depression

sad.

unknown

usual shit

video : https://youtu.be/qot5_QHWHBg

lyrics

give me my space but don't leave me alone
ran from the place that i never called home
got me a taste of the world i could own
cover my face and i speak with my soul
look in my eyes and you know that i know
but you don't know what you know that i know
follow me down i've got something to show
hand me the key and i'll open the door

i don't want to be all alone
i don't want to walk on my own
i know i tend to be the one to go
but girl without you here i feel so cold

moments in the past i'm moving further from them
moments in the future you can watch while i become them

resurrection

killstation - oxytoca (prod. killstation)

craft

Mori – King (w -xxxtentacion Rmx)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

sample: lontalius - it's not love

if you're reading this ily.

it's not love

stream

iggy universe

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

XEROGI - LONELY

Lyrics

I feel like I fucked up my own life
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm wrong or right
I feel as if the dark beholds a stronger light
Cause my soul has gone into a dark place
Life is no fun when you're stuck in one place
I hate lookin' in the mirror with the same face
All the better times behind me and I can't chase
I might give up, not like you can fight fate

Am I really just a waste? I don't really know
I wanna change but I can't, don't know where to go
Only feel when I break, I like feeling low
I keep in all the hate I don't know how to show
I'm not happy on the inside
Forgot what it's like to feel alive
Inside my head that's filled with lies
I think I'd be better if I just died

fate. | Produced by lezter

@lovejsan - Nineteen (Prod. Tundra Beats)

@lovejsan - Lights Off (Prod By NextLane Beats x Layz)

Lyrics

Am I real? Am I fake?
Every path that I take always sends me right back to the start of the maze
Lost in a haze of the shit that was broken, I can't really say if I'm happy or hopeless
Fuck it, you think it matters it doesn't, what does? I can say for sure that not love
Every connection I had it was all lust, look at 'em now, they're so beautiful, all dust

Ashes of passion, could never imagine that what really has would have ever have happened
From crying to laughing, from peace to me spazzin', I used to have drive but I fucked up and crashed it
I'm still alive but I wish I could die, told me the truth when I wish you would lie
Cause sometimes the fantasy's all that I need, real isn't something I'm ready to be

Valentine in december
You say you love me but you don't remember
I named, you caused me pain
All girls are the same in the end

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me suppress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time at least

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

december. | Produced by capsctrl

@lovejsan - Love Hurts

<3

Follow Alfie here - 
https://www.instagram.com/alfietempleman
https://soundcloud.com/alfie-templeman

Special thanks to my brother Jonno backing guitar, and letting me use his rad studio.



I Feel So Lonely ft. Alfie Templeman

motive

https://soundcloud.com/motive-68752246

art

https://www.manrepeller.com/2019/01/i-woke-up-covered-in-cheese-dust-a-week-of-indulging-my-vices.html

vices (prod. motive [plague beats])

Visual: https://youtu.be/GPKZ9nyH2lM

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I catch a girl I can't let her go
Everyone I every cared for is gone, if you don't wanna stay then let me know
Why does everybody like to waste my time?  If you don't think you are then where're you now?
While I sit alone in my bed and cry, I can't even get high to escape my down

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I say that so many times, ain't shit else to say
Even when I'm happy, I don't really get to feel it, been not so long, I don't really like the feeling
My brain is so messed up, my hardware fried, I got a virus
So much weight I can't get up, if there's any kind of help please help me find it

I been searching for so long for somewhere that I belong
I'm an orphan to my own thoughts
I get so lost but I know where I'll end up
Dead in a box all covered up, my life's a mess, I fucked it up

Where do I go when I don't know where to go? (x4)

Peaceful in Hell, when I'm not I feel so cold
I'm off the rails and back on the same road
Not doing well but this is what I chose
Laugh at my pain, my life is all a joke

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I get it now, I just let it go
Everyone I ever cared for is gone, you don't really wanna stay, I already know
Why does everybody like to waste my time? I got tired of it all, I don't go out now
I just sit alone in my bed and cry, why should I get high when I'll just come down?

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, ain't shit else to say
Never really happy if I think I am, It'll go away
My brain is so messed up, I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

spotify.

virus. | Produced by IOF

produced - slipfunc
mixed & mastered - the insomniac lab

in a world of my own... </3

Run Away With Me

Love at First Sight

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

Happy birthday to me.

Lyrics

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
Fuck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, I'ma be gone

20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like shit

19, wanted her to find me
Last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know
I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope

2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like tracy, toss that bitch I littered

I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died

Fuck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my shit
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me

I know that I'm a mess
So cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less
Getting close to my last breath

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

unknxwn.