mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
produced by kassgocrazy & thislandis
vocals performed by sewerperson

She Hates Me (feat. sewerperson)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

been trying to not rhyme lately lmk what u think!

madness art by Raid_E

2017

lyrics:

ya i feel like a hunter im in the woods getting bucks  
i been dodging 5-0 like my board dont got the back trucks 
white pill in my cup 
sat in filtered tap water 
im in western mass in the back by the tractor 
i feel like a hex girl my hair red and black yuh 
as a kid i had a bag in the closet packed up
keep a DSR at the pad like its black ops 
sometimes i just wish that we never had talked  

lookin like its last stand on the floor passed out 
i dont mean to lash out im sorry if i crash out 
u can smell the shit before i even bring the bag out 
and im smoking on some shit that prolly make u lag out

i was fly in 7th grade bumpin mmm whatcha say 
ghostgirl hopped out the grave, new name, new face
watching attack of the show g4 Xplay 
shoot my shot, thats a tight 3 point like a braid 
i dont touch the white but me and my friends bumping bladee
baby i dont wanna talk if u need me to explain
need some minecraft potions how im gettin blazed 
it gets bad sometimes but its all okay

hex girl

what's the point of anything (sorrow bringer)

9tails - your head ft tddy bear

Got to see what this prevails
Sure I'm gonna talk about it even if I fail
Pour my fucking heart in this shit
I don't follow trails
Never gonna walk without this crutch until I'm pale
Deep inside the forest, take a tour
I'll see you there
Empty bottle snoring, rain be pouring
You'll forget that
Only course of action is to step beyond the tree lines
These pines hold
The might to unmold

You're just a fraction of perception
Everything you know deception
Ego craving that intention
Overthinking that inflection
Loving every each obsession
But it's all in your mind
Nothing really fucking matters
I'm not lagging behind
Spending every waking second
Ask me how could I pass judgement on another
If I stare up in the mirror
Scared. Don't suffer
Crazy but it's all in your head
Project your fucking consciousness to where you will head

Stay afloat
Thoughts flow down stream quick
Choosing what you focus on
Let decay the other songs
Too much get you sea sick
Throwing up Hennessy; quick
Tomorrow got work at three; quit
Learning nothing with my time
I'm tired of trying to fit in line
Scared of not succeeding
Must learn to walk all on my own
Fear sets I faulter
Mask my tone
We all living on this planet till we're cold like stone
Better learn to love yourself
Conscious melts off the cone
Everything is fake, there's no meaning to it
You're your own god, best believe it
Cause we look back to the past

Try to grasp, running fast
You are leaving from the place you once knew
Now the sky isn't blue
And you cry every night wishing that you had knew
Things forever changing
Always temporary
Look past all the pain
It's only memory

The Forest (bonus track)

Love Makes You Blind

"You Don’t Control Me (Mixes)" is a collection of 25 alternate realities of the same song. Each mix pulls the track through a different lens.. lofi haze, raw acoustic campfire, distorted bass-heavy rebellion, spacious electronic dreamscapes, and stripped-down near-whispers. It’s the same defiant heartbeat at the core, but translated across moods, colors, and energies, like a single flame reflected in 25 mirrors. The project feels less like remixes and more like time-travel.. each version showing what the song becomes in another place, another world, another state of mind.

You Don't Control Me (Cooler 5)

main guitar by noah walker!

hope you enjoy, lyrics soon

Game Over

https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic
https://soundcloud.com/tothegood
<3 

lyrics:
(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

(guardin)
that's just how it goes
yeah that's how i roll
seven gram blunt & she's taking off my clothes
kissin on my tattoos leave me feelin froze
got my pistol in her grip cock it back & watch it blow 
i can't fall asleep so i've been staring at my phone
read a couple tweets until i leave that shit alone
noah sent the open all the way from buffalo
i'm just waiting for the green light hit the gas & go

(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

if you’re a bills a fan then lemme hear ya shout,
cuz i’ve got plenty other problems that i’d rather scream about,
like how ive been good for a minute now i’m not,
i talk about my feelings way too much instead of smoking pot,
so i’m screaming that i love you but
i hate that i’m so brutally honest
i know this world could be much better if i stop being on it,
i’m just never in the places i hoped,
who say do i need to be?
i’m doing everything that i can what else you want with me

(guardin)
lost in my head all the time
i'm not alright
i guess it's fine

Spotify <3

wicked w/ guardin (prod. tothegood)

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just happy to be here

what's the point of anything (sorrow bringer)

Softheart