanna help
But I look around and the only one i see is myself  
Oh well
I really don't understand anymore 
No I don't even really know who I am anymore 
Letting go and falling back 
If youre ever holding out your hand 
I Bet you could understand its just
So much easier to
Hate us just
Moving through the cold like it
Ain't nothing 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

MUSIC VIDEO

spooky! (video in desc.)

Can you hear my voice through the storm?
Tell me what it is we're fighting for...

ANA
I love you </3

Stream / Save on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5jvnEE9aPgPXh9UgjvYMLw

Must always credit in title (prod. Zaini)
Lease Beats: https://zainibeats.beatstars.com/

Stream on Spotify

can you hear my voice

sample: gert taberner - fallen 
https://soundcloud.com/gerttabernermusic

Instagram

you don't love me anymore

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

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just happy to be here