prod. Jojo Centineo
vocal mix / art by me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Sfzkyea34w

i look & don't recognize what i see around me
& everything was a lie that you'd ever tell me
i kept it bottled inside but it isn't healthy
shouldn't have let it all out but i couldn't help it
i hold my head to the sky
(when it start to drown me)
left me alone here to die
(had to find myself then)
devil wearing a disguise
(said that you would help me)
praying to god that he keep me alive

calling all my plans off
watching the world fall apart between my fingers
i keep my hands closed
right where we left off
pick up the story i would but all the ink inside of my pen's gone 
i'm going places i never thought i would've before
i tried replacing you couldn't bear the weight of my loss
send me an angel to come & take my spirit above 
don't be afraid of the ghost that i think i might become

i think i'm running out of luck
watching my whole entire world fall down

Angel (prod. JOJO)

decomposing (switch)

produced by soloft and lavendertxwn
mixed and mastered by mvø

I try my best to let go of the things I can’t control
This constant state of finding things to hold to when I fall has gotten worse 
I wasn’t perfect, maybe I deserve it 

The sun coming up is not the same since you left
Yeah, it’s hard to accept that everything I’ve come to love now hurts me
Should’ve never said I was you one and only
And still I try my best to breathe slow
Say you love, I was nervous, so I stared out your window
Never knew someone could make me feel this low
No need to talk, I’ll just go

Tried to make you happy I won’t leave unless you say so
Never wanted me but I was there when you got low
Switch up on the scene I see you act like you don’t know
Don’t care if you’re fake don’t hit me up when you’re solo

And I don’t really have the words to say
The ones to make you stay with me all day
Never thought you’d ever make me feel this way
Just let me go cuz now I can’t stay

no need to talk, i'll just go w/ flowers for you (prod. soloft x lavendertxwn)

NEVERBEENBETTER

lyrics:

Watch me gleam through the screen, that UAV
Diamonds dancin ya it's getting hard to see
I dim the lights so i could get it right
Well i don't think im coming back tonight
"Put the narcotics down" ya
It was never the problem a-ah
It's over the counter
It's under the table 
I'll come with the action a-ah
A hundred degree's inside 
But we're still freezing
What a sequence
Ay i want you here to see it's real
to you too
A piece of me flying through the wind from the sunroof
Even up the score it's getting hard to redo
Do u see me here
Breathe me in

I told lil bitch he don't mean shit
I'ma take your life on me so slick
And i can tell that you can't see straight
I keep that stick on me like Reway

Fortify the minds of every life
They keep the secrets deep inside
(Oh, god)
As if they even need to tell a lie
We see the truth inside your eyes
(Oh, why)
Wait, sleep under your silence
And please, reach into your heart a lost cause is all I'm ever gonna be

Fuck this 
I'm alright with 
Eternal silence

Watch me gleam through the screen, that UAV
Diamonds dancin ya it's getting hard to see
I dim the lights so i could get it right
Well i don't think im coming back tonight
"Put the narcotics down" ya
It was never the problem a-ah
It's over the counter
It's under the table 
I'll come with the action a-ah
A hundred degree's inside 
But we're still freezing
What a sequence
Ay i want you here to see it's real
to you too
A piece of me flying through the wind from the sunroof
Even up the score it's getting hard to redo
Do u see me here
Breathe me in

sequence (prod. 2001 x pekarot)

another way (prod. jolst)

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

sequence (prod. 2001 x pekarot)

steadysuffer