got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

the long-awaited distance pt 2 <33

@x1fern i luv u so much dawg, thx for bodying me lol

hope u guys can get some sort of feeling out of this, whether it's the feeling of moving on, sadness, or tranquility. i pray i can affect u in some sort of way <3

++lyrics++
girl i never wanna try that shit again
maybe i should fuckin die off percocets
say you love me but you don’t; makes perfect sense
i just wanna be alone can’t take the chance

took a lonely fuckin road, ain’t turning back
skin is melting into bone, no naked flesh
said you want me for your own, can’t make this last 
said you want me for your own, can’t make this last 

want me for you own then you treat me like shit
i don't fuck with these hoes I don't fuck with your clique
when we're all alone then you're up on my dick
stay up all night wondering if im missed

wonder if im sick or im going fucking crazy
when im with you I hate myself, it feels amazing
been off the drugs, my reality's fading
alone in my room wondering why im hesitating
water on my face & im turning off the faucet
looking in my eyes you can tell that I've lost it
you blurred the lines & then i went & crossed it
doing all these drugs & im laying in the moshpit

treat me like shit, doing these drugs, & im laying in the moshpit

girl i never wanna try that shit again
maybe i should fuckin die off percocets
say you love me but you don’t; makes perfect sense
i just wanna be alone can’t take the chance

took a lonely fuckin road, ain’t turning back
skin is melting into bone, no naked flesh
said you want me for your own, can’t make this last 
said you want me for your own, can’t make this last

perfect sense w/ 1fern [prod. dercept]

@1darza @ninewaters <33
luv makin music with my friends fr ily guys

--lyrics--
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

hoping someone gets them off of me
im running for my life
want the peace the lord has offered me
im tryna catch a vibe
dont want attention, i dont want too many friends
forgot to mention, i cut off too many threads

hard for me to function, hard to feel alive
talkin all that tough shit, whyd i even try
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet, ohhh

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

bitch im on this perc and ecstacy im out my mind
fuck 12 i aint doing time
you can see the pain when you lookin in my eyes
waking up high, thought i died last night

my bitch put the coke in her pussy
you aint doin shit to me boy you just a pussy
pullin up with rick on me, got your bitch lookin
flexin all that cash, now he sad cuz i took it

im on demon time, yeah
fees in my line, yeah
i dont needa die, im already dead
pull up to your spot, we gon paint it red
i need all the percocets, i need all the meds, yeah

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

it's the worst day
sometimes i will wonder why i did this in the first place
i would get antagonized and treated in the worst ways
i just want an answer; on my own im always searching
THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY WAY

alive w/ darza [prod. ninewaters]

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

maybe i should've asked her...

@decksmusic u rly bodied me on this lmao thank u sm for doin this for me ily

@zupehr we havent made rock in like a year, so so glad we locked in and made a hit together like we used to back in 2021 <333

>lyrics<

time is moving faster
turn my skull into plaster
nothing really matters
life is such a disaster

maybe i shouldve asked her
but im turning the chapters
now we're moving on right?
hoping i'll be alright

gimme a break i just need to settle down
i think as of late, it ain’t easy comin round
i don’t wanna fall on fate, i know it’ll let me down
so i take it by the day, hoping it comes back around
i hang on every word u say
& its debilitating
i’ll wait for night to turn to day
& watch the skyline fading

(incoherent bridge lyrics)

time is moving faster
turn my skull into plaster
nothing really matters
life is such a disaster

maybe i shouldve asked her
but im turning the chapters
now we're moving on right?
hoping i'll be alright

turning chapters w/ decks [prod. zupehr]

i made overwatch gay

@kryst3n
@dylaanlotus
@claudesdiary
@p3nkrt
@assperrr

kryst3n, dylan lotus, claude & p3nkrt - bonsai 3 (claude x asperr)

★..cause your forever mine..★

[featuring]
@dylaanlotus

[producer]
@kingtheta

[lyrics]

intro:
okay so dont fuck up
one, two
one, two three four!

verse:
i know its hard to let it go
but you'll be fine
its tough to make a change
but you'll be fine

been moving toward the future
i hope i dont lose her
shes everything to me

bridge:
and ive been up for so long
but i'll be fine
i'll be fine

hook:
i feel it all tonight i do
been up so long without you
but im not wasting time
my brain is never kind

but this just isnt something new
just a change in my point of view
but im not wasting time
cause your forever mine

verse two: (dylan)
girl your love is the only thing
that’s keeping me together
i’m hardly breathing at all
cuz i’m in pieces i would never

forget her, remember
your love is forever
your touch in december
is warming the embers

bridge:
and ive been up for so long
but i'll be fine
i'll be fine

hook:
i feel it all tonight i do
been up so long without you
but im not wasting time
my brain is never kind

but this just isnt something new
just a change in my point of view
but im not wasting time
cause your forever mine

ending:
and ive been up for so long
but i'll be fine
i'll be fine

and ive been up for so long
but i'll be fine
i'll be fine

★streaming★

★i'll be fine★ w/ dylan lotus (prod. king theta)

it’s finally out <33

been holding onto this song in the vault for a while cuz it was meant to be a personal song, but you guys really seemed to want it so go crazy and show some luv ❤️

~lyrics~
please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

i been getting in my head too much
doing everything to make you blush
is it fine? imma let you judge
we can slow it baby we don’t gotta rush at all
i was bound just to fall apart
tearing my emotions like the fucking walls
praying every night for a fuckin call
why’d i tell it to myself that i’d never fold?

please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

please don’t let me go
can we look up at the stars?
please just let me know
if you feel it in your heart
please just hold me close
i just wanna see that face
can you tell me now?
how i made you feel that day

hold me close [prod. irby]

your way w/ lebxanon [prod. shingan]

do you love that? when im out on the floor...

@kryst3n u went crazy twin ily 

lyrics:
countin' down on all the days i dream
prayin' on the times that i will stay 18 again
but here i am
im rotting away, im buried in my head
(im buried in my head)

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

do you want that? 'cause I don't feel right
looking at the stars and our fates intertwined
I want you all the time you pay no piece of mind
you sit back seat reclined you leave me with crossed eyes
I'm losing you'd be better off without me
you were 2 faced and our waters still cloudy
you make it seem like its easier without me
why am I holding onto somebody who never cared

i dont want that, nothing feels right
i feel the time is ticking down, i wanna rewind
you cut me off and make it hard for me to be fine
you got me questioning if I've been in the real life

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

contact w/ kryst3n [prod. jolst]

let your woes be g0ne...
produced by cxrter & jewelryboy

lyrics:
It's late at night, can barely sleep
I lost it all, I'm stuck in my dreams
Tears are falling like sticks from trees
Oh, I know that I'm in too deep
I was young, just seventeen
Exploring my mind just like the seven seas
Took my soul it took the breath from me
I'm on my own there's nothing left for me
Nothing left for me

At times I question my own health
Maybe I'm not fine or I'm just overwhelmed
At night is when my thoughts compel
Shooting me back down the old wishing well
Why has everything gone bright
Always lived in fear must die
I don't think I'm real don't know what to feel
Playеd my cards with the devil, I made a dеal
My health is depleting and I'm barely breathing
I let all my friends down, I'm sorry can't see it
My health is depleting and I'm barely breathing
I let all my friends down, I'm sorry can't see it

It's late at night, can barely sleep
I lost it all, I'm stuck in my dreams
Tears are falling like sticks from trees
Oh, I know that I'm in too deep
I was young, just seventeen
Exploring my mind just like the seven seas
Took my soul it took the breath from me
I'm on my own there's nothing left for me
Nothing left for me

woebegone (cxrter x jewelryboy)

@killvalxo </3

-lyrics-
run away, i can't go back
she's insane, now i know that
when you're around my heart stops missing
when i'm running from her bet she'll keep chasing me
when i'm running from her bet she'll keep chasing me
running from her
running from her

if you love me then you'd want me to breathe right out
and i been running out of options to feel right now
so done; i feel imperfect
so lost; just tell me im worth it

she's a crazy girl and i don't think i fuck with that
she'll keep chasing me until the world has fallen flat
i don't know what to say what you are
you always drove me insane; that's too far 

woah
woah
i been moving straight away
i been moving straight away

run away, i can't go back
she's insane, now i know that
when you're around my heart stops missing
when i'm running from her bet she'll keep chasing me
when i'm running from her bet she'll keep chasing me
running from her
running from her

chasing w/ killval [prod. tofito]

soundcloud if u take it down one more time im swingin

sulking w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

★..nobody knows me well..★

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/dylaanlotus

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/kingtheta

[artwork]
me lol (s/o sony)

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/anomaly-w-dylan-lotus-prod-king-theta-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

intro:
in every other universe
gwen stacy falls for spiderman
and in every other universe
it doesn't end well

verse one:
nobody knows me well
at least as well as you do
I don't have no one to tell
I just wanna talk about you

bridge:
I'm sick of everything and I don't feel like fronting
leave me in the trash cause I'm not worth nothing
nobody knows me.. no one does
nobody knows me well

chorus:
and I cant breathe, without you by my side
its hard to see, when the end is not in sight
I feel like I'm losing any sense of self
I'm trying all without your help

I hate the cards that I've been dealt

verse two:
pull the queen of the hearts and bitch you knew that
oh we were two of a kind and then you drew back
no one knows.. where the plot will go..

tear me up and break my fucking bones
turn me to a vessel no one knows..

bridge:
I'm sick of everything and I don't feel like fronting
leave me in the trash cause I'm not worth nothing
nobody knows me.. no one does
nobody knows me well

chorus:
and I cant breathe, without you by my side
its hard to see, when the end is not in sight
I feel like I'm losing any sense of self
I'm trying all without your help

I hate the cards that I've been dealt

and I cant breathe, without you by my side
its hard to see, when the end is not in sight
I feel like I'm losing any sense of self
I'm trying all without your help

I hate the cards that I've been dealt

ending:
well.. there's a first time for everything right?

★anomaly★ w/ dylan lotus (prod. king theta)

Reach out try the best that I can
Bleed out when they leave me and scram
I know that's the way that it goes
I know that they'll leave me a ghost
Maybe I'm haunted by this misery
Crying tears inside my sleep
Deep inside my skin they'll seep
I'm just another soul to reap
So I don't wanna think about the end
Or the things that I know that I should've just said
And I still suck at going to bed
Every time I lie down i'm just laying in dread
I don't wanna panic anything good in my life it just vanished I
Just can't understand it
Can't even change 'cause I'm stuck in my habits I

Run, run, where the wind blows
I can't decide so I don't care no more
Like tell me the hell was I worried about?
'cause I don't do stressing for fun
Like tell me like what do you play me for?
I wager my life with this gun
Tell the lord take care of me
'cause I don't even trust in me
I'm only tryna find my peace

Why can't they just get rid of me?

Why can't they just get rid of me?

Why can't they just get rid of me?

Reach out try the best that I can
Bleed out when they leave me and scram
I know that's the way that it goes
I know that they'll leave me a ghost
Maybe I'm haunted by this misery
Crying tears inside my sleep
Deep inside my skin they'll seep
I'm just another soul to reap
So I don't wanna think about the end
Or the things that I know that I should've just said
And I still suck at going to bed
Every time I lie down i'm just laying in dread
I don't wanna panic anything good in my life it just vanished I
Just can't understand it
Can't even change 'cause I'm stuck in my habits I

soul to reap

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21 | they/them
you'll always have a home with me.

nightcore versions: @cutemfontheblock & https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr
b-sides @scoobert-doobert-1738

producer 🎸 | token emo | 🖤🩶🤍💜 | 21 |
💿credits: @sewerperson @itsyungvan @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell

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