softheart

Softheart Full

The Oblivious and Ignored

Can't Keep Up?

Sad Expresso

A Collection of Softheart Songs
Guest Starring: Truett, Participation Trophy, and SalemJournl [diary]

softheart [and friends] <3

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

fffuck Y3aaah!!!

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

sorry it took a year for me to mix this

5 miles to town
fine if i drown
n my mind so loud
ion wanna fight now
bish pipe down
ridin 165 bish no malcolm in middle
had sum problem shit to pawn off n get solved like a riddle
before i put the glock 9 bullet right in my temple
dyin its simple, look bish im dying its simple

late last december
low life like my face from a time i remember
the head down inside moms crib, drugged up temper
wit fucked up love this shitty house never better
its how life go i guess
been sweater weather forever inside of ur chest
but this shit never hurt when u had died in ur head
lie alone in bed
eyes filled wit dread 
no cry for the meds
now im-
caught in crossfire baby tell me who i am
ion think you understand
if i hit ts then i do it all again tonight
crossfaded put a cup in each hand on ice
all nite till a.m. been feeling alright
grab onto my hand we could ride away
or u could pass me up by like rightaway
pass me a blunt need it right away
(shorty gon say she not part of me
but stay bumpin "armory"
honest to god its like)
fuck out my way
stay zooted, fucked up in my place
like you is the source of the cause of my pain
so of course that shit go thru my brain
red the hatred run, course thru my veins
let my body erupt thru the flames
never feeding myself as of late
evermore im feeling it's my fate

5 miles to town
fine if i drown
n my mind so loud
ion wanna fight now
bish pipe down
ridin 165 bish no malcolm in middle
had sum problem shit to pawn off n get solved like a riddle
before i put the glock 9 bullet right in my temple
dyin its simple, look bish im dying its simple

inter_165 (thaibeats)

[intro]
So talk your shit behind my back
you've always been just like the rest
you never ask what's in my head
a zombie trapped inside my bed

[chorus]
So talk your shit behind my back
you've always been just like the rest
you never ask what's in my head
a zombie trapped inside my bed
and comment on the way I sleep
I've given room for you to speak
pretend you gave a fuck 'bout me
I've always been the black sheep

[verse]
I have a habit of running away from all of my problems
I know I should solve them
it's becoming less like it is an option and more of a bother
put the blame on my father
I'm chronically smoking narcotics to cure all of my conflicts
astonished at what I've accomplished
still im unwanted
I'm always exhausted
this system is toxic

I'm tempted to test if I'm bulletproof
the only escape to this cruel abuse
you made the mistakes but you're mad at me
your betrayal is something that frightens me
I'm constantly seen as the enemy
I never wanted to admit defeat
your failure to change your insensitive ways
caused the double-edged sword to devour me

[chorus]
So talk your shit behind my back
you've always been just like the rest
you never ask what's in my head
a zombie trapped inside my bed
and comment on the way I sleep
I've given room for you to speak
pretend you gave a fuck 'bout me
I've always been the black sheep

Black Sheep (prod. DESPAIRINTOASHES)

DEAD IN HIS TRACKZ

Listen on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/39QIa3apfZ382HwUqQYidq?si=2517d60b1e1e45d1

Stuck

stuck (prod. p4ra x 5head)

✦with my brotherrr @777evil!! out everywhere next month thank u for listening <3✦

lyrics
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and now im watching from the sidelines, real life
and ive been feeling like i might fly super high
yeah now we're partying here all night, get by
no i dont want to feel ure so cold like ice 
yeah she told me that we might die, why mind
and ive been looking past the highlights online
and everythings gonna be alright just fine 
no i dont wanna be at seaside tonight

and now im watching from the sidelines
tonight 
i feel like i’m not in real life
most times 
but will i ever be on headlines? 
blurred eyes 
is it all in my head? 
i know that you want me dead 
no i don’t want more friends 
they’re just fucking with my head 
i just wanna make it out with the ones that make me feel real 
i don’t need to say a lot cause i know that i’m the real deal

SIDELINES

SIDELINES w/ EVILMIKU (ghosteen)

IS WHAT IT IS

prod. @tnvr555 & i'm geist 

let me guess
you'll bury me in the garden

you brought this on yourself klaus
remember that

i never forget betrayal, marcel
remember that

the blood is all over the covers
so wrap up my body and
say that you only meant well
if this isn’t torture enough
let the ocd kill me
cause the thoughts are driving me out

i’ve got a lot left to say
but well i’ll bite my tongue
cause i cannot speak up when you yell
feels like the pains always lasting forever
so i drink my sorrows
and sleep by myself

and i’ve learnt that poison
is hatred
the more that you have
oh the more that you’re killing yourself
and love is no cure
cause you cannot fix somebody
who doesn't want to be fixed for themselves

i’m sorry it’s my way
or the highway
and i don’t know what else
could i say
so i leave the words
left for the stage
cause i don’t know how
how else could i’d stay

when i’m bleeding you dry
and you open up my wounds
pouring your salt telling lies
and i
i don’t feel good tonight
and if i take another shot
i swear i might take my life

cause i’m no good at apologies
but i gave you my honesty
and honestly that’s all i would liked
and if i drop dead on this hill
i bet no one would be surprised

bite my tongue

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bite my tongue [tnvr]

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what's the point of anything (sorrow bringer)

skinny (sorrow bringer)

big pile of trash (sorrow bringer)

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heartache

all i see is trouble
i dont see the love 
yeah i dont need to know
yeah i dont need the truth
i just stay alone between these four corners
i just stay alone making beats in my room
and i cant get back those days spent 
dazed and chasing around with you
and i cant no i wont pretend
every single day i would waist it again
i would waist it again

sometimes i wanna die
but i dont like to think about that
cause of fear for it
and sometimes i cant recognize 
the face thats looking back
in the mirror x3

wanna end the pain so bad 
but im scared and i dont wanna let all these people down
every time i come around smell the weed in the air 
yeah my lungs are full of loud
yeah
i just wanna know
baby i just wanna know
no wait i dont wanna know a thing

repeat

all i see is trouble

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

nothing much

hide the tears

Music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctOyErSZ4Wk

guitar by noah walker and chris p
bass by coleman
violin by mohini 
lyrics: 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

I just look up in the mirror thinking god damn how the hell did I get here 
Says she sincere but I look and can't see her
Wish I woulda back then now I see it so clear 
Ooo 
Walking with a hole in my heart
I know that im over my head
why I'm always upset  
If i told you know youd say you wanna help
But I look around and the only one i see is myself  
Oh well
I really don't understand anymore 
No I don't even really know who I am anymore 
Letting go and falling back 
If youre ever holding out your hand 
I Bet you could understand its just
So much easier to
Hate us just
Moving through the cold like it
Ain't nothing 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

MUSIC VIDEO

spooky! (video in desc.)

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just happy to be here