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My Pills

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waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
sit down in the porch lights tend to wait for a call
I shouldn’t have made it through the night 
But I made it out alive fuck everybody saying I won’t

real soon I’ll be ready to go
real soon ima take another pill and some more
this noon ima show you what’s left
this noon ima give it my all
six pills i can’t take anymore
more pills and i would’ve put an end to it all
ima sad kid i cant let momma know
i cant stand seeing her cry anymore

save me but nobody ever gave a fuck
it’s me, can’t nobody see me through these walls
xan, lean I’ll experiment in this cup
all geeked in my bedroom all docked alone
four weeks and nobody has hit my phone
the only text that I get is when I hit my plug
the only voice is slowly getting numb
chemicals in my head got me going dumb

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

suisside- pills (prod. x10derrick)

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

i would give you all my bands i don’t care what you say
i dont got that many fans but I love them to death
i don’t think you understand somethings wrong in my brain 
i don’t think I had the chance to make myself feel the pain
i was trynna get my wealth I had nothing to say
i was working on myself ain’t nobody the same
i was trynna treat you well you were not like the lames 
i aint need nobody’s help I’m by my own in my lane

(my lane) 
get the fuck out my lane
(get the fuck out my lane)
get thе fuck out my lane
(my lane)
i cut you off like a vein
(i cut you off like a vein)
i cut you off like my veins
(my veins)
i wanna go out and say
(i wanna go out and say)
i think im going insane
(insane)
im working hard everyday
(im working hard everyday)
and if I die I’ll be safe

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

suisside- my last days (original version)

Why you talking to me like you’ve seen me before?
Why the fuck you acting? I can see through it all
(I can fucking see it bitch)
Why you talking to me like we’ve been through it all?
Now you acting foolish you gonna trip for a hoe

I feel like a zombie bitch I trip when I walk
Vomit on the carpet from the night I was hung
All my friends keep saying that I’m dying 
Bitch I’ve been dead for months
I’m finna burn down the world
I’m gonna make it my own
They can get the fuck out my face
I cannot fuck up the game
I’m finna make it my way
I’ll get a bag and the safe
I got no dye in my head
I got the X in my vein
You gotta make me some space
You’ll find me deep in the trench
Oh

Why you talking to me like you’ve seen me before?
Why the fuck you acting? I can see through it all
(I can fucking see it bitch)
Why you talking to me like we’ve been through it all?
Now you acting foolish you gonna trip for a hoe

suisside- dead (prod. x10derrick)

i know it hasn’t been that long
but i cant let you go
i thought id let you know
I’ve been bothered everyday
you’re still inside my head, trynna not forget

i hope that you’ll be okay
i know I hurt your friends
im the one they hate
i act like nothings really changed
but when i see my bed I only see that day

xanax keep me strong
take one and I’m gone
try to play it off
stupid if i would’ve known
i know I fucked it up
i asked if I’m enough 
i don’t give a fuck
trynna get your love
if someone write a song
about how much they love
i don’t know if you’d call back thought I’d try my luck
i text you and you’re gone
try to thin it out 
if anything you’re gone
trynna find my gun

you’re nothing like the rest 
i know you need your space
i know you need your breath 
trynna get a text
i put you around my head
baby it’s okay
call me back someday
im the one you hate

suisside- the one you hate (prod. Slendy)

Sing it with you, follow along
Ima be with you til the end of the fall
Coming with you, take me along
You gonna be with me til the end of the fall
Cop me some shoes, buy you a boat
You gonna be with me if you like it or not
She killing the moon, thirsty for blood
I was getting high when you called me

That reminds me all I got 
When I drown in death, off a pill I’m not coming back
That reminds me I could die
Keep your name on my mind, for the kill I won’t let you die
Coming like you want me to stay 
I got blood in my brain, but you wanna be this way
Acting like you work for the feds, girl I meant what I said
You don’t have be this way

Sing it with you, follow along
Ima be with you til the end of the fall
Coming with you, take me along
You gonna be with me til the end of the fall
Cop me some shoes, buy you a boat
You gonna be with me if you like it or not
She killing the moon, thirsty for blood
I was getting high when you called me

That reminds me all I got 
When I drown in death, off a pill I’m not coming back
That reminds me I could die
Keep your name on my mind, for the kill I won’t let you die
Coming like you want me to stay 
I got blood in my brain, but you wanna be this way
Acting like you work for the feds, girl I meant what I said
You don’t have be this way

suisside- reminds me (prod. lilpipe)

suisside- centipede (prod. namahage)

videos
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xuHN953_fYY
www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @prod-mangetsu)
spotify - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/suisside/never-was

[lyrics]

i’m so alone 
i wish i could see your face and say 
i’m not here 
 ever was 
the california sun 
them california girls 
they’re not here never was 

when you called 
me that night 
and you told 
me you’re mine 
this time you’re on your way 
how much more can one wait 

i had a lucid dream 
i hold those memories 
i saw again your timid skin 
my eyes were too caught up

never was

never was (prod. manget$u)

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @x10derrick)

[lyrics]

and i never grew the guts to say how i feel,
take it all just take it all where did you learn to steal?
i come in peace, i have a gun, i caught a thrill, 
say my name 

oh hi again my only friend i’ve come to you 
instead of them, 
to ask you why i feel this way, why im so strange i feel no pain?
why am i gay? why am i straight? why am i forced to love this life?
am i awake? am i in bed? i might’ve played dead for some time!

i’m taking the long way home.

say my name

say my name (prod. x10derrick)

veins (prod. greaf)

praying to the sky (prod. greaf)

Gustav Ahr's Album

right here w/ horsehead (prod. nedarb)

Lil Peep Part One

lil peep - Nothing To U

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @grave5y0)

rip peep <3

might die (prod. grave5)

Its Me

my last days (prod. metlast)

archiving lost/deleted suisside songs for everyone to experience. @suiluxe on instagram. suisside fan since 2019. seen sui live x2

suisside- my last days (original version)

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