Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

addict.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

digital god

quinto passo (desabafo)

@paineko

Lyrics

I cannot fight the thoughts in my mind
I'm sick of myself, I'm wastin' my time
I left my heart in a state I'm not in
The chief he called me and this is not it

I don't know why I'm scared to change
Maybe I got stuck and I'm snared to pain
Maybe this is my luck and I'm not supposed to escape
Maybe I'm made to love the rush I get when I break
Fuck it, I guess that I'm fucked, I'm a fuck up
This pain that I feel I just can't get enough of
Cause I still ain't changed, I'm stuck in my ways
I'm tired of games, I don't wanna play

I wanna smoke, I wanna drink
I wanna get fucked up till I can't think
About why I got fucked up in the first place
I don't know what I need so I need to escape
My head is a mix of betrayal and hate and some sick love
I feel out of place till I mix drugs
My heart's put away and it's bricked up
I got a list of
All of the things that made this way
Everything that fed into pain
Every card that they gave me to play
Every reason I don't wanna stay

spotify.

note 128. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

Lyrics

Where to go? I don't know, hide my soul, I won't show
Anyone the many things I feel when they get too close
Can't be fixed, I'm too broke, I'm searching for new hope
I'ma let you let you find in me what's really there but won't glow

Be the spark I need to burst in flames, I can't go like Kobain
I just wanna see the day I'm saved, I don't want fucking fame
I just need myself to make me safe but I feel out of place
Yeah I might get lots of plays but I still feel like I'm a waste

You don't know how I feel when I see your eyes
I know it's a disguise covering up all the lies
You told me that you cared but you left me fucking scared
Girl I see you everywhere, swear this life ain't fucking fair

Bitch you ain't real nothing but a hoe
I can't even stay with you, I really gotta go
If I don't, you gone leave me cold
Till I'm dead and I'm growing mold

Scars on my heart you can't see
The one I need you can't be
Stayed here so long, now I can't leave
Breathed in your love, now I can't breathe

I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this
Why try when I always end up pissed?
My life is nothing but a ball of shit
I'd cry but I'd rather make a song like this

Why would you hurt me for nothing?
I knew you were up to something
You say you care but you bluffing
I lost my way cause I made you my compass

This is a poem for you my love
The thing I can't take but it is still my drug
I hope we can both learn to go high above
Just so I can knock you down and show you what it's like to trust

You don't even know how hard it was for me to reach out to you
Just for you to do the very thing you said you'd not do
She loves me, she loves me not
Picking pedals off a flower under the moon is all I really got

Nagging about the past, it's all I'm really good at
According to you, it's something we could get back
But looking at your actions, you're something I don't need back
I hope you can find someone, seems you need that

a love letter. | Produced by unknxwn.

lyrics:

Disappointing disappointment death I need an appointment
Life is pointless scream into to the mic until I go voiceless
Overthinking situations till I start to hear voices
My music is a medicine I make from the poison

That intoxicates every single part of me
They said it was a phase but it seems like its a part of me
Only way that I escape, is the drugs that take a part of me
Away from me, the sadness goes away but it takes away the heart of me

So its hard for me, to give back all the love that you would offer me
If it didn't hurt my mom, I would off me
Put myself into a coffin where I oughta be
Yeah thats where I rather be

I'm too weak, life is too much, all this fuck stuff
In two weeks, I'll be heldback, school is rough bruh
I'm amounting to the things that they said I'd be
If you asked them to describe me they'd say "dead to me"

I'm dead to me too, so they're right next to me
Fallin' through a void and there aint nobody catching me

unknxwn. - escitalopram

Lyrics

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Love is a drug and I'm fiending
I fucking mean it
Thought she was who I should be with
But that ain't even close to attaining
I don't like this shit, wanna be faded

The fuck is this shit?
I'm not amazing
So fucking pissed
It's fucking amazing
How I could hold all this pain
Until I find the words that can take it away

I'm not a goat, I'm not a legend
I'm nothing special, I'm not eleven
I'm just a ghost, sending a message
This where my head go when I get stressin'

I'm on a road headed to nowhere
Stay out my head, ain't nobody should go there
My body soaked with all the toxic shit
I don't get how anyone could like this

Numbers don't help, I'm stuck in hell
I don't like the shit that I felt
I'm a lost cause, blow my top off
I'm on the edge, think I'ma walk off

I made an album to let go but it ain't work out
I can still feel all the hurt now
I know that I am a mess so no need to point out
All expectations I won't mount

Tell me please, am I really helping?
By talking bout all the pain that I dealt with
I can't see, who I'm affecting
So I appreciate when I get messaged

I'm just a human going through it
I got some thoughts I don't know what to do with
Other than turning it all into music
I don't what I would do if I lose it

This ain't a song, this an attempt
To show myself that I can get a grip if I really try
Because sometimes I feel like
Life ain't worth the time

Thoughts in my mind
That I don't like
I feel like I'm
Running out of time
I can't take another night