finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

@xweepings

Produced by flower x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

I was so upset the day you left, ain't understand it
Dealing with a broken heart you left, I couldn't stand it
I would lay in bed all day, thinking about those days
When I ain't think that we would ever meet the end of it

Us apart? Can't deal with it, tryna find some new I'm finished with
I wake up just wishing it was all a dream this living shit
I can't do this no more, honestly my soul sore
Don't look in that closed door, why the fuck you think it's closed for?

I keep all my skeletons in there with this feeling that I'm in
I thought I was better than when I was in my past
I can't ever get over this wall, it'd be better to jump off and fall
Your life's better when I'm not involved, if you're not in mine I don't have one at all

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

| weepings |

You were so perfect so how could this be anything but my fault?
Claim that I'm fine but behind the curtains I wake up on asphalt
I need you now more than ever; I still got your lipstick stains on top my sweater

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

Time keeps moving and I keep on proving that I'm stuck inside the past
Girl you still run through my head at times, I'm 6 deep in these cans
In this pain I'm fluent, girl I miss you and I wanna feel your hand
But you took a fucking torch and scorched up all our fucking plans

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

weepings & unknxwn. - disaster.

Lyrics

Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

"ken, I fucking hate you"

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

Tried to run away from the darkness but I can't because it lives inside of me, I'm heartless
All I do is talk to fucking ghosts in this apartment
I don't wanna be alive, I wanna be a carcass
I know that I probably shouldn't say that
But it's what I really feel and I can't fake that
This microphone the only one that hears me
This microphone the only thing that heals me
Why'd you ever leave me? Don't you know I'm still bleeding?
Don't you know I'm still needing? Don't you know I'm still fiending?

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

i won't ever know why i'm like this.

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Produced by GDE TVOYA GOLOVA

Lyrics

Can't get out, baby, I don't know what’s real now
I been in my head for years now and I don't ever think I’ll be healed now
Don't tell me that you love me, I don't care
The one I wanna hear it from, not here
Seems the only friend that I got’s in the mirror
But I can't tell 'cause he don’t talk clear

Don't worry about what they say, listen what they don't say
Hiding through the words but the silence tell you everything
My blessing a curse, only create when I'm in pain
What lil durk say? Give me one more chance

Don't understand what I did so wrong for you to go do me that bad
I showed her my heart, she laughed
Said she’d be right back
She never came back though

Still wish we could get back what we had though
You're a bitch but baby, I'm an asshole
Tryna work on my future still stuck in the past though
Sutures my heart still ain’t healed up from that hoe

Can't get out, baby, I don't know what’s real now
I been in my head for years now and I don't ever think I’ll be healed now
Don't tell me that you love me, I don't care
The one I wanna hear it from, not here
Seems the only friend that I got’s in the mirror
But I can't tell 'cause he don’t talk clear

idc, ily.

every step that i take
every breath that i waste
every second awake
is a debt i will pay
every drop that i bleed
is a blessing from me 
i dont mean anything
im a curse to set free

curse (branwen)

p. michael harrison

i forgot where I was going
there’s a lot inside my mind and im just hoping
that you’d be there to listen and console me 
cause lately ive been feeling fucking lonely 
could you hold me?
cause it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair 
could you kill me where I stand while I stare into your face
I could never let it out all the shit I wanna say
you really showed me how easy it is to be replaced 
just hope he doesn’t die by the hands of knives I shaped
I hope you fall to guilt I hope you feel like shit
just know it’s all your fault that he can’t raise his kids
now you’re a single mom with no will to live
maybe you shouldn’t have been a fucking bitch
cause it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair 
it’s not fair

not fair (michael harrison)

Text:
(Intro – Spoken, mit Gitarrenzerrung)
They said — you can’t mix fire with thunder.
We said — watch us burn the rules down.

(Verse 1 – Rap)
Yeah, plug in the amp, light up the spark,
We crashin’ tradition, we breakin’ the mark.
Old school riff meets the street in the dark,
Truth got teeth and it’s leaving a scar.

They want silence — we want sound,
They draw lines — we tear ‘em down.
No kings, no crowns, just underground,
When rhythm hits, the world spins ’round.

(Chorus – Hardrock Vocals)
Break the law — of sound and fire!
Turn it up — the amps go higher!
No permission, no control,
Let the noise redeem your soul!

(solo)

(Verse 2 – Rap)
Backbeat kickin’ like a riot squad,
Every rhyme a lightning rod.
Guitar screams like a rebel god,
We’re the glitch in your perfect pod.

No labels, no cage,
We write freedom on the stage.
Not a trend, not a phase,
Just the anthem of the brave!

(Bridge – Shouted + Guitar Solo)
No rules — just rhythm and rage!
The crowd’s the storm, the mic’s the blade!

(solo)

(Final Chorus – Full Power)
Break the law — of sound and fire!
Let the riffs lift you higher!
No surrender, no goodbye,
We live loud — and never die!