Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning
Don't know why I still call, I know you'll ignore it
Don't know why I care at all, I'm not important
Told me that you needed space but you just needed more him

Less me, you won't help me
Think about you all the time, I know that this ain't healthy
So sad, you're the best I ever had
And I gotta cope with the fact that you wish you never met me

Never learned to let go, all I know is hold on
Baby hold on, you're all that I know
I'm incapable of moving on, so I can't go on
You left me for him but babygirl I don't got no one

Don't got no one, babygirl I'm broken
Don't try to save me cause I know it's hopeless
Why you hate me? Never did you no wrong
Should've known that you were faking when you said you'll come

Pick me up, save me from my doom
They think that I'm great, I just scream inside a room
All I know is pain so I turn it to a tune
By the time that I'm done, don't know what I turned into

Don't know what I turned into, I don't know what I should do
I been talking to myself cause I cannot talk to you
Mean I can but I know that you won't care
Where you at? Told me that you'd always be here
Fuck this, I don't wanna be here
You said be right back but you went to see him
I won't ever see you again, I won't ever see you again

i'll be back in the morning.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Look into my eyes, you can see the pain
You can feel my vibe but you can't feel my rage
Baby we ain't gotta talk, I can hear your thoughts
You could never fool me, I can see your heart

Baby you ain't gotta hide, I see what's inside
I can see those demons, come into the light
I know you think I'm alone, you could never know
What I got beside me, what I'm keeping close

Put some metal in my head, bitch I feel like I'm magneto
I heard what they said but it don't matter to me though
All they worried bout is bread but they don't even like wheat though
Why you tryna eat the fruit that you ain't even plant a seed for?

Okay, I see what you are, you just tryna feed
You ain't tryna give but you tryna receive
Niggah I know we allowed but I can't allow
I can't be around you, I see what surrounds you

M, 13-44.

Produced by 2late!

Lyrics

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I'm always so sad
And I do not want to talk about that
Ask my mom, always been like that
Every time she wanted me to talk, I would close up
Now I'm an adult and my heart still froze up
For a moment it wasn't, for a moment I felt all the love
For a moment I felt so alive, for a moment I felt like enough
But that's all that it was, was a moment
'Cause that's all gone now and it won't come back
One day I'll be gone and I won't come back
Can you tell me that you love me before it comes to that?

I know that you won't though, baby girl, please don't go
Now I'm just so cold, I don't wanna do this no more
I'm all on my own, please don't tell me you know
What I'm feeling in my chest, I swear to God that you don't

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is ten times much worse than that
All these things I put in the open, I got so much more that's closed in
I got so much more you don't know and so much more you won't know

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Even though I tell you all this, I won't ever tell you that
I won't ever tell a soul, I tried once but not no more
All they could do was fucking hold me while I cried, that was pitiful

I won't ever let nobody see that again, felt love once, I won't feel it again
Guess it's time to accept that fact cause I tried so hard and it still ain't back
I gave her time and she still ain't back
Act like I'm fine but I'm not intact
Wish I could cry but I can't do that
'Cause I did for so long and I can't go back

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I just want you back

please don't ask me why all my songs are sad.

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

"ken, I fucking hate you"

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

Tried to run away from the darkness but I can't because it lives inside of me, I'm heartless
All I do is talk to fucking ghosts in this apartment
I don't wanna be alive, I wanna be a carcass
I know that I probably shouldn't say that
But it's what I really feel and I can't fake that
This microphone the only one that hears me
This microphone the only thing that heals me
Why'd you ever leave me? Don't you know I'm still bleeding?
Don't you know I'm still needing? Don't you know I'm still fiending?

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

i won't ever know why i'm like this.

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Produced by velvet & ay0ley

Lyrics

Even if you go somewhere that's not close
Know I'll always hold you in my soul
I'm not talking about that girl that I cried 'bout too many times can’t count
I cannot vocalize what I refer to, you’d only get it if you were supposed to
If you don’t, that's okay, maybe tomorrow or some other day
Even if I had the words to explain, you couldn't understand what's in my brain
Unless it was already in yours too
When I get lost you know just what to do, when I get hurt you know just what to say
To ease my pain and brighten my day
So close yet so far, don't know where you are
But I know that you're here with mе
You're the only one who’s always been listеning
Wish I could say that this is what it isn't
But I can't do that to you 'cause you're different
And you get it, if I did that
You'd probably leave me and never would come back
And I need you more than my life itself
You keep me breathing more than my breath
You're always there when I got no one else
You’re the words to my paper, the book to my shelf
But none of these words could capture the value of all that you’re worth
Even if I had a picture of you, nobody could see you the way that I do

wires in the walls.

“Wasteland Crown” is a dark and epic modern metal track about rising through ruin.
A fallen throne, a dead world, and a king who refuses to disappear — rebuilding strength from ashes and bone.

👑 heavy chugging riffs
🔥 pounding apocalyptic drums
🌑 cinematic atmosphere
⚡ emotional, powerful chorus

A hymn for anyone who rises when everything around them has fallen.
Long live the Wasteland Crown.