Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words I'll into a song
Tell me that you hate me baby
Tell me that I did you wrong

Garrett tells me I'm enough
Detmer tells him shut the fuck up
Qayin feeds off both of them
So left or right he's always up

Ken is fucked up lost cause
He won't ever be shit, he will always fucking lose
unknxwn.'s only just a mask that he wears
So the people that listen don't think that too

You won't ever know who the fuck I am
I won't ever know what the fuck I feel
You don't even know how fucked up I am
I can't ever tell what the fuck is real

I can't even fucking cry
I don't wanna know the why
I don't even wanna try
I'll be okay when I die

I don't wanna see myself no more
I don't wanna breathe, my chest so sore

spotfy.

sticks & stones. | Produced by saint mike

music video: https://youtu.be/RH_eLwPbLd0?si=fwSJFTBo3cr0pyVc

Lyrics

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

My heartbeat fading slowly
I wish that you would hold me
But you don't care to know me
I'm regressing to the old me

Try to hide it but I feel that shit now
Don't know what I did but that girl is a bitch now
Coulda been a love song but it is a diss now
All those things I didn't understand I still don't get now

I'm not ever getting better

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

I got feelings that I'll never bring up out loud
Like how the only thing inside of me is doubt now
Doubt I'll ever be someone good enough for you
Doubt I'll ever leave behind the feelings I have for you

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

My heartbeat fading slowly
I wish that you would hold me
But you don't care to know me
I'm regressing to the old me

Try to hide it but I feel that shit now
Don't know what I did but that girl is a bitch now
Coulda been a love song but it is a diss now
All those things I didn't understand I still don't get now

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

spotify.

loosescrew! | Produced by emma

Lyrics

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

I know some people like what I do
I know some people couldn't care less
I know part of me like what I do
I know part of me wanna progress

I don't know how much fight I got left
I don't wanna keep chasing a check
And that's not what I doing it for
But I'm just a human, I gotta pay rent

It was cool, I was only a kid
I was living with mom back then
I was making a couple of g's
Buying beats for my songs back then

That was all I was worried about
But I ain't a kid no more
I ain't saying I'm giving it up
I just can't put it all in no more

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

ain't a kid no more. | Produced by metlast

Last Week On Earth ( i think i wanna die) prod dash

Prod. JpBeatz 

Lyrics~

All my emotions got me in a vortex
Drowning in oceans, deep in my dark depths
Nobody know me or what I’ve bled 
Baby just hold me I feel so exhausted 

I regret some of the shit that I’ve said 
But They were fake so that’s why I left
Only need me for what is up next 
Imma create until my last breath

Its sad to see
Everyone fuckin leave
With my trust deceived 
Like that shits fine to me
Nothing is what it seems
Lying right through their teeth
Quiet but wanna scream
But I can’t fuckin breathe

Silently suffering 
Burns hidden underneath
Of whats been done to me
Meaning so fucking deep

Is life a game
I feel so damn  insane
how much more can I take 
Before I break from pain

Life’s fucking got me stuck in its cyclone
My mind is racing as I see time go
Faster than ever, I feel like I’ll die slow
Hell is too hot so that is what I froze

They all left me alone
What do I call a home
In this realm imma roam
Until I feel comfortable 

Or until I fucking cave
Cuz I know I can’t be saved
A mistake you can’t erase
Mom this never was a phase

That’s why they all ran away
Cuz my words they couldn’t take
All those games I don’t play
That’s why I pushed em’ away

I got no friends 
N I don’t regret
Anything that I said
Cuz I Wont forget
All the shit That they did
They can all suck my dick
Then go drive off a cliff
I’m so sick of this shit

Someone lit the fuse, I’m about to blow 
Where am I going? I wonder when I’ll know
Lost in the dark but the lights my hope
But I’ll keep on searching cuz imma lost soul

lonely thoughts

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

"detmer"

7 DAYS LATER YOU'RE GONE AND YOU ALREADY HAD SOMEONE
SO I GUESS YOU WERE PLANNING TO LEAVE ME RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING OF US ALL ALONG
HOW THE FUCK COULD I BE SO STUPID? WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MAKE ME DO THIS?
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME WHILE BLACKOUT DRUNK AND THEN ACT SO CLUELESS?

"garrett"

I WOULD NEVER DO YOU LIKE THAT, HOW COULD YOU MOVE ON SO FAST?
WHY THE FUCK DID I STAY SO LONG WHEN YOU TREATED ME JUST LIKE TRASH?
AND MY HEART STILL GOT THOSE SCARS AND MY HAND STILL GOT THAT SCRATCH
GIRL I WAITED FOR YOU FOR SO LONG JUST SO YOU COULD COME BACK AND LEAVE ME IN THE PAST

ALL THIS PAIN I BE HOLDING, AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP BROKEN
AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP CRYING, AIN'T NO WONDER I FEEL SO HOPELESS
IN MY HEART AIN'T NO LOVE LEFT INSIDE IT, ALL MY ARTERIES FULL OF CORROSION
BUT IT'S COOL CAUSE I'M JUST GONNA HIDE IT, I JUST SPOKE UP, DON'T ASK HOW I WROTE IT

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

7 DAYS LATER!

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I could tell you a million words and it still wouldn't make you pick me first
You could tell me a million lies and it still wouldn't change how I look in your eyes
I could write like a million lines and it still wouldn't say what I feel inside
You could leave me a million times but the moment you come back I'll be alright

Baby you're my drug and I been sober too long
I still hit you up cause I don't wanna move on
She don't want no memory of me, I keep her memory in these songs
Don't say you'll be here, I don't need you to be cause she's all I need but it's all gone

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

*auditory agony*

I'm worthless, I know this, you don't need to remind me
Girl, I just wanted to say that you're perfect, just in case you need reminding
Just in case he don't remind you, I lost her but I'ma find you
And I can't let you go, cause your heart, my heart's tied to

You told me that you cared, it turns out I was lied to
And you just left me there, I was alone with no one to cry to
I guess our love was a lie too, found out that your name was a lie too
I don't even know what to call you but I still wanna call you

I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines

I tried so hard for you and I failed every time

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

you're my drug and i've been sober for too long.

Produced by sh1t_happens

Lyrics

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

You'll never call me yours
I'll never see you again
No one will ever mean more to me
Than what you meant to me way back then

I know I'm fucking pathetic
Cause I ain't even know your name
I never held your hand
And I never saw your face

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong

I know that I fucking suck, I know that I'm fucking pitiful
I know I only exist just so that they can have someone to ridicule
All that I wanted was love but that don't exist for me, I'm fucking miserable
Happiness always been minuscule, I should of been dead in middle school

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

the mask i stapled on my face just to convince myself it was real.

Art By Muhammed Çelebi

Lyric Video: https://youtu.be/ELQ9G351ESQ

Lyrics

Smoke in my lungs suffocating my thoughts
I can't think fucking straight, I get so fucking lost
I'm not okay, like bitch what you thought?
I see death as a phase and I wanna evolve

Leave me the fuck alone, don't say that you care cause I know you don't
I might just break my phone, I don't wanna talk about nothing no more
I might fucking fold on myself, I need help bitch
I don't like the soul I was dealt, I might sell it

Helpless how I see myself in my eyes
Melting, I'm so hot
Is this what hell is? I might unveil it
Watch me get reckless

I don't think you wanna see how fucked up and dark I get
Okay I just wanna be deceased, don't care how I get there
I just might do it myself, I'm so selfish
Where do I go with all the pain I need help with?

I don't know, I might fucking go
To a loaded gun, tell my brain to blow
And if that ain't it, I'm headed to a bridge
To drown myself and my thoughts in a dark abyss

I don't care about my life
All I wanna do is die
I don't wanna see the light
Unless it's God to say goodbye

To the worst soul that he ever made
Never I'm not more so that I'll be okay
This body is foreclosed, I'm not here to stay
Head gone look like morse code when I let it spray

lonely thoughts

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