i've never really released songs that I hold very dearly to my heart but here's the first. 
This is also the first song I use my mic!
hope you like it :)

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a song my 14 year old self would scold me for  

Nowhere To Hide

cos weve been driving so long
I cant remember how we got here
or how we survived
so long out trying to run from our pride
till you set fire to my atmosphere
and i remember how i spent the 23rd
feeling six feet under when im 30,000ft in the air
chasing that sun down
so far east im west bound
feeling like the edge of the world is near

but youll feel better when you wake up
swear to god ill make up
everything and more when i get back someday
this is more than just a phase love
shooting stars all break up
and even though it seems like half the world away
things will be better in america
heard the streets are gold there
maybe i can fly you out this place someday
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves
looking back i almost thought i heard you say

stay youre not gonna leave me
this place is right where you need to be
and why your words gotta mean so much to them
and they mean nothing to me
so stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million anyway?

cos you see only what you want to
your tunnel vision owns your
and you cant see whats wrong
when you keep sleeping through the p.m
eyes wide open when youre dreaming
youre sleepwalking
just keep talking
maybe you can talk your way out of this deep end
no b plan in your system
just tell me what your thinking
im scared that you might fall
but youre not
but youre not

and youll feel better when you wake up
taking off your make up
sun always seems to wash our fears away
and its always shining somewhere
i just gotta get there
and even though it seems like half the world away
things are better in america
heard the streets are gold there
maybe i can fly you out this place some day
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves
looking back i almost thought i heard you say

stay your not gonna leave me
this place is right where you need to be
and why your words gotta mean so much to them
when they mean nothing to me
so stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million?

youre so much better than that

stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million
anyway?

and youll feel better when you wake up
swear to god ill make up everything and more when i get back some day
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves looking back i almost thought i heard you say

youre so much better than that x

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cos i had the best of the worst sides
and i had these lungs
and i had too many flash fires
that i just let them burn

till my chest is on fire
and my head just wont die
i guess im lying cos i wanna
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like its move or slowly die
you aint you when youre like this
this aint you and you know it
but aint that just the point

you dont know
how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im
still caught below
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess sometimes
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

cos all i needed was some words to say
that all these feelings dont mean shit to me
cos its all just chemicals anyway
anyway
and i got way to many routes to take
to make this all just go away
and find another heart to break
so heartless with the words i say
just saying what im supposed to say
cos i had nothing for you
i cant love when i cant even love myself
things i would rather be thoughts at the back of my head but im addicted to hurting
and i got these lungs
and I spent too many late nights
thinking a hole in the earth

till the sky is on fire
and my head still wont die
i guess im lying cos i want to
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like i need something to come alive
she said you aint you when youre like this
this aint you what you done?
and i said thats the point

you dont know how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im still caught bellow
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess inside
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

/numb

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how do i say  
all i want just falls away  
i dont know how to 
 keep us in time 
 mind is changing
 all you want so far is 
 love, death and some kind of higher high 
 youre reaching
 and if were all just drifting by  
phones in the air  
face to the sky  
and all this time to realise 
 theres nothing stopping you  
from leaving

please dont go  
drifter

what do i say  
all that time just thrown away 
 i dont know how to 
 keep lives apart 
 theyre bleeding  
mind is racing  
all you want so far is 
 love, death and some kind of higher high 
 youre reaching  
and if were all just drifting by  
phones in the air  
face to the sky  
all this time to realise  
nothing stopping you 
 from leaving  me

please dont go  
drifter

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Written by Suzanne Collins
Narrated by Santino Fontana
Book published by Scholastic Inc.
Audiobook published by Scholastic Audio

It is the morning of the reaping that will kick off the tenth annual Hunger Games. In the Capitol, eighteen-year-old Coriolanus Snow is preparing for his one shot at glory as a mentor in the Games. The once-mighty house of Snow has fallen on hard times, its fate hanging on the slender chance that Coriolanus will be able to outcharm, outwit, and outmaneuver his fellow students to mentor the winning tribute.
The odds are against him. He’s been given the humiliating assignment of mentoring the female tribute from District 12, the lowest of the low. Their fates are now completely intertwined — every choice Coriolanus makes could lead to favor or failure, triumph or ruin. Inside the arena, it will be a fight to the death. Outside the arena, Coriolanus starts to feel for his doomed tribute . . . and must weigh his need to follow the rules against his desire to survive no matter what it takes.

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