4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

hyacinth --- artwork by @reksi420 --- additional guitars by @buzit0

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
our promises

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

and i remember
wishing you were down by the lake
oh no
couldn't keep you up from drowning away
at all
finally gave up on your life
so don't wait
it's all good

now it's november 
and we're sitting outside in the rain
our voices tremble
you're whispering
!that's not what you said!
and i remember 
hoping that it'll come to an end
as we sway in the wind
close our eyes
as we sing 
about

and i can't believe 
your safe in my arms
time stops
to breathe
so just sway in the wind 
and don't worry
cause you've become so sweet
close your eyes 
fall asleep
have i found what i need?
as it rains down
i'm feeling all the pressure in my veins
now
i'm holding every moment to my chest
hearts beating with no rest
i've finally found my end

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
i'll promise it

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

<3

hyacinth

^^

clip from Porter Robinson - Cheerleader

do i miss her?

sorry for the lack of releases i don't get inspired when i'm not suffering
*(edit: turns out not suffering was not the reason)

stream on here i need numbers :(
https://open.spotify.com/track/0z2sVaLkghAhkcqZQ0PoSt?si=3c8861534cc549a2

support me
https://twitter.com/whosoru
https://discord.gg/QWJbFsNfBb

+Entropy+

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk
At all

And you ask why-
And you ask me-

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Think you should feel fine
I can tell when you lie
Cause you just can't find
Maybe it's in your blood?

It's in your blood
Yearning for the other side
Of a fence that you built up
Up with all your might

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Entropy

Download

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


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visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT !!! x3c

Was originally an anv9 song I made with my friends so it is a bit ott and also there are a million credits

CREDITZ (in no particular order)
Suroki - lyrics vox prod mix master whatever man idc
DanielXo - prod
mistmurk - prod+additional vox
Machi - guitar+additional vox
EyesAndArrows - composition+piano
Flood - prod
Maringennnn - guitar

Art by me with guidance from me friend !!!

LYRICS !!!! <3

-------------------------

Fetch ! :D

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I spend my life on basic
Tasks so I don't have to change it
You don't know what you want at all
[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]
My friends invite me places
They think this time I'll make it
SO WE FEED THIS CYCLE
[WAS IT ALWAYS MY FAULT ?]

----- CHORUS -----

I think i get it !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this
Fetchquest

----- Post-Chor -----

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I'll get what you want

I know it's not enough

I'll get what you want

I know it's not ...

----- Bridge -----

I'mma
Make a whole new track
Then i'll change it
Face it, 
why do I bother anyway ?

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
FUCK,

Gotta
Try out brute force motivation
You went and drew your heart out
Don't erase it

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Pick ip up
Pick it up

----- CHORUS 2-----

I think i get it

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this ...

I think i get it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Can't keep doing this

ITS ALWAYS

Fetchquest

------------------------

Thanks to all my friends 4 cheering me on this year, sorry for always making things so difficult.



FETCHQUEST >!<

JUST FOR NOW
https://ffm.to/jfn

miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne @envyline

As days
gone by 
I see your shadow walking
Surrounding my mind
In a dream  I cried
Beneath the star you cherish
Fading over time

(can't let go)
Just for now

(of hope)

Just for now


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
You didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


Could I be your savior?
Swoopin' in and save you from hurt
Until then  I can't save you
Just for now

Just for now  just for now
Feeling like you're  feeling like you're gonna riot
Just for now  for now
How long can you hold out the pain?
Just for now


As I trace the line
Will we find our place in time?
As we say goodbye
In the silence  our hearts confined
Are we out of time?
As we're losing touch
Our love is fading
(Fading) 




I can tell you're not happy
After everything you told me
Standing helpless
How can I face everything
How could you bring me between
How could you?
(I don't blame you)


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
I didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
Watching from afar I know you've had it rough
But it's not my fault that you gave up
I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
You're not the only one around that's had enough
It's not my fault I've given up

JUST FOR NOW

IT MUST BE GETTING WORSE !!!!

EDIT: Soz like 2 things were pissing me off so some small changes are in there now mb !

Thanks so much to mistmurk without them this song would not exist 

Credits - Uh me like everything I did everything really honestly
mistmurk with the addl prod thoooooughhhhh 

THANKS 2 EVERY1 FOR LISTENINGGGGGG sorry back to scheduled garage spam after this no more fun !!!

-----INTRO-----

[You know how to watch video ?]
[mhm]
[Do you wanna go watch video ?]

-----VERSE 1-----

You're talking to yourself
Again
You really made a habit of it
It must be getting worse
Again
The way I speak to my friends

So do you love me, like me ?
Tell me so yourself
And you want me ? 
Boring
You're just like all the rest
Before you think
My heart, still bleeds
It doesn't mean anything

-----CHORUS 1-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you

-----VERSE 2-----

Stop talking to yourself
OK :/
You can't even cry about it
You wanna change so -
I guess
You could try flirting with your friends ?

But then you might feel
Something
Im getting kinda scared
Of you talking
Surely
Theres nothing wrong with that
Should it feel, so bad
When I see you writing back
Ah


YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW
YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW

-----CHORUS 2-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you
I think i'd like
To be you

-----FINAL CHOR-----

I CANT TOUCH YOU
I DONT FEEL LIKE YOU
I HOPE I DONT HURT YOU
BUT I CANT BE LIKE YOU

STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF !

14/03/24 - 24/03/25
6/11

Me and Clayekea have been trying to make a collab for so long, I swear this was like our fifth attempt, and even this one barely made it to the end. After like a month of working on it we both lost steam until I came back across it a while later and just knew I really wanted to finish it. 

I adore Clayekea's work so much and creating something with them has been such a dream, I'm so glad this track made it to the finishing line

In terms of meaning, I don't really know, I didn't write the lyrics

Follow Clayekea here:
https://soundcloud.com/clayekea
https://twitter.com/clayekea
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0ueOBT8FR3uXKLfNKhZRr2?si=GIOAt_ljSLqZ1FK3RUMKUg
https://clayekea.bandcamp.com/

[LYRICS]
And maybe I dreamed it all
it took a miracle to come back to me when you left
I'd thought I'd seen it all
it gets so difficult when all of your words fill my head

But I believed it all
you took my fear and called it over and freed me instead
yeah, I wish I'd dreamed it all
and maybe then I will be able to breathe once again

And maybe I dreamed it all
it took a miracle to come back to me when you left
I thought I'd seen it all
it gets so difficult when all of your words fill my head

And maybe I dreamed it all
And maybe I dreamed it all
And maybe I dreamed it all
And maybe I dreamed it all

And maybe I dreamed it all
it took a miracle to come back to me when you left
I'd thought I'd seen it all
it gets so difficult when all of your words fill my head

But I believed it all
you took my fear and called it over and freed me instead
yeah, I wish I'd dreamed it all
and maybe then I will be able to breathe once again

Breathe (w/Clayekea)

THERE'S STILL TIME !!!

Thanks so much to halfTrue for putting up with me and trusting me with this instrumental this shit is so cool.

CREDITS !!!
VOX/WRITING AND WHATNOT - MEEEEEE
PROD / MIX / MASTER ETC - halfTrue, (I helped a little bit but not much)
ART - ME WHIPPEE

LYRICS !!!

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, oh

Time ~! moves ~! on ~!

---VERSE---

Speak my age like a curse !
Couldn't bear it
We all try our best to dispel it
It's why you always talk too much
Cos it makes u feel more young

My parents feel bad for me
I'm not 17
And I haven't been ...
For a while now

Would it bother me
If we treated time more sweetly

---CHOR 1---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done ... :(

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

IM NOT DONE

YOU GOTTA GET UP !!!

---Bridge---

I really thought I'd like getting old
But no one seems to think so
How many years are left for my own
Chances left to feel whole

Lost to the daydream
There was a place my dad used to take me
Did he waste his time ? For a feeling I'm
Sure that I'll forget

GET UP !

--SOLO CHOR---

Have you written all you wanted ? GET UP !
Time to face your life, GET UP !
Yeah we really wont wait, get up !
And I could never live enough

---Final Chor---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
OOH MY GOOOOOD
Is this really all I've done :/

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

I'M ! NOT ! DONE !

GET UPPP !

ocean wave, take me back

Not so super.

Finishing songs era ! Finishing songs ! haha ! I am posting songs !

Cool people
@Finderx
@emblur
@dustkey-hq
@mist-murk
@Kokogane
@flooddubs